Tuesday's Serial: “Le Fantôme de l'Opéra” By Gaston Leroux (in French) - VI

IX - LE MYSTÉRIEUX COUPÉ

Cette soirée tragique fut mauvaise pour tout le monde. La Carlotta était tombée malade. Quant à Christine Daaé, elle avait disparu après la représentation. Quinze jours s'étaient écoulés sans qu'on l'eût revue au théâtre, sans qu'elle se fût montrée hors du théâtre.

Il ne faut pas confondre cette première disparition qui se passa sans scandale, avec le fameux enlèvement qui, à quelque temps de là, devait se produire dans des conditions si inexplicables et si tragiques.

Raoul fut le premier, naturellement, à ne rien comprendre à l'absence de la diva. Il lui avait écrit à l'adresse de Mme Valérius et n'avait pas reçu de réponse. Il n'en avait pas d'abord été autrement étonné, connaissant son état d'esprit et la résolution où elle était de rompre avec lui toute relation sans que, du reste, il en eût pu encore deviner la raison.

Sa douleur n'en avait fait que grandir, et il finit par s'inquiéter de ne voir la chanteuse sur aucun programme. On donna Faust sans elle. Un après-midi, vers cinq heures, il fut s'enquérir auprès de la direction des causes de cette disparition de Christine Daaé. Il trouva des directeurs fort préoccupés. Leurs amis eux-mêmes ne les reconnaissaient plus: ils avaient perdu toute joie et tout entrain. On les voyait traverser le théâtre, tête basse, le front soucieux, et les joues pâles comme s'ils étaient poursuivis par quelque abominable pensée, ou en proie à quelque malice du destin qui vous prend son homme et ne le lâche plus.

La chute du lustre avait entraîné bien des responsabilités, mais il était difficile de faire s'expliquer MM. les directeurs à ce sujet.

L'enquête avait conclu à un accident, survenu pour cause d'usure des moyens de suspension, mais encore aurait-il été du devoir des anciens directeurs ainsi que des nouveaux de constater cette usure et d'y remédier avant qu'elle ne déterminât la catastrophe.

Et il me faut bien dire que MM. Richard et Moncharmin apparurent à cette époque si changés, si lointains... si mystérieux... si incompréhensibles, qu'il y eut beaucoup d'abonnés pour imaginer que quelque événement plus affreux encore que la chute du lustre, avait modifié l'état d'âme de MM. les directeurs.

Dans leurs relations quotidiennes, ils se montraient fort impatients, excepté cependant avec Mme Giry qui avait été réintégrée dans ses fonctions. On se doute de la façon dont ils reçurent le vicomte de Chagny quand celui-ci vint leur demander des nouvelles de Christine. Ils se bornèrent à lui répondre qu'elle était en congé. Il demanda combien de temps devait durer ce congé; il lui fut répliqué assez sèchement qu'il était illimité, Christine Daaé l'ayant demandé pour cause de santé.

—Elle est donc malade! s'écria-t-il, qu'est-ce qu'elle a?

—Nous n'en savons rien!

—Vous ne lui avez donc pas envoyé le médecin du théâtre?

—Non! elle ne l'a point réclamé et, comme nous avons confiance en elle, nous l'avons crue sur parole.

L'affaire ne parut point naturelle à Raoul, qui quitta l'Opéra en proie aux plus sombres pensées. Il résolut, quoi qu'il pût arriver, d'aller aux nouvelles chez la maman Valérius. Sans doute se rappelait-il les termes énergiques de la lettre de Christine, qui lui défendait de tenter quoi que ce fût pour la voir. Mais ce qu'il avait vu à Perros, ce qu'il avait entendu derrière la porte de la loge, la conversation qu'il avait eue avec Christine au bord de la lande, lui faisait pressentir quelque machination qui, pour être tant soit peu diabolique, n'en restait pas moins humaine. L'imagination exaltée de la jeune fille, son âme tendre et crédule, l'éducation primitive qui avait entouré ses jeunes années d'un cercle de légendes, la continuelle pensée de son père mort, et surtout l'état de sublime extase où la musique la plongeait dès que cet art se manifestait à elle dans certaines conditions exceptionnelles—n'avait-il point été à même d'en juger ainsi lors de la scène du cimetière?—tout cela lui apparaissait comme devant constituer un terrain moral propice aux entreprises malfaisantes de quelque personnage mystérieux et sans scrupules. De qui Christine Daaé était-elle la victime? Voilà la question fort sensée que Raoul se posait en se rendant en toute hâte chez la maman Valérius.

Car le vicomte avait un esprit des plus sains. Sans doute, il était poète et aimait la musique dans ce qu'elle a de plus ailé, et il était grand amateur des vieux contes bretons où dansent les korrigans, et par-dessus tout il était amoureux de cette petite fée du Nord qu'était Christine Daaé; il n'empêche qu'il ne croyait au surnaturel qu'en matière de religion et que l'histoire la plus fantastique du monde n'était pas capable de lui faire oublier que deux et deux font quatre.

Qu'allait-il apprendre chez la maman Valérius? Il en tremblait en sonnant à la porte d'un petit appartement de la rue Notre-Dame-des-Victoires.

La soubrette qui, un soir, était sortie devant lui de la loge de Christine, vint lui ouvrir. Il demanda, si Mme Valérius était visible. On lui répondit qu'elle était souffrante, dans son lit, et incapable de «recevoir».

—Faites passer ma carte, dit-il.

Il n'attendit point longtemps. La soubrette revint et l'introduisit dans un petit salon assez sombre et sommairement meublé où les deux portraits du professeur Valérius et du père Daaé se faisaient vis-à-vis.

—Madame s'excuse auprès de monsieur le vicomte, dit la domestique. Elle ne pourra le recevoir que dans sa chambre, car ses pauvres jambes ne la soutiennent plus.

Cinq minutes plus tard, Raoul était introduit dans une chambre quasi obscure, où il distingua tout de suite, dans la pénombre d'une alcôve, la bonne figure de la bienfaitrice de Christine. Maintenant, les cheveux de la maman Valérius étaient tout blancs, mais ses yeux n'avaient pas vieilli: jamais, au contraire, son regard n'avait été aussi clair, ni aussi pur, ni aussi enfantin.

—M. de Chagny! fit-elle joyeusement en tendant les deux mains au visiteur... Ah! c'est le ciel qui vous envoie!... nous allons pouvoir parler d'elle.

Cette dernière phrase sonna aux oreilles du jeune homme bien lugubrement. Il demanda tout de suite:

—Madame... où est Christine?

Et la vieille dame lui répondit tranquillement:

—Mais, elle est avec son «bon génie»!

Quel bon génie? s'écria le pauvre Raoul.

—Mais l'ange de la musique!

Le vicomte de Chagny, consterné, tomba sur un siège. Vraiment, Christine était avec l'ange de la musique! Et la maman Valérius, dans son lit, lui souriait en mettant un doigt sur sa bouche, pour lui recommander le silence. Elle ajouta:

—Il ne faut le répéter à personne!

—Vous pouvez compter sur moi! répliqua Raoul sans savoir bien ce qu'il disait, car ses idées sur Christine, déjà fort troubles, s'embrouillaient de plus en plus et il semblait que tout commençait à tourner autour de lui, autour de la chambre, autour de cette extraordinaire brave dame en cheveux blancs, aux yeux de ciel bleu pâle, aux yeux de ciel vide... Vous pouvez compter sur moi...»

—Je sais! je sais! fit-elle avec un bon rire heureux. Mais approchez-vous donc de moi, comme lorsque vous étiez tout petit. Donnez-moi vos mains comme lorsque vous me rapportiez l'histoire de la petite Lotte que vous avait contée le père Daaé. Je vous aime bien, vous savez, monsieur Raoul. Et Christine aussi vous aime bien!

—... Elle m'aime bien... soupira le jeune homme, qui rassemblait difficilement sa pensée autour du génie de la maman Valérius, de l'ange dont lui avait parlé si étrangement Christine, de la tête de mort qu'il avait entrevue dans une sorte de cauchemar sur les marches du maître-autel de Perros et aussi du fantôme de l'Opéra, dont la renommée était venue jusqu'à son oreille, un soir qu'il s'était attardé sur le plateau, à deux pas d'un groupe de machinistes qui rappelaient la description cadavérique qu'en avait faite avant sa mystérieuse fin le pendu Joseph Buquet...

Il demanda à voix basse:

—Qu'est-ce qui vous fait croire, madame, que Christine m'aime bien?

—Elle me parlait de vous tous les jours!

—Vraiment?... Et qu'est-ce qu'elle vous disait?...

—Elle m'a dit que vous lui aviez fait une déclaration?...

Et la bonne vieille se prit à rire avec éclat, en montrant toutes ses dents, qu'elle avait jalousement conservées. Raoul se leva, le rouge au front, souffrant atrocement.

—Eh bien! où allez-vous?... Voulez-vous bien vous asseoir?... Vous croyez que vous allez me quitter comme ça?... Vous êtes fâché parce que j'ai ri, je vous en demande pardon... Après tout, ce n'est point de votre faute, ce qui est arrivé... Vous ne saviez pas... Vous êtes jeune... et vous croyiez que Christine était libre...

—Christine est fiancée? demanda d'une voix étranglée le malheureux Raoul.

—Mais non! mais non!... Vous savez bien que Christine,—le voudrait-elle—ne peut pas se marier!...

—Quoi! mais je ne sais rien!... Et pourquoi Christine ne peut-elle pas se marier?

—Mais à cause du génie de la musique!...

—Encore...

—Oui, il le lui défend!...

—Il le lui défend!... Le génie de la musique lui défend de se marier!...

Raoul se penchait sur la maman Valérius, la mâchoire avancée, comme pour la mordre. Il eût eu envie de la dévorer qu'il ne l'eût point regardée avec des yeux plus féroces. Il y a des moments où la trop grande innocence d'esprit apparaît tellement monstrueuse qu'elle en devient haïssable. Raoul trouvait Mme Valérius par trop innocente.

Elle ne se douta point du regard affreux qui pesait sur elle. Elle reprit de l'air le plus naturel:

—Oh! il le lui défend... sans le lui défendre. ... Il lui dit simplement que si elle se mariait, elle ne l'entendrait plus! Voilà tout!... et qu'il partirait pour toujours!... Alors, vous comprenez, elle ne veut pas laisser partir le Génie de la musique. C'est bien naturel.

—Oui, oui, obtempéra Raoul dans un souffle, c'est bien naturel.

—Du reste, je croyais que Christine vous avait dit tout cela, quand elle vous a trouvé à Perros où elle était allée avec son «bon génie».

—Ah! ah! elle était allée à Perros avec le «bon génie»?

—C'est-à-dire qu'il lui avait donné rendez-vous là-bas dans le cimetière de Perros sur la tombe de Daaé! Il lui avait promis de jouer la Résurrection de Lazare sur le violon de son père!

Raoul de Chagny se leva et prononça ces mots décisifs avec une grande autorité:

—Madame, vous allez me dire où il demeure, ce génie-là!

La vieille dame ne parut point autrement surprise de cette question indiscrète. Elle leva les yeux et répondit:

—Au ciel!

Tant de candeur le dérouta. Une aussi simple et parfaite foi dans un génie qui, tous les soirs descendait du ciel pour fréquenter les loges d'artistes à l'Opéra, le laissa stupide.

Il se rendait compte maintenant de l'état d'esprit dans lequel pouvait se trouver une jeune fille élevée entre un ménétrier superstitieux et une bonne dame «illuminée», et il frémit en songeant aux conséquences de tout cela.

—Christine est-elle toujours une honnête fille? ne put-il s'empêcher de demander tout à coup.

—Sur ma part de paradis, je le jure! s'exclama la vieille qui, cette fois, parut outrée... et si vous en doutez, monsieur, je ne sais pas ce que vous êtes venu faire ici!...

Raoul arrachait ses gants.

—Il y a combien de temps qu'elle a fait la connaissance de ce «génie»?

—Environ trois mois!... Oui, il y a bien trois mois qu'il a commencé à lui donner des leçons!

Le vicomte étendit les bras dans un geste immense et désespéré et il les laissa retomber avec accablement.

—Le génie lui donne des leçons!... Et où ça?

—Maintenant qu'elle est partie avec lui, je ne pourrais vous le dire, mais il y a quinze jours, cela se passait dans la loge de Christine. Ici, ce serait impossible dans ce petit appartement. Toute la maison les entendrait. Tandis qu'à l'Opéra, à huit heures du matin, il n'y a personne. On ne les dérange pas!... Vous comprenez?...

—Je comprends! je comprends! s'écria le vicomte, et il prit congé avec précipitation de la vieille maman qui se demandait en a parte si le vicomte n'était pas un peu toqué.

En traversant le salon, Raoul se retrouva en face de la soubrette et, un instant, il eut l'intention de l'interroger, mais il crut surprendre sur ses lèvres un léger sourire. Il pensa qu'elle se moquait de lui. Il s'enfuit. N'en savait-il pas assez?... Il avait voulu être renseigné, que pouvait-il désirer de plus?... Il regagna le domicile de son frère à pied, dans un état à faire pitié...

Il eût voulu se châtier, se heurter le front contre les murs! Avoir cru à tant d'innocence, à tant de pureté! Avoir essayé, un instant, de tout expliquer avec de la naïveté, de la simplicité d'esprit, de la candeur immaculée! Le génie de la musique! Il le connaissait maintenant! Il le voyait! C'était à n'en plus douter quelque affreux ténor, joli garçon, et qui chantait la bouche en cœur! Il se trouvait ridicule et malheureux à souhait! Ah! le misérable, petit, insignifiant et niais jeune homme que M. le vicomte de Chagny! pensait rageusement Raoul, Et elle, quelle audacieuse et sataniquement rouée créature!

Tout de même, cette course dans les rues lui avait fait du bien, rafraîchi un peu la flamme de son cerveau. Quand il pénétra dans sa chambre, il ne pensait plus qu'à se jeter sur son lit pour y étouffer ses sanglots. Mais son frère était là et Raoul se laissa tomber dans ses bras, comme un bébé. Le comte, paternellement, le consola, sans lui demander d'explications; du reste, Raoul eût hésité à lui narrer l'histoire du génie de la musique. S'il y a des choses dont on ne se vante pas, il en est d'autres pour lesquelles il y a trop d'humiliation à être plaint.

Le comte emmena son frère dîner au cabaret. Avec un aussi frais désespoir, il est probable que Raoul eût décliné, ce soir-là, toute invitation si, pour le décider, le comte ne lui avait appris que la veille au soir, dans une allée du Bois, la dame de ses pensées avait été rencontrée en galante compagnie. D'abord, le vicomte n'y voulut point croire et puis il lui fut donné des détails si précis qu'il ne protesta plus. Enfin, n'était-ce point là l'aventure la plus banale? On l'avait vue dans un coupé dont la vitre était baissée. Elle semblait aspirer longuement l'air glacé de la nuit. Il faisait un clair de lune superbe. On l'avait parfaitement reconnue. Quant à son compagnon, on n'en avait distingué qu'une vague silhouette, dans l'ombre. La voiture allait «au pas», dans une allée déserte, derrière les tribunes de Longchamp.

Raoul s'habilla avec frénésie, déjà prêt, pour oublier sa détresse, à se jeter, comme on dit, dans le «tourbillon du plaisir». Hélas! il fut un triste convive et ayant quitté le comte de bonne heure, il se trouva, vers dix heures du soir, dans une voiture de cercle, derrière les tribunes de Longchamp.

Il faisait un froid de loup. La route apparaissait déserte et très éclairée sous la lune. Il donna l'ordre au cocher de l'attendre patiemment au coin d'une petite allée adjacente et, se dissimulant autant que possible, il commença de battre la semelle.

Il n'y avait pas une demi-heure qu'il se livrait à cet hygiénique exercice, quand une voiture, venant de Paris, tourna au coin de la route et, tranquillement, au pas de son cheval, se dirigea de son côté.

Il pensa tout de suite: c'est elle! Et son cœur se prit à frapper à grand coups sourds, comme ceux qu'il avait déjà entendus dans sa poitrine quand il écoutait la voix d'homme derrière la porte de la loge... Mon Dieu! comme il l'aimait!

La voiture avançait toujours. Quant à lui, il n'avait pas bougé. Il attendait!... Si c'était elle, il était bien résolu à sauter à la tête des chevaux!... Coûte que coûte, il voulait avoir une explication avec l'ange de la musique!...

Quelques pas encore et le coupé allait être à sa hauteur. Il ne doutait point que ce fût elle... Une femme, en effet, penchait sa tête à la portière.

Et, tout à coup, la lune l'illumina d'une pâle auréole.

—Christine!

Le nom sacré de son amour lui jaillit des lèvres et du cœur. Il ne put le retenir!... Il bondit pour le rattraper, car ce nom jeté à la face de la nuit, avait été comme le signal attendu d'une ruée furieuse de tout l'équipage, qui passa devant lui sans qu'il eût pris le temps de mettre son projet à exécution. La glace de la portière s'était relevée. La figure de la jeune femme avait disparu. Et le coupé, derrière lequel il courait, n'était déjà plus qu'un point noir sur la route blanche.

Il appela encore: Christine!... Rien ne lui répondit. Il s'arrêta, au milieu du silence.

Il jeta un regard désespéré au ciel, aux étoiles; il heurta du poing sa poitrine en feu; il aimait et il n'était pas aimé!

D'un œil morne, il considéra cette route désolée et froide, la nuit pâle et morte. Rien n'était plus froid, rien n'était plus mort que son cœur: il avait aimé un ange et il méprisait une femme!

Raoul, comme elle s'est jouée de toi, la petite fée du Nord! N'est-ce pas, n'est-ce pas qu'il est inutile d'avoir une joue aussi fraîche, un front aussi timide et toujours prêt à se couvrir du voile rose de la pudeur pour passer dans la nuit solitaire, au fond d'un coupé de luxe, en compagnie d'un mystérieux amant? N'est-ce pas qu'il devrait y avoir des limites sacrées à l'hypocrisie et au mensonge?... Et qu'on ne devrait pas avoir les yeux clairs de l'enfance quand on a l'âme des courtisanes?

... Elle avait passé sans répondre à son appel...

Aussi, pourquoi était-il venu au travers de sa route?

De quel droit a-t-il dressé soudain devant elle, qui ne lui demande que son oubli, le reproche de sa présence?...

«Va-t-en!... disparais!... Tu ne comptes pas!...»

Il songeait à mourir et il avait vingt ans!... Son domestique le surprit, au matin, assis sur son lit. Il ne s'était pas déshabillé et le valet eut peur de quelque malheur en le voyant, tant il avait une figure de désastre. Raoul lui arracha des mains le courrier qu'il lui apportait. Il avait reconnu une lettre, un papier, une écriture. Christine lui disait:

«Mon ami, soyez, après-demain, au bal masqué de l'Opéra, à minuit, dans le petit salon qui est derrière la cheminée du grand foyer; tenez-vous debout auprès de la porte qui conduit vers la Rotonde. Ne parlez de ce rendez-vous à personne au monde. Mettez-vous en domino blanc, bien masqué. Sur ma vie, qu'on ne vous reconnaisse pas. Christine.»

Monday's Illustrated Word: untitled story by Ed Wheelan (in English)

art by Ed Wheelan - Terrific Comics #4 - Temerson-Helnit-Continental, July 1944.

 

Good Reading: "The Dance of Death" by Algernon Blackwood (in English)

Browne went to the dance feeling genuinely depressed, for the doctor had just warned him that his heart was weak and that he must be exceedingly careful in the matter of exertion.

“Dancing?” he asked, with that assumed lightness some natures affect in the face of a severe shock⁠—the plucky instinct to conceal pain.

“Well⁠—in moderation, perhaps,” hummed the doctor. “Not wildly!” he added, with a smile that betrayed something more than mere professional sympathy.

At any other time Browne would probably have laughed, but the doctor’s serious manner put a touch of ice on the springs of laughter. At the age of twenty-six one hardly realises death; life is still endless; and it is only old people who have “hearts” and suchlike afflictions. So it was that the professional dictum came as a real shock; and with it too, as a sudden revelation, came that little widening of sympathy for others that is part of every deep experience as the years roll up and pass.

At first he thought of sending an excuse. He went about carefully, making the ’buses stop dead before he got out, and going very slowly up steps. Then gradually he grew more accustomed to the burden of his dread secret: the commonplace events of the day; the hated drudgery of the office, where he was an underpaid clerk; the contact with other men who bore similar afflictions with assumed indifference; the faultfinding of the manager, making him fearful of his position⁠—all this helped to reduce the sense of first alarm, and, instead of sending an excuse, he went to the dance, as we have seen, feeling deeply depressed, and moving all the time as if he carried in his side a brittle glass globe that the least jarring might break into a thousand pieces.

The spontaneous jollity natural to a boy and girl dance served, however, to emphasise vividly the contrast of his own mood, and to make him very conscious again of his little hidden source of pain. But, though he would gladly have availed himself of a sympathetic ear among the many there whom he knew intimately, he nevertheless exercised the restraint natural to his character, and avoided any reference to the matter that bulked so largely in his consciousness. Once or twice he was tempted, but a prevision of the probable conversation that would ensue stopped him always in time: “Oh, I am so sorry, Mr. Browne, and you mustn’t dance too hard, you know,” and then his careless laugh as he remarked that it didn’t matter a bit, and his little joke as he whirled his partner off for another spin.

He knew, of course, there was nothing very sensational about being told that one’s heart was weak.

Even the doctor had smiled a little; and he now recalled more than one acquaintance who had the same trouble and made light of it. Yet it sounded in Browne’s life a note of profound and sinister gloom. It snatched beyond his reach at one fell swoop all that he most loved and enjoyed, destroying a thousand dreams, and painting the future a dull drab colour without hope. He was an idealist at heart, hating the sordid routine of the life he led as a business underling. His dreams were of the open air, of mountains, forests, and great plains, of the sea, and of the lonely places of the world. Wind and rain spoke intimately to his soul, and the storms of heaven, as he heard them raging at. Night round his high room in Bloomsbury, stirred savage yearnings that haunted him for days afterwards with the voices of the desert. Sometimes during the lunch hour, when he escaped temporarily from the artificial light and close air of his high office stool, to see the white clouds sailing by overhead, and to hear the wind singing in the wires, it set such a fever in his blood that for the remainder of the afternoon he found it impossible to concentrate on his work, and thus exasperated the loud-voiced manager almost to madness.

Having no expectations, and absolutely no practical business ability, he was fortunate, however, in having a “place” at all, and the hard fact that promotion was unlikely made him all the more careful to keep his dreams in their place, to do his work as well as possible, and to save what little he could.

His holidays were the only points of light in an otherwise dreary existence. And one day, when he should have saved enough, he looked forward vaguely to a life close to Nature, perhaps a shepherd on a hundred hills, a dweller in the woods, within sound of his beloved trees and waters, where the smell of the earth and camp fire would be ever in his nostrils, and the running stream always ready to bear his boat swiftly away into happiness.

And now the knowledge that he had a weak heart came to spoil everything. It shook his dream to the very foundations. It depressed him utterly. Any moment the blow might fall. It might catch him in the water, swimming, or halfway up the mountain, or midway in one of his lonely tramps, just when his enjoyment depended most upon his being reckless and forgetful of bodily limitations⁠—that freedom of the spirit in the wilderness he so loved. He might even be forced to spend his holiday, to say nothing of the dream of the far future, in some farmhouse “quietly,” instead of gloriously in the untrodden wilds. The thought made him angry with pain. All day he was haunted and dismayed, and all day he heard the wind whispering among branches and the water lapping somewhere against sandy banks in the sun.

The dance was a small subscription affair, hastily arranged and happily informal. It took place in a large hall that was used in the daytime as a gymnasium, but the floor was good and the music more than good. Foils and helmets hung round the walls, and high up under the brown rafters were ropes, rings, and trapezes coiled away out of reach, their unsightliness further concealed by an array of brightly coloured flags. Only the light was not of the best, for the hall was very long, and the gallery at the far end loomed in a sort of twilight that was further deepened by the shadows of the flags overhead. But its benches afforded excellent sitting-out places, where strong light was not always an essential to happiness, and no one dreamed of finding fault.

At first he danced cautiously, but by degrees the spirit of the time and place relieved his depression and helped him to forget. He had probably exaggerated the importance of his malady. Lots of other fellows, even as young as he was, had weak hearts and thought nothing of it. All the time, however, there was an undercurrent of sadness and disappointment not to be denied. Something had gone out of life. A note of darkness had crept in. He found his partners dull, and they no doubt found him still duller.

Yet this dance, with nothing apparently to distinguish it from a hundred others, stood out in all his experience with an indelible red mark against it. It is a common trick of Nature⁠—and a profoundly significant one⁠—that, just when despair is deepest, she waves a wand before the weary eyes and does her best to waken an impossible hope. Her idea, presumably, being to keep her victim going actively to the very end of the chapter, lest through indifference he should lose something of the lesson she wishes to teach.

Thus it was that, midway in the dance, Browne’s listless glance fell upon a certain girl whose appearance instantly galvanised him into a state of keenest possible desire. A flash of white light entered his heart and set him all on fire to know her. She attracted him tremendously. She was dressed in pale green, and always danced with the same man⁠—a man about his own height and colouring, whose face, however, he never could properly see. They sat out together much of the time⁠—always in the gallery where the shadows were deepest. The girl’s face he saw clearly, and there was something about her that simply lifted him bodily out of himself and sent strange thrills of delight coursing over him like shocks of electricity. Several times their eyes met, and when this happened he could not tear his glance away. She fascinated him, and all the forces in his being merged into a single desire to be with her, to dance with her, speak with her, and to know her name. Especially he wondered who the man was she so favoured; he reminded him so oddly of himself. No one knows precisely what he himself looks like, but this tall dark figure, whose face he never could contrive to see, started the strange thought in him that it was his own double.

In vain he sought to compass an introduction to this girl. No one seemed to know her. Her dress, her hair, and a certain wondrous slim grace made him think of a young tree waving in the wind; of ivy leaves; of something that belonged to the life of the woods rather than to ordinary humanity. She possessed him, filling his thoughts with wild woodland dreams. Once, too, he was certain when their eyes met that she smiled at him, and the call was so well-nigh irresistible that he almost dropped his partner’s arm to run after her.

But it seemed impossible to obtain an introduction from anyone.

“Do you know who that girl is over there?” he asked one of his partners while sitting out a square dance, half exhausted with his exertions; “the one up there in the gallery?” “In pink?”

“No, the one in green, I mean.”

“Oh, next the wallflower lady in red!”

“In the gallery, not under it,” he explained impatiently.

“I can’t see up there. It’s so dark,” returned the girl after a careful survey through glasses. “I don’t think I see anyone at all.”

“It is rather dark,” he remarked.

“Why? Do you know who she is!” she asked foolishly.

He did not like to insist. It seemed so rude to his partner. But this sort of thing happened once or twice. Evidently no one knew this girl in green, or else he described her so inaccurately that the people he asked looked at someone else instead.

“In that green sort of ivy-looking dress,” he tried another.

“With the rose in her hair and the red nose? Or the one sitting out?”

After that he gave it up finally. His partners seemed to sniff a little when he asked. Evidently la désirée was not a popular maiden. Soon after, too, she disappeared and he lost sight of her. Yet the thought that she might have gone home made his heart sink into a sort of horrible blackness.

He lingered on much later than he intended in the hope of getting an introduction, but at last, when he had filled all his engagements, or nearly all, he made up his mind to slip out and go home. It was already late, and he had to be in the office⁠—that hateful office⁠—punctually at nine o’clock. He felt tired, awfully tired, more so than ever before at a dance. It was, of course, his weak heart. He still dawdled a little while, however, hoping for another glimpse of the sylph in green, hungering for a last look that he could carry home with him and perhaps mingle with his dreams. The mere thought of her filled him with pain and joy, and a sort of rarefied delight he had never known before. But he could not wait forever, and it was already close upon two o’clock in the morning. His rooms were only a short distance down the street; he would light a cigarette and stroll home. No; he had forgotten for a moment; without a cigarette: the doctor had been very stern on that point.

He was in the act of turning his back on the whirl of dancing figures, when the flags at the far end of the room parted for an instant in the moving air, and his eye rested upon the gallery just visible among the shadows.

A great pain ran swiftly through his heart as he looked.

There were only two figures seated there: the tall dark man, who was his double, and the ivy girl in green. She was looking straight at him down the length of the room, and even at that distance he could see that she smiled.

He stopped short. The flags waved back again and hid the picture, but on the instant he made up his mind to act. There, among all this dreary crowd of dancing dolls, was someone he really wanted to know, to speak with, to touch⁠—someone who drew him beyond all he had ever known, and made his soul cry aloud. The room was filled with automatic lay-figures, but here was someone alive. He must know her. It was impossible to go home without speech, utterly impossible.

A fresh stab of pain, worse than the first, gave him momentary pause. He leant against the wall for an instant just under the clock, where the hands pointed to two, waiting for the swooning blackness to go. Then he passed on, disregarding it utterly. It supplied him, in truth, with the extra little impetus he needed to set the will into vigorous action, for it reminded him forcibly of what might happen. His time might be short; he had known few enough of the good things of life; he would seize what he could. He had no introduction, but⁠—to the devil with the conventions. The risk was nothing. To meet her eyes at close quarters, to hear her voice, to know something of the perfume of that hair and dress⁠—what was the risk of a snub compared to that?

He slid down the side of the long room, dodging the dancers as best he could. The tall man, he noted, had left the gallery, but the girl sat on alone. He made his way quickly up the wooden steps, light as air, trembling with anticipation. His heart beat like a quick padded hammer, and the blood played a tambourine in his ears. It was odd he did not meet the tall man on the stairs, but doubtless there was another exit from the gallery that he had not observed. He topped the stairs and turned the corner. By Jove, she was still there, a few feet in front of him, sitting with her arms upon the railing, peering down upon the dancers below. His eyes swam for a moment, and something clutched at the very roots of his being.

But he did not hesitate. He went up quite close past the empty seats, meaning to ask naturally and simply if he might beg for the pleasure of a dance. Then, when he was within a few feet of her side, the girl suddenly turned and faced him, and the words died away on his lips. They seemed absolutely foolish and inadequate.

“Yes, I am ready,” she said quietly, looking straight into his eyes; “but what a long time you were in coming. Was it such a great effort to leave?”

The form of the question struck him as odd, but he was too happy to pause. He became transfigured with joy. The sound of her voice instantly drowned all the clatter of the ballroom, and seemed to him the only thing in the whole world. It did not break on the consonants like most human speech. It flowed smoothly; it was the sound of wind among branches, of water running over pebbles. It swept into him and caught him away, so that for a moment he saw his beloved woods and hills and seas. The stars were somewhere in it too, and the murmur of the plains.

By the gods! Here was a girl he could speak with in the words of silence; she stretched every string in his soul and then played on them. His spirit expanded with life and happiness. She would listen gladly to all that concerned him. To her he could talk openly about his poor broken heart, for she would sympathise. Indeed, it was all he could do to prevent himself running forward at once with his arms outstretched to take her. There was a perfume of earth and woods about her.

“Oh, I am so awfully glad⁠—” he began lamely, his eyes on her face. Then, remembering something of earthly manners, he added:

“My name⁠—er⁠—is⁠—”

Something unusual⁠—something indescribable⁠—in her gesture stopped him. She had moved to give him space at her side.

“Your name!” she laughed, drawing her green skirts with a soft rustle like leaves along the bench to make room; “but you need no name now, you know!”

Oh, the wonder of it! She understood him. He sat down with a feeling that he had been flying in a free wind and was resting among the tops of trees. The room faded out temporarily.

“But my name, if you like to know, is Issidy,” she said, still smiling.

“Miss Issidy,” he stammered, making another attempt at the forms of worldly politeness.

“Not Miss Issidy,” she laughed aloud merrily. It surely was the sound of wind in poplars. “Issidy is my first name; so if you call me anything, you must call me that.”

The name was pure music in his ears, but though he blundered about in his memory to find his own, it had utterly vanished; for the life of him he could not recollect what his friends called him. He stared a moment, vaguely wondering, almost beside himself with delight. No other girls he had known⁠—ye heavens above! There were no longer any other girls! He had never known any other girl than this one. Here was his universe, framed in a green dress, with a voice of sea and wind, eyes like the sun, and movements of bending grasses. All else was mere shadow and fantasy. For the first time in his existence he was alive, and knew that he was alive.

“I was sure you would come to me,” she was saying. “You couldn’t help yourself.” Her eyes were always on his face.

“I was afraid at first⁠—”

“But your thoughts,” she interrupted softly, “your thoughts were up here with me all the time.”

“You knew that!” he cried, delighted.

“I felt them,” she replied simply. “They⁠—you kept me company, for I have been alone here all the evening. I know no one else here⁠—yet.”

Her words amazed him. He was just going to ask who the tall dark man was, when he saw that she was rising to her feet and that she wanted to dance.

“But my heart⁠—” he stammered.

“It won’t hurt your poor heart to dance with me, you know,” she laughed. “You may trust me. I shall know how to take care of it.”

Browne felt simply ecstatic; it was too wonderful to be true; it was impossible⁠—this meeting in London, at an ordinary dull dance, in the twentieth century. He would wake up presently from a dream of silver and gold. Yet he felt even then that she was drawing his arm about her waist for the dance, and with that first magical touch he almost lost consciousness and passed with her into a state of pure spirit.

It puzzled him for a moment how they reached the floor so quickly and found themselves among the whirling couples. He had no recollection of coming down the stairs. But meanwhile he was dancing on wings, and the girl in green beside him seemed to fly too, and as he pressed her to his heart he found it impossible to think of anything else in the world but that⁠—that and his astounding happiness.

And the music was within them, rather than without; indeed they seemed to make their own music out of their swift whirling movements, for it never ceased and he never grew tired. His heart had ceased to pain him. Other curious things happened, too, but he hardly noticed them; or, rather, they no longer seemed strange. In that crowded ballroom they never once touched other people. His partner required no steering. She made no sound. Then suddenly he realised that his own feet made no sound either. They skimmed the floor with noiseless feet like spirits dancing. No one else appeared to take the least notice of them. Most of the faces seemed, indeed, strange to him now, as though he had not seen them before, but once or twice he could have sworn that he passed couples who were dancing almost as happily and lightly as themselves, couples he had known in past years, couples who were dead.

Gradually the room emptied of its original comers, and others filled their places, silently, with airy graceful movements and happy faces, till the whole floor at length was covered with the soundless feet and whirling forms of those who had already left the world. And, as the artificial light faded away, there came in its place a soft white light that filled the room with beauty and made all the faces look radiant. And, once, as they skimmed past a mirror, he saw that the girl beside him was not there⁠—that he seemed to be dancing alone, clasping no one; yet when he glanced down, there was her magical face at his shoulder and he felt her little form pressing up against him.

Such dancing, too, he had never even dreamed about, for it was like swinging with the treetops in the winds.

Then they danced farther out, ever swifter and swifter, past the shadows beneath the gallery, under the motionless hanging flags⁠—and out into the night. The walls were behind them. They were off their feet and the wind was in their hair. They were rising, rising, rising towards the stars.

He felt the cool air of the open sky on his cheeks, and when he looked down, as they cleared the summit of the dark-lying hills, he saw that Issidy had melted away into himself and they had become one being. And he knew then that his heart would never pain him again on earth, or cause him to fear for any of his beloved dreams.

But the manager of the “hateful office” only knew two days later why Browne had not turned up to his desk, nor sent any word to explain his absence. He read it in the paper⁠—how he had dropped down dead at a dance, suddenly stricken by heart disease. It happened just before two o’clock in the morning.

“Well,” thought the manager, “he’s no loss to us anyhow. He had no real business instincts. Smith will do his work much better⁠—and for less money too.”

Friday's Sung Word: "Seu Jacinto!" by Noel Rosa (in Portuguese)

 O que eu sinto e não consinto
É seu cinto se afrouxar
Seu Jacinto aperta o cinto
Bota as calças no lugar               

O seu Jacinto tinha que comprar feijão
Mas não tinha um só tostão
E o caixeiro estava duro
Ele não gosta de pagar feijão à vista
Porque sendo futurista
Paga sempre pro futuro

O seu Jacinto que é cheio de chiquê
Eu não sei dizer por quê
Dorme de cartola e fraque
Anda dizendo que o seu sonho dourado
É morrer esmigalhado
Por um carro Cadillac

O seu Jacinto já arranca a sobrancelha
E só bebe mel de abelha
Para ser um doce amor
A tia dele que até hoje é melindrosa
Pra ser leve e vaporosa
Toma banho de vapor

Quando tem baile lá na casa da Teresa
Ela faz pano de mesa
Com o lençol que cobre a cama
Bota nos copos água usada na banheira
Depois diz à turma inteira
Que é cerveja lá da Brahma.

 

You can listen  "Seu Jacinto!" sung by Noel Rosa and Ismael Silva here.