Tuesday 20 February 2024

Tuesday's Serial: “Lavengro” by George Borrow (in English) - II

 

Chapter 3

pretty d— —the venerable church—the stricken heart—dormant energies—the small packet—nerves—the books—a picture—mountain-like billows—the foot-print—spirit of de foe—reasoning powers—terrors of god—heads of the dragons—high church clerk—a journey—the drowned country.

 

And when I was between six and seven years of age we were once more at D—, the place of my birth, whither my father had been despatched on the recruiting service. I have already said that it was a beautiful little town—at least it was at the time of which I am speaking; what it is at present I know not, for thirty years and more have elapsed since I last trod its streets. It will scarcely have improved, for how could it be better than it then was? I love to think on thee, pretty, quiet D—, thou pattern of an English country town, with thy clean but narrow streets branching out from thy modest market-place, with thine old-fashioned houses, with here and there a roof of venerable thatch, with thy one half-aristocratic mansion, where resided thy Lady Bountiful—she, the generous and kind, who loved to visit the sick, leaning on her gold-headed cane, whilst the sleek old footman walked at a respectful distance behind. Pretty quiet D—, with thy venerable church, in which moulder the mortal remains of England's sweetest and most pious bard.

Yes, pretty D—, I could always love thee, were it but for the sake of him who sleeps beneath the marble slab in yonder quiet chancel. It was within thee that the long-oppressed bosom heaved its last sigh, and the crushed and gentle spirit escaped from a world in which it had known nought but sorrow. Sorrow! do I say? How faint a word to express the misery of that bruised reed; misery so dark that a blind worm like myself is occasionally tempted to exclaim, Better had the world never been created than that one so kind, so harmless, and so mild, should have undergone such intolerable woe! But it is over now, for, as there is an end of joy, so has affliction its termination. Doubtless the All-wise did not afflict him without a cause: who knows but within that unhappy frame lurked vicious seeds which the sunbeams of joy and prosperity might have called into life and vigour? Perhaps the withering blasts of misery nipped that which otherwise might have terminated in fruit noxious and lamentable. But peace to the unhappy one, he is gone to his rest; the deathlike face is no longer occasionally seen timidly and mournfully looking for a moment through the window-pane upon thy market-place, quiet and pretty D—; the hind in thy neighbourhood no longer at evening-fall views, and starts as he views, the dark lathy figure moving beneath the hazels and alders of shadowy lanes, or by the side of murmuring trout streams; and no longer at early dawn does the sexton of the old church reverently doff his hat as, supported by some kind friend, the death-stricken creature totters along the church path to that mouldering edifice with the low roof, inclosing a spring of sanatory waters, built and devoted to some saint—if the legend over the door be true, by the daughter of an East Anglian king.

But to return to my own history. I had now attained the age of six: shall I state what intellectual progress I had been making up to this period? Alas! upon this point I have little to say calculated to afford either pleasure or edification. I had increased rapidly in size and in strength: the growth of the mind, however, had by no means corresponded with that of the body. It is true, I had acquired my letters, and was by this time able to read imperfectly; but this was all: and even this poor triumph over absolute ignorance would never have been effected but for the unremitting attention of my parents, who, sometimes by threats, sometimes by entreaties, endeavoured to rouse the dormant energies of my nature, and to bend my wishes to the acquisition of the rudiments of knowledge; but in influencing the wish lay the difficulty. Let but the will of a human being be turned to any particular object, and it is ten to one that sooner or later he achieves it. At this time I may safely say that I harboured neither wishes nor hopes; I had as yet seen no object calculated to call them forth, and yet I took pleasure in many things which perhaps unfortunately were all within my sphere of enjoyment. I loved to look upon the heavens, and to bask in the rays of the sun, or to sit beneath hedgerows and listen to the chirping of the birds, indulging the while in musing and meditation as far as my very limited circle of ideas would permit; but, unlike my brother, who was at this time at school, and whose rapid progress in every branch of instruction astonished and delighted his preceptors, I took no pleasure in books, whose use, indeed, I could scarcely comprehend, and bade fair to be as arrant a dunce as ever brought the blush of shame into the cheeks of anxious and affectionate parents.

But the time was now at hand when the ice which had hitherto bound the mind of the child with its benumbing power was to be thawed, and a world of sensations and ideas awakened to which it had hitherto been an entire stranger. One day a young lady, an intimate acquaintance of our family, and godmother to my brother, drove up to the house in which we dwelt; she staid some time conversing with my mother, and on rising to depart she put down on the table a small packet, exclaiming, "I have brought a little present for each of the boys: the one is a History of England, which I intend for my godson when he returns from school, the other is. . . ."—and here she said something which escaped my ear, as I sat at some distance, moping in a corner,—"I intend it for the youngest yonder," pointing to myself; she then departed, and, my mother going out shortly after, I was left alone.

I remember for some time sitting motionless in my corner, with my eyes bent upon the ground; at last I lifted my head and looked upon the packet as it lay on the table. All at once a strange sensation came over me, such as I had never experienced before—a singular blending of curiosity, awe, and pleasure, the remembrance of which, even at this distance of time, produces a remarkable effect upon my nervous system. What strange things are the nerves—I mean those more secret and mysterious ones in which I have some notion that the mind or soul, call it which you will, has its habitation; how they occasionally tingle and vibrate before any coming event closely connected with the future weal or woe of the human being. Such a feeling was now within me, certainly independent of what the eye had seen or the ear had heard. A book of some description had been brought for me, a present by no means calculated to interest me; what cared I for books? I had already many into which I never looked but from compulsion; friends, moreover, had presented me with similar things before, which I had entirely disregarded, and what was there in this particular book, whose very title I did not know, calculated to attract me more than the rest? yet something within told me that my fate was connected with the book which had been last brought; so, after looking on the packet from my corner for a considerable time, I got up and went to the table.

The packet was lying where it had been left—I took it up; had the envelope, which consisted of whitish brown paper, been secured by a string or a seal I should not have opened it, as I should have considered such an act almost in the light of a crime; the books, however, had been merely folded up, and I therefore considered that there could be no possible harm in inspecting them, more especially as I had received no injunction to the contrary. Perhaps there was something unsound in this reasoning, something sophistical; but a child is sometimes as ready as a grown-up person in finding excuses for doing that which he is inclined to do. But whether the action was right or wrong, and I am afraid it was not altogether right, I undid the packet: it contained three books; two from their similarity seemed to be separate parts of one and the same work; they were handsomely bound, and to them I first turned my attention. I opened them successively, and endeavoured to make out their meaning; their contents, however, as far as I was able to understand them, were by no means interesting; whoever pleases may read these books for me, and keep them too, into the bargain, said I to myself.

I now took up the third book: it did not resemble the others, being longer and considerably thicker; the binding was of dingy calf-skin. I opened it, and as I did so another strange thrill of pleasure shot through my frame. The first object on which my eyes rested was a picture; it was exceedingly well executed, at least the scene which it represented made a vivid impression upon me, which would hardly have been the case had the artist not been faithful to nature. A wild scene it was—a heavy sea and rocky shore, with mountains in the background, above which the moon was peering. Not far from the shore, upon the water, was a boat with two figures in it, one of which stood at the bow, pointing with what I knew to be a gun at a dreadful shape in the water; fire was flashing from the muzzle of the gun, and the monster appeared to be transfixed. I almost thought I heard its cry. I remained motionless, gazing upon the picture, scarcely daring to draw my breath, lest the new and wondrous world should vanish of which I had now obtained a glimpse. "Who are those people, and what could have brought them into that strange situation?" I asked of myself; and now the seed of curiosity, which had so long lain dormant, began to expand, and I vowed to myself to become speedily acquainted with the whole history of the people in the boat. After looking on the picture till every mark and line in it were familiar to me, I turned over various leaves till I came to another engraving; a new source of wonder—a low sandy beach on which the furious sea was breaking in mountain-like billows; cloud and rack deformed the firmament, which wore a dull and leaden-like hue; gulls and other aquatic fowls were toppling upon the blast, or skimming over the tops of the maddening waves—"Mercy upon him! he must be drowned!" I exclaimed, as my eyes fell upon a poor wretch who appeared to be striving to reach the shore; he was upon his legs, but was evidently half smothered with the brine; high above his head curled a horrible billow, as if to engulf him for ever. "He must be drowned! he must be drowned!" I almost shrieked, and dropped the book. I soon snatched it up again, and now my eye lighted on a third picture; again a shore, but what a sweet and lovely one, and how I wished to be treading it; there were beautiful shells lying on the smooth white sand, some were empty like those I had occasionally seen on marble mantelpieces, but out of others peered the heads and bodies of wondrous crayfish; a wood of thick green trees skirted the beach and partly shaded it from the rays of the sun, which shone hot above, while blue waves slightly crested with foam were gently curling against it; there was a human figure upon the beach, wild and uncouth, clad in the skins of animals, with a huge cap on his head, a hatchet at his girdle, and in his hand a gun; his feet and legs were bare; he stood in an attitude of horror and surprise; his body was bent far back, and his eyes, which seemed starting out of his head, were fixed upon a mark on the sand—a large distinct mark—a human footprint!

Reader, is it necessary to name the book which now stood open in my hand, and whose very prints, feeble expounders of its wondrous lines, had produced within me emotions strange and novel? Scarcely, for it was a book which has exerted over the minds of Englishmen an influence certainly greater than any other of modern times, which has been in most people's hands, and with the contents of which even those who cannot read are to a certain extent acquainted; a book from which the most luxuriant and fertile of our modern prose writers have drunk inspiration; a book, moreover, to which, from the hardy deeds which it narrates and the spirit of strange and romantic enterprise which it tends to awaken, England owes many of her astonishing discoveries both by sea and land, and no inconsiderable part of her naval glory.

Hail to thee, spirit of De Foe! What does not my own poor self owe to thee? England has better bards than either Greece or Rome, yet I could spare them easier far than De Foe, "unabashed De Foe," as the hunchbacked rhymer styled him.

The true chord had now been touched; a raging curiosity with respect to the contents of the volume, whose engravings had fascinated my eye, burned within me, and I never rested until I had fully satisfied it; weeks succeeded weeks, months followed months, and the wondrous volume was my only study and principal source of amusement. For hours together I would sit poring over a page till I had become acquainted with the import of every line. My progress, slow enough at first, became by degrees more rapid, till at last, under "a shoulder of mutton sail," I found myself cantering before a steady breeze over an ocean of enchantment, so well pleased with my voyage that I cared not how long it might be ere it reached its termination.

And it was in this manner that I first took to the paths of knowledge.

About this time I began to be somewhat impressed with religious feelings. My parents were, to a certain extent, religious people; but, though they had done their best to afford me instruction on religious points, I had either paid no attention to what they endeavoured to communicate, or had listened with an ear far too obtuse to derive any benefit. But my mind had now become awakened from the drowsy torpor in which it had lain so long, and the reasoning powers which I possessed were no longer inactive. Hitherto I had entertained no conception whatever of the nature and properties of God, and with the most perfect indifference had heard the divine name proceeding from the mouths of people—frequently, alas! on occasions when it ought not to be employed; but I now never heard it without a tremor, for I now knew that God was an awful and inscrutable being, the maker of all things; that we were His children, and that we, by our sins, had justly offended Him; that we were in very great peril from His anger, not so much in this life as in another and far stranger state of being yet to come; that we had a Saviour withal to whom it was necessary to look for help: upon this point, however, I was yet very much in the dark, as, indeed, were most of those with whom I was connected. The power and terrors of God were uppermost in my thoughts; they fascinated though they astounded me. Twice every Sunday I was regularly taken to the church, where, from a corner of the large spacious pew, lined with black leather, I would fix my eyes on the dignified high-church rector, and the dignified high-church clerk, and watch the movement of their lips, from which, as they read their respective portions of the venerable liturgy, would roll many a portentous word descriptive of the wondrous works of the Most High.

Rector. "Thou didst divide the sea, through Thy power: Thou brakest the heads of the dragons in the waters."

Philoh. "Thou smotest the heads of Leviathan in pieces: and gavest him to be meat for the people in the wilderness."

Rector. "Thou broughtest out fountains and waters out of the hard rocks: Thou driedst up mighty waters."

Philoh. "The day is Thine, and the night is Thine: Thou hast prepared the light and the sun."

Peace to your memories, dignified rector, and yet more dignified clerk!—by this time ye are probably gone to your long homes, and your voices are no longer heard sounding down the aisles of the venerable church—nay, doubtless, this has already long since been the fate of him of the sonorous "Amen!"—the one of the two who, with all due respect to the rector, principally engrossed my boyish admiration—he, at least, is scarcely now among the living! Living! why, I have heard say that he blew a fife—for he was a musical as well as a Christian professor—a bold fife, to cheer the Guards and the brave Marines as they marched with measured step, obeying an insane command, up Bunker's height, whilst the rifles of the sturdy Yankees were sending the leaden hail sharp and thick amidst the red-coated ranks; for Philoh had not always been a man of peace, nor an exhorter to turn the other cheek to the smiter, but had even arrived at the dignity of a halberd in his country's service before his six-foot form required rest, and the gray-haired veteran retired, after a long peregrination, to his native town, to enjoy ease and respectability on a pension of "eighteenpence a day;" and well did his fellow-townsmen act when, to increase that ease and respectability, and with a thoughtful regard for the dignity of the good church service, they made him clerk and precentor—the man of the tall form and of the audible voice, which sounded loud and clear as his own Bunker fife. Well, peace to thee, thou fine old chap, despiser of dissenters, and hater of papists, as became a dignified and high-church clerk; if thou art in thy grave the better for thee; thou wert fitted to adorn a bygone time, when loyalty was in vogue, and smiling content lay like a sunbeam upon the land, but thou wouldst be sadly out of place in these days of cold philosophical latitudinarian doctrine, universal tolerism, and half-concealed rebellion—rare times, no doubt, for papists and dissenters, but which would assuredly have broken the heart of the loyal soldier of George the Third, and the dignified high-church clerk of pretty D—.

We passed many months at this place: nothing, however, occurred requiring any particular notice, relating to myself, beyond what I have already stated, and I am not writing the history of others. At length my father was recalled to his regiment, which at that time was stationed at a place called Norman Cross, in Lincolnshire, or rather Huntingdonshire, at some distance from the old town of Peterborough. For this place he departed, leaving my mother and myself to follow in a few days. Our journey was a singular one. On the second day we reached a marshy and fenny country, which, owing to immense quantities of rain which had lately fallen, was completely submerged. At a large town we got on board a kind of passage-boat, crowded with people; it had neither sails nor oars, and those were not the days of steam-vessels; it was in a treck-schuyt, and was drawn by horses. Young as I was, there was much connected with this journey which highly surprised me, and which brought to my remembrance particular scenes described in the book which I now generally carried in my bosom. The country was, as I have already said, submerged—entirely drowned—no land was visible; the trees were growing bolt upright in the flood, whilst farmhouses and cottages were standing insulated; the horses which drew us were up to the knees in water, and, on coming to blind pools and "greedy depths," were not unfrequently swimming, in which case the boys or urchins who mounted them sometimes stood, sometimes knelt, upon the saddle and pillions. No accident, however, either to the quadrupeds or bipeds, who appeared respectively to be quite au fait in their business, and extricated themselves with the greatest ease from places in which Pharaoh and all his hosts would have gone to the bottom. Nightfall brought us to Peterborough, and from thence we were not slow in reaching the place of our destination.

 

 

Chapter 4

    normancross—wide expanse—vive l'empereur—unpruned woods—man with the bag—froth and conceit—i beg your pardon—growing timid—about three o'Clock—taking one's ease—cheek on the ground—king of the vipers—french king—frenchmen and water.

 

And a strange place it was, this Norman Cross, and, at the time of which I am speaking, a sad cross to many a Norman, being what was then styled a French prison, that is, a receptacle for captives made in the French war. It consisted, if I remember right, of some five or six casernes, very long, and immensely high; each standing isolated from the rest, upon a spot of ground which might average ten acres, and which was fenced round with lofty palisades, the whole being compassed about by a towering wall, beneath which, at intervals, on both sides, sentinels were stationed, whilst outside, upon the field, stood commodious wooden barracks, capable of containing two regiments of infantry, intended to serve as guards upon the captives. Such was the station or prison at Norman Cross, where some six thousand French and other foreigners, followers of the grand Corsican, were now immured.

What a strange appearance had those mighty casernes, with their blank blind walls, without windows or grating, and their slanting roofs, out of which, through orifices where the tiles had been removed, would be protruded dozens of grim heads, feasting their prison-sick eyes on the wide expanse of country unfolded from that airy height. Ah! there was much misery in those casernes; and from those roofs, doubtless, many a wistful look was turned in the direction of lovely France. Much had the poor inmates to endure, and much to complain of, to the disgrace of England be it said—of England, in general so kind and bountiful. Rations of carrion meat, and bread from which I have seen the very hounds occasionally turn away, were unworthy entertainment even for the most ruffian enemy, when helpless and a captive; and such, alas! was the fare in those casernes. And then, those visits, or rather ruthless inroads, called in the slang of the place "straw-plait hunts," when in pursuit of a contraband article, which the prisoners, in order to procure themselves a few of the necessaries and comforts of existence, were in the habit of making, red-coated battalions were marched into the prisons, who, with the bayonet's point, carried havoc and ruin into every poor convenience which ingenious wretchedness had been endeavouring to raise around it; and then the triumphant exit with the miserable booty; and, worst of all, the accursed bonfire, on the barrack parade, of the plait contraband, beneath the view of the glaring eyeballs from those lofty roofs, amidst the hurrahs of the troops, frequently drowned in the curses poured down from above like a tempest-shower, or in the terrific war-whoop of "Vive l'Empereur!"

It was midsummer when we arrived at this place, and the weather, which had for a long time been wet and gloomy, now became bright and glorious; I was subjected to but little control, and passed my time pleasantly enough, principally in wandering about the neighbouring country. It was flat and somewhat fenny, a district more of pasture than agriculture, and not very thickly inhabited. I soon became well acquainted with it. At the distance of two miles from the station was a large lake, styled in the dialect of the country "a mere," about whose borders tall reeds were growing in abundance, this was a frequent haunt of mine; but my favourite place of resort was a wild sequestered spot at a somewhat greater distance. Here, surrounded with woods and thick groves, was the seat of some ancient family, deserted by the proprietor, and only inhabited by a rustic servant or two. A place more solitary and wild could scarcely be imagined; the garden and walks were overgrown with weeds and briars, and the unpruned woods were so tangled as to be almost impervious. About this domain I would wander till overtaken by fatigue, and then I would sit down with my back against some beech, elm, or stately alder tree, and, taking out my book, would pass hours in a state of unmixed enjoyment, my eyes now fixed on the wondrous pages, now glancing at the sylvan scene around; and sometimes I would drop the book and listen to the voice of the rooks and wild pigeons, and not unfrequently to the croaking of multitudes of frogs from the neighbouring swamps and fens.

In going to and from this place I frequently passed a tall elderly individual, dressed in rather a quaint fashion, with a skin cap on his head and stout gaiters on his legs; on his shoulders hung a moderate sized leathern sack; he seemed fond of loitering near sunny banks, and of groping amidst furze and low scrubby bramble bushes, of which there were plenty in the neighbourhood of Norman Cross. Once I saw him standing in the middle of a dusty road, looking intently at a large mark which seemed to have been drawn across it, as if by a walking-stick. "He must have been a large one," the old man muttered half to himself, "or he would not have left such a trail, I wonder if he is near; he seems to have moved this way." He then went behind some bushes which grew on the right side of the road, and appeared to be in quest of something, moving behind the bushes with his head downwards, and occasionally striking their roots with his foot: at length he exclaimed, "Here he is!" and forthwith I saw him dart amongst the bushes. There was a kind of scuffling noise, the rustling of branches, and the crackling of dry sticks. "I have him!" said the man at last; "I have got him!" and presently he made his appearance about twenty yards down the road, holding a large viper in his hand. "What do you think of that, my boy?" said he, as I went up to him; "what do you think of catching such a thing as that with the naked hand?" "What do I think?" said I. "Why, that I could do as much myself." "You do," said the man, "do you? Lord! how the young people in these days are given to conceit; it did not use to be so in my time: when I was a child, childer knew how to behave themselves; but the childer of these days are full of conceit, full of froth, like the mouth of this viper;" and with his forefinger and thumb he squeezed a considerable quantity of foam from the jaws of the viper down upon the road. "The childer of these days are a generation of—God forgive me, what was I about to say!" said the old man; and opening his bag he thrust the reptile into it, which appeared far from empty. I passed on. As I was returning, towards the evening, I overtook the old man, who was wending in the same direction. "Good evening to you, sir," said I, taking off a cap which I wore on my head. "Good evening," said the old man; and then, looking at me, "How's this?" said he, "you aren't, sure, the child I met in the morning?" "Yes," said I, "I am; what makes you doubt it?" "Why, you were then all froth and conceit," said the old man, "and now you take off your cap to me." "I beg your pardon," said I, "if I was frothy and conceited, it ill becomes a child like me to be so." "That's true, dear," said the old man; "well; as you have begged my pardon, I truly forgive you." "Thank you," said I; "have you caught any more of those things?" "Only four or five," said the old man; "they are getting scarce, though this used to be a great neighbourhood for them." "And what do you do with them?" said I; "do you carry them home and play with them!" "I sometimes play with one or two that I tame," said the old man; "but I hunt them mostly for the fat which they contain, out of which I make unguents which are good for various sore troubles, especially for the rheumatism." "And do you get your living by hunting these creatures?" I demanded. "Not altogether," said the old man; "besides being a viper-hunter, I am what they call a herbalist, one who knows the virtue of particular herbs; I gather them at the proper season, to make medicines with for the sick." "And do you live in the neighbourhood?" I demanded. "You seem very fond of asking questions, child. No, I do not live in this neighbourhood in particular, I travel about; I have not been in this neighbourhood till lately for some years."

From this time the old man and myself formed an acquaintance; I often accompanied him in his wanderings about the neighbourhood, and on two or three occasions assisted him in catching the reptiles which he hunted. He generally carried a viper with him which he had made quite tame, and from which he had extracted the poisonous fangs; it would dance and perform various kinds of tricks. He was fond of telling me anecdotes connected with his adventures with the reptile species. "But," said he one day, sighing, "I must shortly give up this business, I am no longer the man I was, I am become timid, and when a person is timid in viper-hunting he had better leave off, as it is quite clear his virtue is leaving him. I got a fright some years ago, which I am quite sure I shall never get the better of; my hand has been shaky more or less ever since." "What frightened you?" said I. "I had better not tell you," said the old man, "or you may be frightened too, lose your virtue, and be no longer good for the business." "I don't care," said I; "I don't intend to follow the business: I dare say I shall be an officer, like my father." "Well," said the old man, "I once saw the king of the vipers, and since then—" "The king of the vipers!" said I, interrupting him; "have the vipers a king?" "As sure as we have," said the old man—"as sure as we have King George to rule over us, have these reptiles a king to rule over them." "And where did you see him?" said I. "I will tell you," said the old man, "though I don't like talking about the matter. It may be about seven years ago that I happened to be far down yonder to the west, on the other side of England, nearly two hundred miles from here, following my business. It was a very sultry day, I remember, and I had been out several hours catching creatures. It might be about three o'clock in the afternoon, when I found myself on some heathy land near the sea, on the ridge of a hill, the side of which, nearly as far down as the sea, was heath; but on the top there was arable ground, which had been planted, and from which the harvest had been gathered—oats or barley, I know not which—but I remember that the ground was covered with stubble. Well, about three o'clock, as I told you before, what with the heat of the day and from having walked about for hours in a lazy way, I felt very tired; so I determined to have a sleep, and I laid myself down, my head just on the ridge of the hill, towards the field, and my body over the side down amongst the heath; my bag, which was nearly filled with creatures, lay at a little distance from my face; the creatures were struggling in it, I remember, and I thought to myself, how much more comfortably off I was than they; I was taking my ease on the nice open hill, cooled with the breezes, whilst they were in the nasty close bag, coiling about one another, and breaking their very hearts all to no purpose: and I felt quite comfortable and happy in the thought, and little by little closed my eyes, and fell into the sweetest snooze that ever I was in in all my life; and there I lay over the hill's side, with my head half in the field, I don't know how long, all dead asleep. At last it seemed to me that I heard a noise in my sleep, something like a thing moving, very faint, however, far away; then it died, and then it came again upon my ear as I slept, and now it appeared almost as if I heard crackle, crackle; then it died again, or I became yet more dead asleep than before, I know not which, but I certainly lay some time without hearing it. All of a sudden I became awake, and there was I, on the ridge of the hill, with my cheek on the ground towards the stubble, with a noise in my ear like that of something moving towards me, among the stubble of the field; well, I lay a moment or two listening to the noise, and then I became frightened, for I did not like the noise at all, it sounded so odd; so I rolled myself on my belly, and looked towards the stubble. Mercy upon us! there was a huge snake, or rather a dreadful viper, for it was all yellow and gold, moving towards me, bearing its head about a foot and a half above the ground, the dry stubble crackling beneath its outrageous belly. It might be about five yards off when I first saw it, making straight towards me, child, as if it would devour me. I lay quite still, for I was stupefied with horror, whilst the creature came still nearer; and now it was nearly upon me, when it suddenly drew back a little, and then—what do you think?—it lifted its head and chest high in the air, and high over my face as I looked up, flickering at me with its tongue as if it would fly at my face. Child, what I felt at that moment I can scarcely say, but it was a sufficient punishment for all the sins I ever committed; and there we two were, I looking up at the viper, and the viper looking down upon me, flickering at me with its tongue. It was only the kindness of God that saved me: all at once there was a loud noise, the report of a gun, for a fowler was shooting at a covey of birds, a little way off in the stubble. Whereupon the viper sunk its head and immediately made off over the ridge of the hill, down in the direction of the sea. As it passed by me, however—and it passed close by me—it hesitated a moment, as if it was doubtful whether it should not seize me; it did not, however, but made off down the hill. It has often struck me that he was angry with me, and came upon me unawares for presuming to meddle with his people, as I have always been in the habit of doing."

"But," said I, "how do you know that it was the king of the vipers?"

"How do I know?" said the old man, "who else should it be? There was as much difference between it and other reptiles as between King George and other people."

"Is King George, then, different from other people?" I demanded.

"Of course," said the old man; "I have never seen him myself, but I have heard people say that he is a ten times greater man than other folks; indeed, it stands to reason that he must be different from the rest, else people would not be so eager to see him. Do you think, child, that people would be fools enough to run a matter of twenty or thirty miles to see the king, provided King George—"

"Haven't the French a king?" I demanded.

"Yes," said the old man, "or something much the same, and a queer one he is; not quite so big as King George, they say, but quite as terrible a fellow. What of him?"

"Suppose he should come to Norman Cross!"

"What should he do at Norman Cross, child?"

"Why, you were talking about the vipers in your bag breaking their hearts, and so on, and their king coming to help them. Now, suppose the French king should hear of his people being in trouble at Norman Cross, and—"

"He can't come, child," said the old man, rubbing his hands, "the water lies between. The French don't like the water; neither vipers nor Frenchmen take kindly to the water, child."

When the old man left the country, which he did a few days after the conversation which I have just related, he left me the reptile which he had tamed and rendered quite harmless by removing the fangs. I was in the habit of feeding it with milk, and frequently carried it abroad with me in my walks.

Saturday 17 February 2024

Good Reading: "Cântico de Núpcias" by D. Marcos Barbosa (in Portuguese)

 Nossos caminhos são agora um só caminho,

nossas almas, uma só alma.

Cantarão para nós os mesmos pássaros,

e os mesmos anjos desdobrarão sobre nós

as invisíveis asas.

Temos agora por espelho os nossos olhos;

o teu riso dirá a minha alegria,

e o teu pranto, a minha tristeza.

Se eu fechar os olhos, tu estarás presente;

se eu adormecer, serás o meu sonho;

e serás, ao despertar, o sol que desponta.

 

Nossos mapas serão iguais,

e traçaremos juntos os mesmos roteiros

que conduzam às fontes escondidas

e aos tesouros ocultos.

Na mesma página do Evangelho encontraremos o Cristo,

partiremos na ceia o mesmo pão;

meus amigos serão os teus amigos,

perdoaremos com iguais palavras

aqueles que nos invejam.

 

Será nossa leitura à luz da mesma lâmpada,

aqueceremos as mãos ao mesmo fogo

e veremos em silêncio desabrochar no jardim

a primeira rosa da Primavera.

Iremos depois nos descobrindo nos filhos que crescem,

e não mais saberemos distinguir em cada um

os meus traços e os teus,

o meu e o teu gesto,

e então nos tornaremos parecidos.

E nem o mundo nem a guerra nem a morte,

nada mais poderá separar-nos,

pois seremos mais que nunca,

em cada filho,

uma só carne

e um só coração.

 

Que o homem não separe o que Deus uniu.

Que o tempo não destrua a aliança que nos prende,

nem os amores, o amor.

 

Que eu não tenha outro repouso que o teu peito,

outro amparo que a tua mão,

outro alimento que o teu sorriso.

E, quando eu fechar os olhos para a grande noite,

sejam tuas as mãos que hão de fechá-los.

E, quando os abrir para a visão de Deus,

possa contemplar-te como o caminho

que me levou, dia após dia,

à fonte de todo amor.

 

Nossos caminhos são agora um só caminho,

nossas almas, uma só alma.

Já não preciso estender a mão para alcançar-te,

já não precisas falar para que eu te escute...

Friday 16 February 2024

Friday's Sung Word: "Dileta" by Cândido das Neves (in Portuguese)

Esta noite prateada
Minha eterna e doce amada
A chamar-te me insinua
Nos acordes desta lira
Que de amor geme e suspira
Ante o albor níveo da Lua

O rendado da neblina
Mais parece uma cortina
Numa festa de noivado
A Lua é noiva bela
Recostada na janela
De um palácio constelado

Que beleza nas estrelas
Ah, se tu pudesses vê-las
Como estão no céu sorrindo
Espreitando com cautela
Pelas frestas da janela
Do quarto onde estás dormindo

Minh'alma dorme sonhando
Geme e chora te chamando
Pelo espaço como louca
Ah, se a aurora despontasse
Quem dera que me encontrasse
A beijar a tua boca

Desperta
Vem matar meu desejo
A minh'alma, vaga incerta
À procura do teu beijo
Dileta
Tu formosa, eu poeta
Quero por nos tristes versos meus
As rimas dos beijos teus

A natura assim te chama
E a meu peito já reclama
A quentura dos teus seios
Os astros são já escassos
Vem, sufoca-me em teus braços
Antes que eu morra de anseios

As estrelas cintilantes
São lanternas dos amantes
Pelo espaço a flutuar
Como Deus é inspirado
Inventou para o pecado
Estas noites de luar

You can listen "Dileta" sung by Carlos José here.

Thursday 15 February 2024

Thursday's Serial: "Aurora" by José Thiesen (in Portuguese) - III

 

16º dia do mês da Vitória

 

Lúcia

            A intenção de Lúcia, ficando em casa e assistindo televisão, era não pensar. Ela sabia que assistir pornografia era a melhor coisa para não pensar e por isso a televisão passava 24 horas de pornografia.

            Agora, ela assistia “A Partilha”. Nela, a heroína se oferecia para confortar cada cidadão de sua cidade em todas as formas possíveis. Lúcia estava atenta ao sentido profundo do programa e como isso fazia da personagem um exemplo para todos, mas o que prendia Lúcia em frente ao monitor de TV era a atriz mesma do seriado.

            Suzana R-410 atuava sob o psudônimo de Suzana 410410. Ela havia sido paciente de Lúcia; uma ex-criminosa, agora reprogramada, útil à sociedade como uma notável atriz, num programa de forte conteúdo intelectual e cívico .

            Suzana R-410 era notável para Lúcia porque era dos poucos reabilitados que ela voltara a ver depois do processo acabado.

            Para onde iam os reabilitados?

            Suzana também a perdoara. Que mal poderia Lúcia lhe estar fazendo? A própria Lúcia gostaria de estar no lugar de Suzana R-410. Afinal, quem não gostaria de ser atriz de televisão? Lúcia era rica, mas não famosa. Seu nome não aparecia nas telas de televisão, nem era reconhecida e amada por milhares em todas as cidades do planeta.

            Uma criminosa a perdoara por lhe estar dando um lugar digno na sociedade humana!

            O que os criminosos ocultavam dela? Na verdade, ela não sabia nada sobre eles, além de que seguiam a Pérfida Doutrina, mas isso todos sabiam. Porque se recusam a fazer parte do reino de deus, mas continuam marcados pela besta, era o grande mistério.

Cristo diz que é o mistério do Mal, o qual só nos será revelado quando morrermos.

Mas se eles são do Mal, marcados pela besta, porque “perdoar” e com não mal na voz?

Lúcia olhou para o relógio que olhava para ela a sorrir enquanto Suzana R-410 desfazia-se em orgasmos, sem que a câmera registrasse que ela via as primeiras alucinações que a acometiam.

 

* * * *

Pio XIII

            Jochum pensava na esposa e filho deixados mortos no que foi então a Basílica de São Pedro. Tanto mal, tanta tristeza! Sequer tiveram um túmulo, sequer ele se pode despedir deles. O horror da basílica a ruir engolfada por chamas com seus amados entre a multidão que procurara lá refúgio, fez Jochum tremer em agonia.

            - Não te preocupes, que tudo está sob controle, disse o homem que sentou ao seu lado.

            - Eu tento crer nisso, disse Jochum.

            - Sim, às vezes é difícil ver luz, quando tudo à volta são trevas. Ainda crês em Deus?

            - E que Ele me ama, e que é o Senhor e tudo o mais? Acho que sim. Sua Santidade vê e fala com Jesus, bem sabes.

            - Sim, eu sei. Então sabes que tudo está sob controle. É somente uma questão de tempo, porque, sabes, Deus não apaga uma vela que ainda fumega. Lembras-te do diálogo entre Ele e Abraão, quando Deus disse-lhe que iria destruir Sodoma? De como Abraão tremeu porque seu sobrinho e família moravam lá?

            - Lembro. Abraão ficou perguntando “mas e se na cidade vivessem cem justos, tu ainda a destruirias e aos justos também?”

            - Exatamente. Deus lhe disse que não, que por causa de cem justos no meio de mil que não o eram, ele não destruiria a cidade. E Abraão foi lhe fazendo sucessivas perguntas, sempre reduzindo o número de justos, até chegar ao número dos parentes seus que viviam em Sodoma e Deus sempre a insistir que não destruiria a cidade se nela vivessem dez justos no meio de mil perversos.

            - É isso o que está acontecendo agora? perguntou Jochum.

            - Deus tirou Lot e sua família de Sodoma e então fez a cidade ruir, porque não era bom que dez inocentes sofressem em meio a mil pecadores empedernidos. Mas agora, não é mais nem um número de mil injustos, nem mais o espaço duma cidade, mas Deus não destruirá a sodoma em que este planeta se transformou enquanto houver um único justo sobre a terra. Agora, não se turbe mais teu coração. Saibas que há uma enorme multidão junto de Deus a rezar por ti e todos querendo que experimentes com eles a eterna alegria de contemplar a face de Deus. Sejas homem, firme e fiel, nem vascile o teu coração. É só esperar um pouquinho mais e tudo será como nunca imaginaste que as coisas pudessem ser.

            Com um tapinha no ombro, o homem levantou-se e se afastou do jovem.

            Mathias aproximou-se com as mãos cheias de morangos.

            - Veja só que achei, Jochum! Morangos para todos!

            - Oberst, pensei que estavas comigo agora a pouco!

            - Agora, não! Acabei de chegar de minha busca por comida! Era tanto morango que tive que fazer uma trouxa com minha camisa. São doces como o mel! Coma, que os outros já estão servidos!

            Mas Jochum estava esquecido de sua fome – e de sua tristeza e medo. Subitamente percebera que não conhecia o homem com quem falara. Ele não fazia parte do grupo.

            - Coma! insistiu Mathias num sorriso. Parece que viste uma garota bonita!

            - Não uma garota, Oberst. Não sei o que vi, mas era melhor que uma garota.

Mathias sentou-se ao seu lado e Jochum contou-lhe tudo. Mathias a tudo ouviu em silêncio e em silêncio comeram juntos os morangos.

Estavam confortados e alegres, mas também cheios de temor por saberem que faziam parte de algo que era muito maior que eles mesmos.

 

* * * *

Flamínea

            Pilates tomou o resto de café que havia na xícara e voltou à mesa onde ditava seu discurso ao robot secretário.

            - ...Mas as coisas que me foram reveladas mostravam-me algo que, a princípio não percebi claramente. Mas que, quanto mais estudava, mais ela se tornava aparente.

            “Nossos pais tinham um amor à arte, à cultura, ao constante desenvolvimento intelectual de si mesmos e de seus filhos. Eles tinham orgulho de serem humanos.

            “Que procurassem destruir o amor a tais valores na massa de idiotumanos que superpopulavam o planeta, era necessário e desejável, mas eles queriam para si a posse de tais valores.

            “Que fizessem a plebe desprezar o próprio corpo a fim de se imporem toda a sorte de mutilações só por “sentirem” que isso era correto, era justo e bom, era admissível, mas eles jamais se permitiram perder orgulho de terem corpo e zelavam pelo deles.

            “Eles quizeram preservar para nós as principais Ex-Cidades, por seus valores artísticos e históricos, por serem marcos da ação libertadora das Famílias, para serem, enfim, paradigmas e pontos de partida para o desenvolvimento total de seus filhos.

            “Mas seus filhos, crescidos em Edem tomaram um outro rumo. Eu não encontrei esse dado no informatório, mas em nossas vidas cá em Eden. A partir de algum momento, nos fechamos em nós mesmos e a abertura para o mundo que nossos pais tinham se foi perdendo em sua descendência.

            “A última vez que alguém foi ao informatório antes de mim, tinha sido a 68 anos!

            “Como é possível que em 68 anos ninguém tenha se interessado em buscar alguma informação no lugar onde está guardada toda a nossa cultura? Tudo o que sabemos sobre nós, sobre nosso planeta, sobre o universo em que vivemos está lá e não nos interessa!

´           “Mas muito mais terrível é saber que em mais de 120 anos, nenhum de nós foi capaz de acrescentar uma linha de conhecimento ao que já estava estabelecido quando Eden foi fundado!

            “Como isso é possível, senhores do Conselho?”

            Então começaria a parte mais difícil e delicada de seu discurso: a Pérfida Doutrina e o homem crucificado que ele encontrara em Ex-Paris.