Chapter 12
I
A
certain struggling incoherence is manifest in Spinrobin's report of it all, as
of a man striving to express violent thoughts in a language he has not yet
mastered. It is evident, for instance, as those few familiar with the
"magical" use of sound in ceremonial and the power that resides in
"true naming" will realize, that he never fully understood Skale's
intended use of the chord, or why this complex sound was necessary for the
utterance of the complex "Name."
Moreover,
the powers concealed in the mere letters, while they laid hold upon his
imagination, never fully entered his understanding. Few minds, it seems, can
conceive of any deity as other than some anthropomorphic extension of
themselves, for the idea is too greatly blinding to admit human thought within
a measurable distance even of a faintest conception. The true, stupendous
nature of the forces these letters in the opening syllable clothed, Spinrobin
unquestionably never apprehended. Miriam, with her naked and undefiled
intuitions, due to utter ignorance of worldly things from birth, came nearer to
the reality; but then Miriam was now daily more and more caught up into the
vortex of a sweet and compelling human love, and in proportion as this grew she
feared the great experiment that might--so Spinrobin had suggested--spell Loss.
Gradually dread closed the avenues of her spirit that led so fearfully to
Heaven; and in their place she saw the dear yet thorny paths that lay with
Spinny upon the earth.
They
no longer, these two bewildered loving children, spoke of one another in the
far-fetched terminology of sound and music. He no longer called her his
"brilliant little sound," nor did she respond with "you perfect
echo"; they fell back--sign of a gradual concession to more human
things--upon the gentler terminology, if the phrase may be allowed, of Winky.
They shared Winky between them ... though neither one nor other of them divined
yet what Winky actually meant in their just-opening lives.
"Winky
is yours," she would say, "because you made him, but he belongs to me
too, because he simply can't live without me!"
"Or
I without you, Little Magic," he whispered, laughing tenderly. "So,
you see, we are all three together."
Her
face grew slightly troubled.
"He
only pays me visits, though. Sometimes I think you hide him, or tell him not to
come." And far down in her deep grey eyes swam the first moisture of
rising tears. "Don't you, my wonderful Spinny?"
"Sometimes
I forget him, perhaps," he replied gravely, "but that is only when I
think of what may be coming if--the experiment succeeds--"
"Succeeds?"
she exclaimed. "You mean if it fails!" Her voice dropped
instinctively, and they looked over their shoulders to make sure they were
alone.
He
came up very close to her and spoke in her small pink ear. "If it
succeeds," he whispered, "we go to Heaven, I suppose; if it fails we
stay upon the earth." Then he stood off, holding her hands at arm's length
and gazing down upon her. "Do you want to go to Heaven?" he asked
very deliberately, "or to stay here upon the earth with me and
Winky--?"
She
was in his arms the same second, laughing and crying with the strange conflict
of new and inexplicable emotions.
"I
want to be with you here, and forever. Heaven frightens me now. But--oh,
Spinny, dear protecting thing, I want--I also want--" She broke off
abruptly, and Spinrobin, unable to see her face buried against his shoulder,
could not guess whether she was laughing or weeping. He only divined that
something in her heart, profound as life itself, something she had never been
warned to conceal, was clamoring for comprehension and satisfaction.
"Miriam,
tell me exactly. I'm sure I shall understand--"
"I
want Winky to be with us always--not only sometimes--on little visits," he
heard between the broken breathing.
"I'll
tell him--"
"But
there's no good telling him," she interrupted almost fiercely, "it is
me you must tell...."
Spinrobin's
heart sank within him. She was in pain and he could not quite understand. He
pressed her hard against him, keeping silence.
Presently
she lifted her face from his coat, and he saw the tears of mingled pain and
happiness in her eyes--the eyes of this girl-woman who knew not the common ugly
standards of life because no woman had ever told them to her.
"You
see, Winky is not really mine unless I have some share in making him too,"
she said very softly. "When I have made him too, then he will stay forever
with us, I think."
And
Spinrobin, beginning to understand, knowing within him that singular exultation
of triumphant love which comes to a pure man when he meets the mother-to-be of
his firstborn, lowered his own face very reverently to hers, and kissed her on
the cheeks and eyes--saying nothing, and vaguely wondering whether the awful
name that Skale sought with so much thunder and lightning, did not lie at that
very moment, sweetly singing its divinest message, between the contact of this
pair of youthful lips, the lips of himself and Miriam.
II
And
Philip Skale, meanwhile, splendid and independent of all common obstacles, thundered
along his tempestuous mad way, regardless and ignorant of all signs of
disaffection. The rest of that week--a week of haunting wonder and beauty--was
devoted to the carrying out of the strange program. It is not possible to tell
in detail the experience of each separate room. Spinrobin does it, yet only
succeeds in repeating himself; and, as has been seen, his powers failed even in
that first chamber of awe. The language does not exist in which adventures so
remote from normal experience can be clothed without straining the mind to the
verge of the unintelligible. It appears, however, that each room possessed its
color, note and form, which later were to issue forth and combine in the even
vaster pattern, chord and outline which should include them all.
Even
the thought of it strained the possibilities of belief and the resources of the
imagination.... His soul fluttered and shrank.
They
continued the processes of prayer and fasting Skale had ordained as the time
for the experiment drew near, and the careful vibratory utterance of the
"word" belonging to each room, the vibrations of which threw their
inner selves into a condition of safe--or comparatively safe--receptivity. But
Spinrobin no longer said his prayers, for the thought that soon he was to call
upon the divine and mighty name in reality prevented his doing so in the old
way of childhood--nominally. He feared there might come an answer.
He
literally walked the dizzy edge of precipices that dropped over the edge of the
world. The incoherence of all this traffic with sound and name had always
bewildered him, even to the point of darkness, whereas now it did more, it
appalled him in some sense that was monstrous and terrifying. Yet, while weak
with terror when he tried to face the possible results, and fevered with the
notion of entering some new condition (even though one of glory) where Miriam
might no longer be as he now knew her, it was the savage curiosity he felt that
prevented his coming to a definite decision and telling Mr. Skale that he withdrew
from the whole affair.
Then
the idea grew in his mind that the clergyman was obsessed by some perverted
spiritual force, some "Devil" who deceived him, and that the name he
sought to pronounce was after all not good--not God. His thoughts, fears,
hopes, all became hopelessly entangled, through them one thing alone holding
clear and steady--the passionate desire to keep Miriam as she was now, and to
be with her forever. His mind played tricks with him too. Day and night the
house echoed with new sounds; the very walls grew resonant; the entire
building, buried away among these desolate hills, trembled as though he were
imprisoned within the belly of some monstrous and gigantic fiddle.
Mr.
Skale, too, began to change, it seemed. While physically he increased, as it
were, with the power of his burning enthusiasm, his beard longer and more
ragged, his eyes more luminous, and his voice shaking through the atmosphere
almost like wind, his personality, in some curious fashion, seemed at the same
time to retire and become oddly tinged with a certain remoteness from reality.
Spinrobin once or twice caught himself wondering if he were not after all some
legendary or pagan figure, some mighty character of dream or story, and that
presently he, Spinrobin, would awake and write down the most wonderful vision
the world had ever known. His imagination, it will be seen, was affected in
more ways than one....
With
a tremendous earnestness the clergyman went about the building, down the long
dark corridors and across the halls, his long soft strides took him swiftly
everywhere; his mere presence charged with some potent force that betrayed
itself in the fire of his eyes and the flush of his cheeks.
Spinrobin
thought of him as some daring blasphemer, knocking at a door in the sky. The
sound of that knocking ran all about the universe. And when the door opened,
the heavens would roll back like an enormous, flat curtain....
"Any
moment almost," Skale whispered to him, smiling, "the day may be upon
us. Keep yourself ready--and--in tune."
And
Spinrobin, expecting a thunderclap in his sleep, but ever plucky, answered in
his high-pitched voice, "I'm ready, Mr. Philip Skale, I'm ready! I'm game
too!" when, truthfully speaking, perhaps, he was neither one nor other.
He
would start up from sleep in the nighttime at the least sound, and the roar of
the December gales about the house became voices of portent that conveyed far
more than the mere rushing of inarticulate winds....
"When
the hour comes--and it is close at hand--we shall not fail to know it,"
said Skale, pallid with excitement. "The Letters will be out upon us. They
will live! But with an intense degree of exuberant life far beyond what we know
as life--we, in our puny, sense-limited bodies!" And the scorn in his
voice came from the center of his heart. "For what we hear as sound is
only a section," he cried, "only a section of sound-vibrations--as
they exist."
"The
vibrations our ears can take are very small, I know," interpolated
Spinrobin, cold at heart, while Miriam, hiding behind chairs and tables that
offered handy protection, watched with mingled anxiety and confidence, knowing
that in the last resort her adorable and "wonderful Spinny" would
guide her aright. Love filled her heart, ousting that other portentous Heaven!
III
And
then Skale announced that the time was ready for rehearsals.
"Let
us practice the chord," he said, "so that when the moment comes
suddenly upon us, in the twinkling of an eye, in the daytime or in the night,
we shall be prepared, and each shall fly to his appointed place and utter his
appointed note."
The
reasons for these definite arrangements he did not pretend to explain, for they
belonged to a part of his discovery that he kept rigidly to himself; and why
Spinrobin and Miriam were to call their notes from the corridor itself, while
Skale boomed his great bass in the prepared cellar, Mrs. Mawle chanting her
alto midway in the hall, acting as a connecting channel in some way, was
apparently never made fully clear. In Spinrobin's imagination it was very like
a practical illustration of the written chord, the notes rising from the bass
clef to the high soprano--the cellar to the attic, so to speak. But, whatever
the meaning behind it, Skale was exceedingly careful to teach to each of them
his and her appointed place.
"When
the Letters move of themselves, and make the first sign," he repeated,
"we shall know it beyond all doubt or question. At any moment of the day
or night it may come. Each of you then hasten to your appointed place and wait
for the sound of my bass in the cellar. There will be no mistake about it; you
will hear it rising through the building. Then, each in turn, as it reaches
you, lift your voices and call your notes. The chord thus rising through the
building will gather in the flying Letters: it will unite them; it will summon
them down to the fundamental master-tone I utter in the cellar. The moment the
Letter summoned by each particular voice reaches the cellar, that voice must
cease its utterance. Thus, one by one, the four mighty Letters will come to
rest below. The gongs will vibrate in sympathetic resonance; the colors will
tremble and respond; the finely drawn wires will link the two, and the lens of
gas will lead them to the wax, and the record of the august and terrible
syllable will be completely chained. At any desired moment afterwards I shall
be able to reawaken it. Its phonetic utterance, its correct pronunciation,
captured thus in the two media of air and ether, sound and light, will be in my
safe possession, ready for use.
"But"--and
he looked down upon his listeners with a dreadful and impressive gravity that
yet only just concealed the bursting exultation the thought caused him to
feel--"remember that once you have uttered your note, you will have sucked
out from the Letter a portion of its own terrific life and force, which will
immediately pass into yourself. You will instantly absorb this, for you will
have called upon a mighty name--the mightiest--and your prayer will have been
answered." He stooped and whispered as in an act of earnest prayer,
"We shall be as Gods!"
Something
of cold splendor, terribly possessing, came close to them as he spoke the
words; for this was no empty phrase. Behind it lay the great drive of a
relentless reality. And it struck at the very root of the fear that grew every
moment more insistent in the hearts of the two lovers. They did not want to
become as gods. They desired to remain quietly human and to love!
But
before either of them could utter speech, even had they dared, the awful
clergyman continued; and nothing brought home to them more vividly the horrible
responsibility of the experiment, and the results of possible failure, than the
few words with which he concluded.
"And
to mispronounce, to utter falsely, to call inaccurately, will mean to summon
into life upon the world--and into the heart of the utterer--that which is
incomplete, that which is not God--Devils!--devils of that subtle Alteration
which is destruction--the devils of a Lie."
And
so for hours at a time they rehearsed the sounds of the chord, but very softly,
lest the sound should rise and reach the four rooms and invite the escape of
the waiting Letters prematurely.
Mrs.
Mawle, holding the bit of paper on which her instructions were clearly written,
was as eager almost as her master, and as the note she had to utter was
practically the only one left in the register of her voice, her deafness
provided little difficulty.
"Though
when the letters awake into life and cry aloud," said Skale, beaming upon
her dear old apple-skinned face, "it will be in tones that even the deaf
shall hear. For they will spell a measure of redemption that shall destroy in a
second of time all physical disabilities whatsoever...."
It
was at this moment Spinrobin asked a question that for days had been hovering
about his lips. He asked it gravely, hesitatingly, even solemnly, while Miriam
hung upon the answer with an anxiety as great as his own.
"And
if any one of us fails," he said, "and pronounces falsely, will the
result affect all of us, or only the utterer?"
"The
utterer only," replied the clergyman. "For it is his own spirit that
must absorb the forces and powers invoked by the sound he utters."
He
took the question lightly, it seemed. The possibility of failure was too remote
to be practical.
Chapter 13
I
But
Spinrobin was hardly prepared for the suddenness of the denouement. He had
looked for a longer period of preparation, with the paraphernalia of a
considerable, even an august ceremony. Instead, the announcement came with an
abrupt simplicity that caught him with a horrid shock of surprise. He was taken
wholly unawares.
"The
only thing I fear," Mr. Skale had confided to them, "is that the
vibrations of our chord may have already risen to the rooms and cause a premature
escape. But, even so, we shall have ample warning. For the deaf, being
protected from the coarser sounds of earth, are swift to hear the lightest
whispers from Heaven. Mrs. Mawle will know. Mrs. Mawle will instantly warn
us...."
And
this, apparently, was what happened, though not precisely as Mr. Skale had
intended, nor with the margin for preparation he had hoped. It was all so swift
and brief and shattering, that to hear Spinrobin tell it makes one think of a
mass of fireworks that some stray spark has sent with blazing explosion into
the air, to the complete loss of the calculated effect had they gone off
seriatim as intended.
And
in the awful stress of excitement there can be no question that Spinny acted
out of that subconscious region of the mind which considers and weighs deeds
before passing them on to the surface mind, translating them into physical
expression and thinking itself responsible for the whole operation. The course
he adopted was thus instinctive, and, since he had no time to judge, blameless.
Neither
he nor Miriam had any idea really that their minds, subconsciously, were
already made up. Yet only that morning he had been talking with her, skirting
round the subject as they always did, ashamed of his doubts about success, and
trying to persuade her, and, therefore, himself, that the path of duty lay in
following their leader blindly to the very end.
He
had seen her on the stairs ahead of him, and had overtaken her quickly. He drew
her down beside him, and they sat like two children perched on the
soft-carpeted steps.
"It's
coming, you know," he said abruptly, "the moment's getting very
close."
He
felt the light shudder that passed through her into himself. She turned her
face to him and he saw the flush of excitement painted in the center of the
usually pale cheeks. He thought of some rare flower, delicately exotic, that
had sprung suddenly into blossom from the heart of the bleak December day, out
of the very boards whereon they sat.
"We
shall then be as gods," he added, "filled with the huge power of
those terrific Letters. And that is only the beginning." In himself he was
striving to coax a fading enthusiasm, and to pour it into her. Her little hand
stole into his. "We shall be a sort of angel together, I suppose. Just
think of it...!" His voice was not as thrilling as it ought to have been,
for very human notes vibrated down below in the part he tried to keep back. He
saw the flush fade from her cheeks, and the pallor spread. "You and I,
Miriam--something tremendous together, greater than any other man and woman in
the whole world. Think of it, dear baby; just think of it...!"
A
tiny frown gathered upon her forehead, darkening the grey eyes with shadows.
"But--lose
our Winky!" she said, nestling against his coat, her voice singularly
soft, her fingers scratching gently the palm of his hand where they lay.
"Hush,
hush!" he answered, kissing her into silence. "We must have more
faith. I think everything will be all right. And there is no reason why we
should lose our Winky," he added, very tenderly, smothering the doubt as
best he could, "although we may find his name changed. Like the rest of
us, he will get a 'new name' I suppose."
"Then
he won't be our Winky any longer," she objected, with a touch of obstinacy
that was very seductive. "We shall all be different. Perhaps we shall be
too wonderful to need each other any more.... Oh, Spinny, you precious thing my
life needs, think of that! We may be too wonderful even to care!"
Spinrobin
turned and faced her. He tried to speak with authority and conviction, but he
was a bad actor always. He met her soft grey eyes, already moist and shining
with a tenderness of love beyond belief, and gazed into them with what degree
of sternness he could.
"Miriam,"
he said solemnly, "is it possible that you do not want us to be as
gods?"
Her
answer came this time without hesitation. His pretended severity only made her
happy, for nothing could intimidate by a hair's breadth this exquisite first
love of her awakening soul.
"Some
day, perhaps, oh, my sweet Master," she whispered with trembling lips,
"but not now. I want to be on earth first with you--and with our
Winky."
To
hear that precious little voice call him "sweet Master" was almost
more than he could bear. He made an effort, however, to insist upon this
fancied idea of "duty" to Skale; though everything, of course, betrayed
him--eyes, voice, gestures.
"But
we owe it to Mr. Skale to become as gods," he faltered, trying to make the
volume of his voice atone for its lack of conviction.
And
it was then she uttered the simple phrase that utterly confounded him, and
showed him the new heaven and new earth wherein he and she and Winky already
lived.
"I
am as God now," she said simply, the whole passion of a clean, strong
little soul behind the words. "You have made me so! You love me!"
II
The
same moment, before they could speak or act, Skale was upon them from behind
with a roar.
"Practicing
your splendid notes together!" he cried, thundering down the steps past
them, three at a time, clothed for the first time in the flowing scarlet robe
he usually wore only in the particular room where his own "note"
lived. "That's capital! Sing it together in your hearts and in your souls
and in your minds; and the more the better!"
He
swept by them like a storm, vanishing through the hall below like some living
flame of fire. They both understood that he wore that robe for protection, and
that throughout the house the heralds of the approaching powers of the
imprisoned Letters were therefore already astir. His steps echoed below them in
the depths of the building as he descended to the cellar, intent upon some
detail of the appalling consummation that drew every minute nearer.
They
turned and faced one another, breathless a little. Tenderness and terror shone
plainly in their eyes, but Spinrobin, ever an ineffectual little man, and with
nothing of the "Master" really in his composition anywhere, found no
word to speak. That sudden irruption of the terrific clergyman into their
intimate world had come with an effect of dramatic and incalculable authority.
Like a blast of air that drives the furnace to new heat and turns the metal
white, his mind now suddenly saw clear and sure. The effect of the incident was
too explosive, however, for him to find expression. Action he found in a
measure, but no words. He took Miriam passionately into his arms as they stood
there in the gathering dusk upon the staircase of that haunted and terrible
building, and Miriam it was who found the words upon which they separated and
went quietly away to the solitude each needed for the soul.
"We'll
leave the gods alone," she said with gentle decision, yet making it seem
as though she appealed to his greater strength and wisdom to decide; "I
want nothing but you--you and Winky. And all you really want is me."
But
in his room he heard the vibrations of the clergyman's voice rising up through
the floor and walls as he practiced in the cellar the sounds with which the
ancient Hebrews concealed the Tetragrammaton: YOD--HE--VAU--HE:
JEHOVAH--JAHVE--of which the approaching great experiment, however, concerned
itself only with the opening vibrations of the first letter--YOD....
And,
as he listened, he hesitated again ... wondering after all whether Miriam was
right.
III
It
was towards the end of their short silent dinner that very night--the silence
due to the fact that everybody was intently listening--when Spinrobin caught
the whisper of a singular faint sound that he took first to be the rising of
wind. The wind sometimes came down that way with curious gulps from the
terraces of the surrounding moors. Yet in this sound was none of that rush and
sigh that the hills breed. It did not drop across the curves of the world; it
rose from the center.
He
looked up sharply, then at once realized that the sound was not outside at all,
but inside--inside the very room where he sat facing Skale and Miriam. Then
something in his soul recognized it. It was the first wave in an immense
vibration.
Something
stretched within him as foam stretches on the elastic side of a heaped Atlantic
roller, retreated, then came on again with a second gigantic crest. The rhythm
of the huge sound had caught him. The life in him expanded awfully, rose to far
summits, dropped to utter depths. A sense of glowing exaltation swept through
him as though wings of power lifted his heart with enormous ascendancy. The
biggest passions of his soul stirred--the sweetest dreams, yearnings,
aspirations he had ever known were blown to fever heat. Above all, his passion
for Miriam waxed tumultuous and possessed him.
Mr.
Skale dropped his fruit knife and uttered a cry, but a cry of so peculiar a
character that Spinrobin thought for a moment he was about to burst into song.
At the same instant he stood up, and his chair fell backwards with a crash upon
the floor. Spinrobin stood up too. He asserts always that he was lifted up. He
recognized no conscious effort of his own. It was at this point, moreover, that
Miriam, pale as linen, yet uttering no sound and fully mistress of herself,
left her side of the table and ran round swiftly to the protection of her
lover.
She
came close up. "Spinny," she said, "it's come!"
Thus
all three were standing round that dinner table on the verge of some very
vigorous action not yet disclosed, as people, vigilant and alert, stand up at a
cry of fire, when the door from the passage opened noisily and in rushed Mrs.
Mawle, surrounded by an atmosphere of light such as might come from a furnace
door suddenly thrown wide in some dark foundry. Only the light was not steady;
it was whirling.
She
ran across the floor as though dancing--the dancing of a child--propelled, it
seemed, by an irresistible drive of force behind; while with her through the
opened door came a roaring volume of sound that was terrible as Niagara let
loose, yet at the same time exquisitely sweet, as birds or children singing.
Upon these two incongruous qualities Spinrobin always insists.
"The
deaf shall hear--!" came sharply from the clergyman's lips, the sentence
uncompleted, for the housekeeper cut him short.
"They're
out!" she cried with a loud, half-frightened jubilance; "Mr. Skale's
prisoners are bursting their way about the house. And one of them," she
added with a scream of joy and terror mingled, "is in my throat...!"
If
the odd phrase she made use of stuck vividly in Spinrobin's memory, the
appearance she presented impressed him even more. For her face was shining and
alight, radiant as when Skale had called her true name weeks before. Flashes of
flame-like beauty ran about the eyes and mouth; and she looked
eighteen--eternally eighteen--with a youth that was permanent and unchanging.
Moreover, not only was hearing restored to her, but her left arm, withered for
years, was in the act of pointing to the ceiling, instinct with vigorous
muscular life. Her whole presentment was splendid, intense--redeemed.
"The
deaf hear!" repeated Skale in a shout, and was across the room with the
impetus of a released projectile. "The Letters are out and alive! To your
appointed places! The syllable has caught us! Quick, quick! If you love your
soul and truth ... fly!"
Deafening
thunders rushed and crashed and blew about the room, interpenetrated everywhere
at the same time by that searching strain of sweetness Spinrobin had first
noticed. The sense of life, running free and abundant, was very remarkable. The
same moment he found his hand clasped, and felt himself torn along by the side
of the rushing clergyman into the hall. Behind them "danced" Mrs.
Mawle, her cap awry, her apron flying, her elastic-side boots taking the light,
dancing step of youth. With quick, gliding tread Miriam, still silent, was at
his heels. He remembers her delicate, strange perfume reaching him faintly
through all the incredible turmoil of that impetuous exit.
In
the hall the roar increased terrifically about his ears. Skale, in his biggest
booming voice, was uttering the names of Hebrew "angels"--invoking
forces, that is, to his help; and behind him Mrs. Mawle was singing--singing
fragments apparently of the "note" she had to utter, as well as
fragments of her own "true name" thus magically recovered. Her
restored arm gyrated furiously, her tripping youth spelt witchery. Yet the
whole madness of the scene came to Spinrobin with a freezing wind of terror;
for about it was a lawless, audacious blasphemy, that must surely win for
itself a quite appalling punishment....
Yet
nothing happened at once--nothing destructive, at least. Skale and the
housekeeper, he saw, were hurriedly robing themselves in the red and yellow
surplices that hung from nails in the hall, and the instinct to laugh at the
sight was utterly overwhelmed when he remembered that these were the colors
which were used for safety in their respective "rooms." ... It was a
scene of wild confusion and bewilderment which the memory refuses to reproduce
coherently. In his own throat already began a passionate rising of sound that
he knew was the "note" he had to utter attempting to escape, summoned
forth automatically by these terrible vibrating Letters in the air. A cataract
of sound seemed to fill the building and made it shake to its very foundations.
But
the hall, he saw, was not only alive with "music," it was ablaze with
light--a white and brilliant glory that at first dazzled him to the point of
temporary blindness.
The
same second Mr. Skale's voice, storming its way somehow above the tumult, made
itself heard:
"To
the rooms upstairs, Spinrobin! To the corridor with Miriam! And when you hear
my voice from the cellar--utter! We may yet be in time to unite the
Letters...!"
He
released the secretary's hand, flinging it from him, and was off with a
bounding, leaping motion like an escaped animal towards the stone passage that
led to the cellar steps; and Spinrobin, turning about himself like a top in a
perfect frenzy of bewilderment, heard his great voice as he disappeared round
the corner:
"It
has come upon me like a thief in the night! Before I am fully prepared it has
called me! May the powers of the Name have mercy upon my soul...!" And he
was gone. For the last time had Spinrobin set his eyes upon the towering
earthly form of the Rev. Philip Skale.
IV
Then,
at first, it seems, the old enthusiasm caught him, and with him, therefore,
caught Miriam, too. That savage and dominant curiosity to know clutched him,
overpowering even the assaults of a terror that fairly battered him. Through
all the chaos and welter of his dazed mind he sought feverishly for the
"note" he had to utter, yet found it not, for he was too horribly
confused. Fiddles, sand-patterns, colored robes, gongs, giant tuning-forks,
wax-sheeted walls, aged-faces-turned-young and caverns-by-the-sea jostled one
another in his memory with a jumble of disproportion quite inextricable.
Next,
impelled by that driving sense of duty to Skale, he turned to the girl at his
side: "Can you do it?" he cried.
Unable
to make her voice heard above the clamor she nodded quickly in acquiescence.
Spinrobin noticed that her little mouth was set rather firmly, though there was
a radiance about her eyes and features that made her sweetly beautiful. He
remembers that her loveliness and her pluck uplifted him above all former
littlenesses of hesitation; and, seizing her outstretched hand, they flew up
the main staircase and in less than a minute reached the opening of the long
corridor where the rooms were.
Here,
however, they stopped with a gasp, for a hurricane of moving air met them in
the face like the draught from some immense furnace. Again the crest of a wave
in the colossal sound-vibration had caught them. Staggering against the wall,
they tried again and again to face the tempest of sound and light, but the
space beyond them was lit with the same unearthly brilliance as the hall, and
out of the whole long throat of that haunted corridor issued such a passion of
music and such a torrent of gorgeous color, that it seemed impossible for any
aggregation of physical particles--least of all poor human bodies--to remain
coherent for a single instant before the concentrated onslaught.
Yet,
game to the inmost core of his little personality, and raised far above his
normal powers by the evidence of Miriam's courage and fidelity, he struggled
with all his might and searched through the chambers of his being for the note
he was ordained to utter in the chord. The ignominy of failure, now that the
great experiment was full upon him--failure in Miriam's eyes, too--was simply
impossible to contemplate. Yet, in spite of every effort, the memory of that
all-important note escaped him utterly, for the forces of his soul floundered,
helpless and disheveled, before the too mighty splendors that were upon him at
such close quarters. The sounds he actually succeeded in emitting between dry
and quivering lips were pitiful and feeble beyond words.
Down
that living corridor, meanwhile, he saw the doors of the four rooms were gone,
consumed like tissue paper; and through the narrow portals there shouldered
forward, bathed in light ineffable, the separate outlines of the Letters so
long imprisoned in inactivity. And with their appearance the sounds instantly
ceased, having overpassed the limits of what is audible to human ears. A great
stillness dropped about them with an abrupt crash of utter silence. For a
"crash" of silence it was--all-shattering.
And
then, from the categories of the incomprehensible and unmanifest,
"something" loomed forth towards them where, limp and shaking, they
leaned against the wall, and they witnessed the indescribable operation by
which the four Letters, whirling and alive, ran together and melted into a
single terrific semblance of a FORM ... the sight of which entered the heart of
Spinrobin and threatened to split it asunder with the joy of the most sublime
terror and adoration a human soul has ever known.
And
the whole gigantic glory of Skale's purpose came upon him like a tempest. The
magnificent effrontery by which the man sought to storm his way to heaven again
laid its spell upon him. The reaction was of amazing swiftness. It almost
seemed as though time ceased to operate, so instantaneously did his mood pass
from terror to elation--wild, ecstatic elation that could dare anything and
everything to share in the awful delight and wonder of Skale's transcendent
experiment.
And
so, forgetting himself and his little disabilities of terror and shrinking, he
sought once again for the note he was to utter in the chord. And this time he
found it.
V
Very
faintly, yet distinctly audible in the deep stillness, it sounded far away down
in the deeps of his being. And, with a splendid spiritual exultation tearing
and swelling in his heart, he turned at once triumphantly to Miriam beside him.
"Utter
your note too!" he cried. "Utter it with mine, for any moment now we
shall hear the command from the cellar.... Be ready...!"
And
the FORM, meanwhile, limned in the wonder of an undecipherable or at least
untranslatable geometry, silently roaring, enthroned in the undiscoverable
colors beyond the spectrum, swept towards them as he spoke.
At
the same instant Miriam answered him, her exquisite little face set like a
rock, her marble pallor painted with the glory of the approaching splendors.
Just when the moment of success was upon them; when the flying Letters were
abroad; when all the difficult weeks of preparation were face to face with the
consummation; and when any moment Skale's booming bass might rise from the bowels
of the building as the signal to utter the great chord and unite the fragments
of the first divine syllable; when Spinrobin had at last conquered his weakness
and recovered his note--then, at this decisive and supreme moment, Miriam
asserted herself and took the reins of command.
"No,"
she said, looking with sudden authority straight into his eyes, "no! I
will not utter the note. Nor shall you utter yours!" And she clapped her
little hand tight upon his mouth.
In
that instant of unutterable surprise the two great forces of his life and
personality met together with an explosive violence wholly beyond his power to
control. For on the one hand lay the fierce enticement of Skale's heaven, with
all that it portended, and on the other the deep though temporarily submerged
human passion of his love for the girl. Miriam's sudden action revealed the
truth to him better than any argument. In a flash he realized that her choice
was made, and that she was in entire and final revolt against the whole
elaborate experiment and all that it involved. The risk of losing her Spinny,
or finding him changed in some condition of redemption where he would no longer
be the little human thing she so dearly loved, had helped her to this final,
swift conclusion.
With
her hand tight over his lips, and her face of white decision before him, he
understood. She called him with those big grey eyes to the sweet and common
uses of life, instead of to the heights of some audacious heaven where they
might be as gods with Philip Skale. She clung to humanity. And Spinrobin,
seeing her at last with spiritual eyes fully opened, knew finally that she was
right.
"But
oh," he always cries, "in that moment I knew the most terrible choice
I have ever had to make, for it was not a choice between life and death, but a
choice between two lives, each of infinite promised wonder. And what do you
think it was that decided me, and made me choose the wholesome, humble life
with little Miriam in preference to the grandeur of Skale's vast dream? What do
you think?" And his face always turns pink and then flame-colored as he
asks it, hesitating absurdly before giving the answer. "I'll tell you,
because you'd never guess in this world." And then he lowers his voice and
says, "It was the delicious little sweet perfume of her fingers as she
held them over my lips....!"
That
delicate, faint smell was the symbol of human happiness, and through all the
whirlwind of sound and color about him, it somehow managed to convey its
poignant, searching message of the girl's utter love straight into his heart.
Thus curiously out of proportion and insignificant, indeed, are sometimes the
decisive details that in moments of overwhelming experience turn the course of
life's river this way or that....
With
a single wild cry in his soul that found no audible expression, he gave up the
unequal struggle. He turned, and with Miriam by his side, flew down the
corridor from the advent of the Immensity that was upon them--from the approach
of the escaping Letters.
VI
How
Spinrobin found his way out of that sound-stricken house remains an unsolved
mystery. He never understood it himself; he remembers only that when they
reached the ground floor the vibrations of Skale's opening bass note had
already begun. Its effect, too, was immediately noticeable. For the roar of the
escaping Letters, which upstairs had reached so immense a volume as to be
recognized only in terms of silence, now suddenly grew in a measure harnessed
and restrained. Their vibration became reduced--down closer to the sixteen-foot
wavelength which is the limit of human audition. They were being leashed in by
the summoning master-tone. They grew once more audible.
On
the rising swirl of sound the two humans were swept down passages and across
halls, as two leaves are borne by a tempest, and after frantic efforts, in
which Spinrobin bruised his body against doors and walls without number, he found
himself at last in the open air, and at a considerable distance from the house
of terror. Stars shone overhead. He saw the outline of hills. Breaths of cool
wind fanned his burning skin and eyes.
But
he dared not turn to look or listen. The music of that opening note, now rising
through the building from the cellar, might catch him and win him back. The
chord in which himself and Miriam were to have uttered their appointed tones,
even half-told, was still mighty to overwhelm. Its effect upon the Letters
themselves had been immediate.
The
feeling that he had proved faithless to Skale, unworthy of the great
experiment, never properly attuned to this fearful music of the gods--this was
forgotten in the overmastering desire to escape from it all into the safety of
common human things with Miriam. Setting his course ever up the hills, he ran
on and on, till breath failed him utterly and he was obliged to stop for lack
of strength. And it was only then he realized that the whole time the girl had
been in his arms. He had been carrying her.
Placing
her on the ground, he caught a glimpse of her eyes in the darkness, and saw
that they were still charged with the one devouring passion that had made the
sacrifice of Skale and of all her training since birth inevitable. Soft and
glowing with her first knowledge of love, her grey eyes shone like stars newly
risen.
"Come,
come!" he whispered hoarsely; "we must get as far as possible--away
from it all. Across the hills we shall find safety. Once the splendors overtake
us we are lost...."
Seizing
her by the hand, they pressed on again, the ocean of sound rising and
thundering behind them and below.
Without
knowing it, he had taken the path by which the clergyman had brought him from
the station weeks ago on the day of his first arrival. With a confused memory,
as of a dream, he recognized it. The ground was slippery with dead leaves whose
odor penetrated sharply the air of night. Everywhere about him, as they paused
from time to time in the little open spaces, the trees pressed up thickly; and
ever from the valley they had just left the increasing tide of sound came
pouring up after them like the roar of the sea escaping through doors upon the
surface of the world.
And
even now the marvelous, enticing wonder of it caught him more than once and
made him hesitate. The sense of what he was giving up sickened him with a great
sudden yearning of regret. The mightiness of that loved leader, lonely and
unafraid, trafficking with the principalities and powers of sound, and reckoning
without misgiving upon the cooperation of his other "notes"--this
plucked fearfully at his heartstrings. But only in great tearing gusts, so to
speak, which passed the instant he realized the little breathless, grey-eyed
girl at his side, charged with her beautiful love for him and the wholesome
ambition for human things.
"Oh!
but the heaven we're losing...!" he cried once aloud, unable to contain
himself. "Oh, Miriam ... and I have proved unworthy ... small...!"
"Small
enough to stay with me forever and ever ... here on the earth," she
replied passionately, seizing his hand and drawing him further up the hill.
Then she stopped suddenly and gathered a handful of dead leaves, moss, twigs
and earth. The exquisite familiar perfume as she held it to his face pierced
through him with a singular power of conviction.
"We
should lose this," she exclaimed; "there's none of this ... in
heaven! The earth, the earth, the dear, beautiful earth, with you ... and Winky
... is what I want!"
And
when he stopped her outburst with a kiss, fully understanding the profound
truth she so quaintly expressed, he smelt the trees and mountains in her hair,
and her fragrance was mingled there with the fragrance of that old earth on
which they stood.
VII
The
rising flood of sound sent them charging ahead the same minute, for it seemed
upon them with a rush; and it was only after much stumbling and floundering
among trees and boulders that they emerged into the open space of the hills
beyond the woods. Actually, perhaps, they had been running for twenty minutes,
but to them it seemed that they had been running for days. They stood still and
looked about them.
"You
shall never regret, never, never," Miriam whispered quickly. "I can
make you happier than all this ever could," and she waved her arm towards
the house below. "And you know it, my little Master."
But
before he could reply, or do more than place an arm about her waist to support
her, something came to pass that communicated its message to their souls with
an incalculable certainty neither could explain. Perhaps it was that distance
enabled them to distinguish between the sounds more clearly, or perhaps their
beings were still so intimately connected with Skale that some psychic warning
traveled up to them across the night; but at any rate there then came about
this sharp and sudden change in the quality of the sound-tempest round them
that proclaimed the arrival of an exceedingly dramatic moment. The nature of
the rushing, flying vibrations underwent alteration. And, looking one another
in the eyes, they realized what it meant.
"He's
beginning ..." faltered Spinrobin in some skeleton of a voice. "Skale
has begun to utter...!" He said it beneath his breath.
Down
in the cellar of that awful house the giant clergyman, alone and undismayed,
had begun to call the opening vibration of the living chord which was to gather
in this torrent of escaping Letters and unite them in temporary safety in the
crypts of the prepared vault. For the first time in eighteen hundred years the
initial sound of the "Name that rusheth through the universe"--the
first sound of its opening syllable, that is--was about to thunder its
incalculable message over the earth.
Crouching
close against each other they stood there on the edge of the woods, the night
darkly smothering about them, the bare, open hills lying beyond in the still
sky, waiting for the long-apprehended climax--the utterance of the first great
syllable.
"It
will make him ... as God," crashed the thought through Spinrobin's brain
as he experienced the pangs of the fiercest remorse he had ever known.
"Even without our two notes the power will be sublime...!"
But,
through Miriam's swiftly-beating heart, as she pressed closer and closer:
"I know your true name ... and you are mine. What else in heaven or earth
can ever matter...?"
