Thursday, 12 October 2023

Thursday's Serial: “The Light of Western Stars” by Zane Grey (in English) - XIII

 

XVI. The Crags

Glad indeed was Madeline to be lifted off her horse beside a roaring fire—to see steaming pots upon red-hot coals. Except about her shoulders, which had been protected by the slicker, she was wringing wet. The Mexican women came quickly to help her change in a tent near by; but Madeline preferred for the moment to warm her numb feet and hands and to watch the spectacle of her arriving friends.

Dorothy plumped off her saddle into the arms of several waiting cowboys. She could scarcely walk. Far removed in appearance was she from her usual stylish self. Her face was hidden by a limp and lopsided hat. From under the disheveled brim came a plaintive moan: “O-h-h! what a-an a-awful ride!” Mrs. Beck was in worse condition; she had to be taken off her horse. “I'm paralyzed—I'm a wreck. Bobby, get a roller-chair.” Bobby was solicitous and willing, but there were no roller-chairs. Florence dismounted easily, and but for her mass of hair, wet and tumbling, would have been taken for a handsome cowboy. Edith Wayne had stood the physical strain of the ride better than Dorothy; however, as her mount was rather small, she had been more at the mercy of cactus and brush. Her habit hung in tatters. Helen had preserved a remnant of style, as well as of pride, and perhaps a little strength. But her face was white, her eyes were big, and she limped. “Majesty!” she exclaimed. “What did you want to do to us? Kill us outright or make us homesick?” Of all of them, however, Ambrose's wife, Christine, the little French maid, had suffered the most in that long ride. She was unaccustomed to horses. Ambrose had to carry her into the big tent. Florence persuaded Madeline to leave the fire, and when they went in with the others Dorothy was wailing because her wet boots would not come off, Mrs. Beck was weeping and trying to direct a Mexican woman to unfasten her bedraggled dress, and there was general pandemonium.

“Warm clothes—hot drinks and grub—warm blankets,” rang out Stewart's sharp order.

Then, with Florence helping the Mexican women, it was not long until Madeline and the feminine side of the party were comfortable, except for the weariness and aches that only rest and sleep could alleviate.

Neither fatigue nor pains, however, nor the strangeness of being packed sardine-like under canvas, nor the howls of coyotes, kept Madeline's guests from stretching out with long, grateful sighs, and one by one dropping into deep slumber. Madeline whispered a little to Florence, and laughed with her once or twice, and then the light flickering on the canvas faded and her eyelids closed. Darkness and roar of camp life, low voices of men, thump of horses' hoofs, coyote serenade, the sense of warmth and sweet rest—all drifted away.

When she awakened shadows of swaying branches moved on the sunlit canvas above her. She heard the ringing strokes of an ax, but no other sound from outside. Slow, regular breathing attested to the deep slumbers of her tent comrades. She observed presently that Florence was missing from the number. Madeline rose and peeped out between the flaps.

An exquisitely beautiful scene surprised and enthralled her gaze. She saw a level space, green with long grass, bright with flowers, dotted with groves of graceful firs and pines and spruces, reaching to superb crags, rosy and golden in the sunlight. Eager to get out where she could enjoy an unrestricted view, she searched for her pack, found it in a corner, and then hurriedly and quietly dressed.

Her favorite stag-hounds, Russ and Tartar, were asleep before the door, where they had been chained. She awakened them and loosened them, thinking the while that it must have been Stewart who had chained them near her. Close at hand also was a cowboy's bed rolled up in a tarpaulin.

The cool air, fragrant with pine and spruce and some subtle nameless tang, sweet and tonic, made Madeline stand erect and breathe slowly and deeply. It was like drinking of a magic draught. She felt it in her blood, that it quickened its flow. Turning to look in the other direction, beyond the tent, she saw the remnants of last night's temporary camp, and farther on a grove of beautiful pines from which came the sharp ring of the ax. Wider gaze took in a wonderful park, not only surrounded by lofty crags, but full of crags of lesser height, many lifting their heads from dark-green groves of trees. The morning sun, not yet above the eastern elevations, sent its rosy and golden shafts in between the towering rocks, to tip the pines.

Madeline, with the hounds beside her, walked through the nearest grove. The ground was soft and springy and brown with pine-needles. Then she saw that a clump of trees had prevented her from seeing the most striking part of this natural park. The cowboys had selected a campsite where they would have the morning sun and afternoon shade. Several tents and flies were already up; there was a huge lean-to made of spruce boughs; cowboys were busy round several camp-fires; piles of packs lay covered with tarpaulins, and beds were rolled up under the trees. This space was a kind of rolling meadow, with isolated trees here and there, and other trees in aisles and circles; and it mounted up in low, grassy banks to great towers of stone five hundred feet high. Other crags rose behind these. From under a mossy cliff, huge and green and cool, bubbled a full, clear spring. Wild flowers fringed its banks. Out in the meadow the horses were knee-deep in grass that waved in the morning breeze.

Florence espied Madeline under the trees and came running. She was like a young girl, with life and color and joy. She wore a flannel blouse, corduroy skirt, and moccasins. And her hair was fastened under a band like an Indian's.

“Castleton's gone with a gun, for hours, it seems,” said Florence. “Gene just went to hunt him up. The other gentlemen are still asleep. I imagine they sure will sleep up heah in this air.”

Then, business-like, Florence fell to questioning Madeline about details of camp arrangement which Stewart, and Florence herself, could hardly see to without suggestion.

Before any of Madeline's sleepy guests awakened the camp was completed. Madeline and Florence had a tent under a pine-tree, but they did not intend to sleep in it except during stormy weather. They spread a tarpaulin, made their bed on it, and elected to sleep under the light of the stars. After that, taking the hounds with them, they explored. To Madeline's surprise, the park was not a little half-mile nook nestling among the crags, but extended farther than they cared to walk, and was rather a series of parks. They were no more than small valleys between gray-toothed peaks. As the day advanced the charm of the place grew upon Madeline. Even at noon, with the sun beating down, there was comfortable warmth rather than heat. It was the kind of warmth that Madeline liked to feel in the spring. And the sweet, thin, rare atmosphere began to affect her strangely. She breathed deeply of it until she felt light-headed, as if her body lacked substance and might drift away like a thistledown. All at once she grew uncomfortably sleepy. A dreamy languor possessed her, and, lying under a pine with her head against Florence, she went to sleep. When she opened her eyes the shadows of the crags stretched from the west, and between them streamed a red-gold light. It was hazy, smoky sunshine losing its fire. The afternoon had far advanced. Madeline sat up. Florence was lazily reading. The two Mexican women were at work under the fly where the big stone fireplace had been erected. No one else was in sight.

Florence, upon being questioned, informed Madeline that incident about camp had been delightfully absent. Castleton had returned and was profoundly sleeping with the other men. Presently a chorus of merry calls attracted Madeline's attention, and she turned to see Helen limping along with Dorothy, and Mrs. Beck and Edith supporting each other. They were all rested, but lame, and delighted with the place, and as hungry as bears awakened from a winter's sleep. Madeline forthwith escorted them round the camp, and through the many aisles between the trees, and to the mossy, pine-matted nooks under the crags.

Then they had dinner, sitting on the ground after the manner of Indians; and it was a dinner that lacked merriment only because everybody was too busily appeasing appetite.

Later Stewart led them across a neck of the park, up a rather steep climb between towering crags, to take them out upon a grassy promontory that faced the great open west—a vast, ridged, streaked, and reddened sweep of earth rolling down, as it seemed, to the golden sunset end of the world. Castleton said it was a jolly fine view; Dorothy voiced her usual languid enthusiasm; Helen was on fire with pleasure and wonder; Mrs. Beck appealed to Bobby to see how he liked it before she ventured, and she then reiterated his praise; and Edith Wayne, like Madeline and Florence, was silent. Boyd was politely interested; he was the kind of man who appeared to care for things as other people cared for them.

Madeline watched the slow transformation of the changing west, with its haze of desert dust, through which mountain and cloud and sun slowly darkened. She watched until her eyes ached, and scarcely had a thought of what she was watching. When her eyes shifted to encounter the tall form of Stewart standing motionless on the rim, her mind became active again. As usual, he stood apart from the others, and now he seemed aloof and unconscious. He made a dark, powerful figure, and he fitted that wild promontory.

She experienced a strange, annoying surprise when she discovered both Helen and Dorothy watching Stewart with peculiar interest. Edith, too, was alive to the splendid picture the cowboy made. But when Edith smiled and whispered in her ear, “It's so good to look at a man like that,” Madeline again felt the surprise, only this time the accompaniment was a vague pleasure rather than annoyance. Helen and Dorothy were flirts, one deliberate and skilled, the other unconscious and natural. Edith Wayne, occasionally—and Madeline reflected that the occasions were infrequent—admired a man sincerely. Just here Madeline might have fallen into a somewhat revealing state of mind if it had not been for the fact that she believed Stewart was only an object of deep interest to her, not as a man, but as a part of this wild and wonderful West which was claiming her. So she did not inquire of herself why Helen's coquetry and Dorothy's languishing allurement annoyed her, or why Edith's eloquent smile and words had pleased her. She got as far, however, as to think scornfully how Helen and Dorothy would welcome and meet a flirtation with this cowboy and then go back home and forget him as utterly as if he had never existed. She wondered, too, with a curious twist of feeling that was almost eagerness, how the cowboy would meet their advances. Obviously the situation was unfair to him; and if by some strange accident he escaped unscathed by Dorothy's beautiful eyes he would never be able to withstand Helen's subtle and fascinating and imperious personality.

They returned to camp in the cool of the evening and made merry round a blazing camp-fire. But Madeline's guests soon succumbed to the persistent and irresistible desire to sleep.

Then Madeline went to bed with Florence under the pine-tree. Russ lay upon one side and Tartar upon the other. The cool night breeze swept over her, fanning her face, waving her hair. It was not strong enough to make any sound through the branches, but it stirred a faint, silken rustle in the long grass. The coyotes began their weird bark and howl. Russ raised his head to growl at their impudence.

Madeline faced upward, and it seemed to her that under those wonderful white stars she would never be able to go to sleep. They blinked down through the black-barred, delicate crisscross of pine foliage, and they looked so big and so close. Then she gazed away to open space, where an expanse of sky glittered with stars, and the longer she gazed the larger they grew and the more she saw.

It was her belief that she had come to love all the physical things from which sensations of beauty and mystery and strength poured into her responsive mind; but best of all she loved these Western stars, for they were to have something to do with her life, were somehow to influence her destiny.

For a few days the prevailing features of camp life for Madeline's guests were sleep and rest. Dorothy Coombs slept through twenty-four hours, and then was so difficult to awaken that for a while her friends were alarmed. Helen almost fell asleep while eating and talking. The men were more visibly affected by the mountain air than the women. Castleton, however, would not succumb to the strange drowsiness while he had a chance to prowl around with a gun.

This languorous spell disappeared presently, and then the days were full of life and action. Mrs. Beck and Bobby and Boyd, however, did not go in for anything very strenuous. Edith Wayne, too, preferred to walk through the groves or sit upon the grassy promontory. It was Helen and Dorothy who wanted to explore the crags and canyons, and when they could not get the others to accompany them they went alone, giving the cowboy guides many a long climb.

Necessarily, of course, Madeline and her guests were now thrown much in company with the cowboys. And the party grew to be like one big family. Her friends not only adapted themselves admirably to the situation, but came to revel in it. As for Madeline, she saw that outside of a certain proclivity of the cowboys to be gallant and on dress-parade and alive to possibilities of fun and excitement, they were not greatly different from what they were at all times. If there were a leveling process here it was made by her friends coming down to meet the Westerners. Besides, any class of people would tend to grow natural in such circumstances and environment.

Madeline found the situation one of keen and double interest for her. If before she had cared to study her cowboys, particularly Stewart, now, with the contrasts afforded by her guests, she felt by turns she was amused and mystified and perplexed and saddened, and then again subtly pleased.

Monty, once he had overcome his shyness, became a source of delight to Madeline, and, for that matter, to everybody. Monty had suddenly discovered that he was a success among the ladies. Either he was exalted to heroic heights by this knowledge or he made it appear so. Dorothy had been his undoing, and in justice to her Madeline believed her innocent. Dorothy thought Monty hideous to look at, and, accordingly, if he had been a hero a hundred times and had saved a hundred poor little babies' lives, he could not have interested her. Monty followed her around, reminding her, she told Madeline, of a little adoring dog one moment and the next of a huge, devouring gorilla.

Nels and Nick stalked at Helen's heels like grenadiers on duty, and if she as much as dropped her glove they almost came to blows to see who should pick it up.

In a way Castleton was the best feature of the camping party. He was such an absurd-looking little man, and his abilities were at such tremendous odds with what might have been expected of him from his looks. He could ride, tramp, climb, shoot. He liked to help around the camp, and the cowboys could not keep him from it. He had an insatiable desire to do things that were new to him. The cowboys played innumerable tricks upon him, not one of which he ever discovered. He was serious, slow in speech and action, and absolutely imperturbable. If imperturbability could ever be good humor, then he was always good-humored. Presently the cowboys began to understand him, and then to like him. When they liked a man it meant something. Madeline had been sorry more than once to see how little the cowboys chose to speak to Boyd Harvey. With Castleton, however, they actually became friends. They did not know it, and certainly such a thing never occurred to him; all the same, it was a fact. And it grew solely out of the truth that the Englishman was manly in the only way cowboys could have interpreted manliness. When, after innumerable attempts, he succeeded in throwing the diamond-hitch on a pack-horse the cowboys began to respect him. Castleton needed only one more accomplishment to claim their hearts, and he kept trying that—to ride a bucking bronco. One of the cowboys had a bronco that they called Devil. Every day for a week Devil threw the Englishman all over the park, ruined his clothes, bruised him, and finally kicked him. Then the cowboys solicitously tried to make Castleton give up; and this was remarkable enough, for the spectacle of an English lord on a bucking bronco was one that any Westerner would have ridden a thousand miles to see. Whenever Devil threw Castleton the cowboys went into spasms. But Castleton did not know the meaning of the word fail, and there came a day when Devil could not throw him. Then it was a singular sight to see the men line up to shake hands with the cool Englishman. Even Stewart, who had watched from the background, came forward with a warm and pleasant smile on his dark face. When Castleton went to his tent there was much characteristic cowboy talk, and this time vastly different from the former persiflage.

“By Gawd!” ejaculated Monty Price, who seemed to be the most amazed and elated of them all. “Thet's the fust Englishman I ever seen! He's orful deceivin' to look at, but I know now why England rules the wurrld. Jest take a peek at thet bronco. His spirit is broke. Rid by a leetle English dook no bigger 'n a grasshopper! Fellers, if it hain't dawned on you yit, let Monty Price give you a hunch. There's no flies on Castleton. An' I'll bet a million steers to a rawhide rope thet next he'll be throwin' a gun as good as Nels.”

It was a distinct pleasure for Madeline to realize that she liked Castleton all the better for the traits brought out so forcibly by his association with the cowboys. On the other hand, she liked the cowboys better for something in them that contact with Easterners brought out. This was especially true in Stewart's case. She had been wholly wrong when she had imagined he would fall an easy victim to Dorothy's eyes and Helen's lures. He was kind, helpful, courteous, and watchful. But he had no sentiment. He did not see Dorothy's charms or feel Helen's fascination. And their efforts to captivate him were now so obvious that Mrs. Beck taunted them, and Edith smiled knowingly, and Bobby and Boyd made playful remarks. All of which cut Helen's pride and hurt Dorothy's vanity. They essayed open conquest of Stewart.

So it came about that Madeline unconsciously admitted the cowboy to a place in her mind never occupied by any other. The instant it occurred to her why he was proof against the wiles of the other women she drove that amazing and strangely disturbing thought from her. Nevertheless, as she was human, she could not help thinking and being pleased and enjoying a little the discomfiture of the two coquettes.

Moreover, from this thought of Stewart, and the watchfulness growing out of it she discovered more about him. He was not happy; he often paced up and down the grove at night; he absented himself from camp sometimes during the afternoon when Nels and Nick and Monty were there; he was always watching the trails, as if he expected to see some one come riding up. He alone of the cowboys did not indulge in the fun and talk around the camp-fire. He remained preoccupied and sad, and was always looking away into distance. Madeline had a strange sense of his guardianship over her; and, remembering Don Carlos, she imagined he worried a good deal over his charge, and, indeed, over the safety of all the party.

But if he did worry about possible visits from wandering guerrillas, why did he absent himself from camp? Suddenly into Madeline's inquisitive mind flashed a remembrance of the dark-eyed Mexican girl, Bonita, who had never been heard of since that night she rode Stewart's big horse out of El Cajon. The remembrance of her brought an idea. Perhaps Stewart had a rendezvous in the mountains, and these lonely trips of his were to meet Bonita. With the idea hot blood flamed into Madeline's cheek. Then she was amazed at her own feelings—amazed because her swiftest succeeding thought was to deny the idea—amazed that its conception had fired her cheek with shame. Then her old self, the one aloof from this red-blooded new self, gained control over her emotions.

But Madeline found that new-born self a creature of strange power to return and govern at any moment. She found it fighting loyally for what intelligence and wisdom told her was only her romantic conception of a cowboy. She reasoned: If Stewart were the kind of man her feminine skepticism wanted to make him, he would not have been so blind to the coquettish advances of Helen and Dorothy. He had once been—she did not want to recall what he had once been. But he had been uplifted. Madeline Hammond declared that. She was swayed by a strong, beating pride, and her instinctive woman's faith told her that he could not stoop to such dishonor. She reproached herself for having momentarily thought of it.

One afternoon a huge storm-cloud swooped out of the sky and enveloped the crags. It obscured the westering sun and laid a mantle of darkness over the park. Madeline was uneasy because several of her party, including Helen and Dorothy, had ridden off with the cowboys that afternoon and had not returned. Florence assured her that even if they did not get back before the storm broke there was no reason for apprehension. Nevertheless, Madeline sent for Stewart and asked him to go or send some one in search of them.

Perhaps half an hour later Madeline heard the welcome pattering of hoofs on the trail. The big tent was brightly lighted by several lanterns. Edith and Florence were with her. It was so black outside that Madeline could not see a rod before her face. The wind was moaning in the trees, and big drops of rain were pelting upon the canvas.

Presently, just outside the door, the horses halted, and there was a sharp bustle of sound, such as would naturally result from a hurried dismounting and confusion in the dark. Mrs. Beck came running into the tent out of breath and radiant because they had beaten the storm. Helen entered next, and a little later came Dorothy, but long enough to make her entrance more noticeable. The instant Madeline saw Dorothy's blazing eyes she knew something unusual had happened. Whatever it was might have escaped comment had not Helen caught sight of Dorothy.

“Heavens, Dot, but you're handsome occasionally!” remarked Helen. “When you get some life in your face and eyes!”

Dorothy turned her face away from the others, and perhaps it was only accident that she looked into a mirror hanging on the tent wall. Swiftly she put her hand up to feel a wide red welt on her cheek. Dorothy had been assiduously careful of her soft, white skin, and here was an ugly mark marring its beauty.

“Look at that!” she cried, in distress. “My complexion's ruined!”

“How did you get such a splotch?” inquired Helen, going closer.

“I've been kissed!” exclaimed Dorothy, dramatically.

“What?” queried Helen, more curiously, while the others laughed.

“I've been kissed—hugged and kissed by one of those shameless cowboys! It was so pitch-dark outside I couldn't see a thing. And so noisy I couldn't hear. But somebody was trying to help me off my horse. My foot caught in the stirrup, and away I went—right into somebody's arms. Then he did it, the wretch! He hugged and kissed me in a most awful bearish manner. I couldn't budge a finger. I'm simply boiling with rage!”

When the outburst of mirth subsided Dorothy turned her big, dilated eyes upon Florence.

“Do these cowboys really take advantage of a girl when she's helpless and in the dark?”

“Of course they do,” replied Florence, with her frank smile.

“Dot, what in the world could you expect?” asked Helen. “Haven't you been dying to be kissed?”

“No.”

“Well, you acted like it, then. I never before saw you in a rage over being kissed.”

“I—I wouldn't care so much if the brute hadn't scoured the skin off my face. He had whiskers as sharp and stiff as sandpaper. And when I jerked away he rubbed my cheek with them.”

This revelation as to the cause of her outraged dignity almost prostrated her friends with glee.

“Dot, I agree with you; it's one thing to be kissed, and quite another to have your beauty spoiled,” replied Helen, presently. “Who was this particular savage?”

“I don't know!” burst out Dorothy. “If I did I'd—I'd—”

Her eyes expressed the direful punishment she could not speak.

“Honestly now, Dot, haven't you the least idea who did it?” questioned Helen.

“I hope—I think it was Stewart,” replied Dorothy.

“Ah! Dot, your hope is father to the thought. My dear, I'm sorry to riddle your little romance. Stewart did not—could not have been the offender or hero.”

“How do you know he couldn't?” demanded Dorothy, flushing.

“Because he was clean-shaven to-day at noon, before we rode out. I remember perfectly how nice and smooth and brown his face looked.”

“Oh, do you? Well, if your memory for faces is so good, maybe you can tell me which one of these cowboys wasn't clean-shaven.”

“Merely a matter of elimination,” replied Helen, merrily. “It was not Nick; it was not Nels; it was not Frankie. There was only one other cowboy with us, and he had a short, stubby growth of black beard, much like that cactus we passed on the trail.”

“Oh, I was afraid of it,” moaned Dorothy. “I knew he was going to do it. That horrible little smiling demon, Monty Price!”

A favorite lounging-spot of Madeline's was a shaded niche under the lee of crags facing the east. Here the outlook was entirely different from that on the western side. It was not red and white and glaring, nor so changeable that it taxed attention. This eastern view was one of the mountains and valleys, where, to be sure, there were arid patches; but the restful green of pine and fir was there, and the cool gray of crags. Bold and rugged indeed were these mountain features, yet they were companionably close, not immeasurably distant and unattainable like the desert. Here in the shade of afternoon Madeline and Edith would often lounge under a low-branched tree. Seldom they talked much, for it was afternoon and dreamy with the strange spell of this mountain fastness. There was smoky haze in the valleys, a fleecy cloud resting over the peaks, a sailing eagle in the blue sky, silence that was the unbroken silence of the wild heights, and a soft wind laden with incense of pine.

One afternoon, however, Edith appeared prone to talk seriously.

“Majesty, I must go home soon. I cannot stay out here forever. Are you going back with me?”

“Well, maybe,” replied Madeline, thoughtfully. “I have considered it. I shall have to visit home some time. But this summer mother and father are going to Europe.”

“See here, Majesty Hammond, do you intend to spend the rest of your life in this wilderness?” asked Edith, bluntly.

Madeline was silent.

“Oh, it is glorious! Don't misunderstand me, dear,” went on Edith, earnestly, as she laid her hand on Madeline's. “This trip has been a revelation to me. I did not tell you, Majesty, that I was ill when I arrived. Now I'm well. So well! Look at Helen, too. Why, she was a ghost when we got here. Now she is brown and strong and beautiful. If it were for nothing else than this wonderful gift of health I would love the West. But I have come to love it for other things—even spiritual things. Majesty, I have been studying you. I see and feel what this life has made of you. When I came I wondered at your strength, your virility, your serenity, your happiness. And I was stunned. I wondered at the causes of your change. Now I know. You were sick of idleness, sick of uselessness, if not of society—sick of the horrible noises and smells and contacts one can no longer escape in the cities. I am sick of all that, too, and I could tell you many women of our kind who suffer in a like manner. You have done what many of us want to do, but have not the courage. You have left it. I am not blind to the splendid difference you have made in your life. I think I would have discovered, even if your brother had not told me, what good you have done to the Mexicans and cattlemen of your range. Then you have work to do. That is much the secret of your happiness, is it not? Tell me. Tell me something of what it means to you?”

“Work, of course, has much to do with any one's happiness,” replied Madeline. “No one can be happy who has no work. As regards myself—for the rest I can hardly tell you. I have never tried to put it in words. Frankly, I believe, if I had not had money that I could not have found such contentment here. That is not in any sense a judgment against the West. But if I had been poor I could not have bought and maintained my ranch. Stillwell tells me there are many larger ranches than mine, but none just like it. Then I am almost paying my expenses out of my business. Think of that! My income, instead of being wasted, is mostly saved. I think—I hope I am useful. I have been of some little good to the Mexicans—eased the hardships of a few cowboys. For the rest, I think my life is a kind of dream. Of course my ranch and range are real, my cowboys are typical. If I were to tell you how I feel about them it would simply be a story of how Madeline Hammond sees the West. They are true to the West. It is I who am strange, and what I feel for them may be strange, too. Edith, hold to your own impressions.”

“But, Majesty, my impressions have changed. At first I did not like the wind, the dust, the sun, the endless open stretches. But now I do like them. Where once I saw only terrible wastes of barren ground now I see beauty and something noble. Then, at first, your cowboys struck me as dirty, rough, loud, crude, savage—all that was primitive. I did not want them near me. I imagined them callous, hard men, their only joy a carouse with their kind. But I was wrong. I have changed. The dirt was only dust, and this desert dust is clean. They are still rough, loud, crude, and savage in my eyes, but with a difference. They are natural men. They are little children. Monty Price is one of nature's noblemen. The hard thing is to discover it. All his hideous person, all his actions and speech, are masks of his real nature. Nels is a joy, a simple, sweet, kindly, quiet man whom some woman should have loved. What would love have meant to him! He told me that no woman ever loved him except his mother, and he lost her when he was ten. Every man ought to be loved—especially such a man as Nels. Somehow his gun record does not impress me. I never could believe he killed a man. Then take your foreman, Stewart. He is a cowboy, his work and life the same as the others. But he has education and most of the graces we are in the habit of saying make a gentleman. Stewart is a strange fellow, just like this strange country. He's a man, Majesty, and I admire him. So, you see, my impressions are developing with my stay out here.”

“Edith, I am so glad you told me that,” replied Madeline, warmly.

“I like the country, and I like the men,” went on Edith. “One reason I want to go home soon is because I am discontented enough at home now, without falling in love with the West. For, of course, Majesty, I would. I could not live out here. And that brings me to my point. Admitting all the beauty and charm and wholesomeness and good of this wonderful country, still it is no place for you, Madeline Hammond. You have your position, your wealth, your name, your family. You must marry. You must have children. You must not give up all that for a quixotic life in a wilderness.”

“I am convinced, Edith, that I shall live here all the rest of my life.”

“Oh, Majesty! I hate to preach this way. But I promised your mother I would talk to you. And the truth is I hate—I hate what I'm saying. I envy you your courage and wisdom. I know you have refused to marry Boyd Harvey. I could see that in his face. I believe you will refuse Castleton. Whom will you marry? What chance is there for a woman of your position to marry out here? What in the world will become of you?”

“Quien sabe?” replied Madeline, with a smile that was almost sad.

Not so many hours after this conversation with Edith, Madeline sat with Boyd Harvey upon the grassy promontory overlooking the west, and she listened once again to his suave courtship.

Suddenly she turned to him and said, “Boyd, if I married you would you be willing—glad to spend the rest of your life here in the West?”

“Majesty!” he exclaimed. There was amaze in the voice usually so even and well modulated—amaze in the handsome face usually so indifferent. Her question had startled him. She saw him look down the iron-gray cliffs, over the barren slopes and cedared ridges, beyond the cactus-covered foothills to the grim and ghastly desert. Just then, with its red veils of sunlit dust-clouds, its illimitable waste of ruined and upheaved earth, it was a sinister spectacle.

“No,” he replied, with a tinge of shame in his cheek. Madeline said no more, nor did he speak. She was spared the pain of refusing him, and she imagined he would never ask her again. There was both relief and regret in the conviction. Humiliated lovers seldom made good friends.

It was impossible not to like Boyd Harvey. The thought of that, and why she could not marry him, concentrated her never-satisfied mind upon the man. She looked at him, and she thought of him.

He was handsome, young, rich, well born, pleasant, cultivated—he was all that made a gentleman of his class. If he had any vices she had not heard of them. She knew he had no thirst for drink or craze for gambling. He was considered a very desirable and eligible young man. Madeline admitted all this.

Then she thought of things that were perhaps exclusively her own strange ideas. Boyd Harvey's white skin did not tan even in this southwestern sun and wind. His hands were whiter than her own, and as soft. They were really beautiful, and she remembered what care he took of them. They were a proof that he never worked. His frame was tall, graceful, elegant. It did not bear evidence of ruggedness. He had never indulged in a sport more strenuous than yachting. He hated effort and activity. He rode horseback very little, disliked any but moderate motoring, spent much time in Newport and Europe, never walked when he could help it, and had no ambition unless it were to pass the days pleasantly. If he ever had any sons they would be like him, only a generation more toward the inevitable extinction of his race.

Madeline returned to camp in just the mood to make a sharp, deciding contrast. It happened—fatefully, perhaps—that the first man she saw was Stewart. He had just ridden into camp, and as she came up he explained that he had gone down to the ranch for the important mail about which she had expressed anxiety.

“Down and back in one day!” she exclaimed.

“Yes,” he replied. “It wasn't so bad.”

“But why did you not send one of the boys, and let him make the regular two-day trip?”

“You were worried about your mail,” he answered, briefly, as he delivered it. Then he bent to examine the fetlocks of his weary horse.

It was midsummer now, Madeline reflected and exceedingly hot and dusty on the lower trail. Stewart had ridden down the mountain and back again in twelve hours. Probably no horse in the outfit, except his big black or Majesty, could have stood that trip. And his horse showed the effects of a grueling day. He was caked with dust and lame and weary.

Stewart looked as if he had spared the horse his weight on many a mile of that rough ascent. His boots were evidence of it. His heavy flannel shirt, wet through with perspiration, adhered closely to his shoulders and arms, so that every ripple of muscle plainly showed. His face was black, except round the temples and forehead, where it was bright red. Drops of sweat, running off his blackened hands dripped to the ground. He got up from examining the lame foot, and then threw off the saddle. The black horse snorted and lunged for the watering-pool. Stewart let him drink a little, then with iron arms dragged him away. In this action the man's lithe, powerful form impressed Madeline with a wonderful sense of muscular force. His brawny wrist was bare; his big, strong hand, first clutching the horse's mane, then patting his neck, had a bruised knuckle, and one finger was bound up. That hand expressed as much gentleness and thoughtfulness for the horse as it had strength to drag him back from too much drinking at a dangerous moment.

Stewart was a combination of fire, strength, and action. These attributes seemed to cling about him. There was something vital and compelling in his presence. Worn and spent and drawn as he was from the long ride, he thrilled Madeline with his potential youth and unused vitality and promise of things to be, red-blooded deeds, both of flesh and spirit. In him she saw the strength of his forefathers unimpaired. The life in him was marvelously significant. The dust, the dirt, the sweat, the soiled clothes, the bruised and bandaged hand, the brawn and bone—these had not been despised by the knights of ancient days, nor by modern women whose eyes shed soft light upon coarse and bloody toilers.

Madeline Hammond compared the man of the East with the man of the West; and that comparison was the last parting regret for her old standards.

Wednesday, 11 October 2023

Good Reading: "Marilyn" by Pier Paolo Pasolini (in Italian)


Del mondo antico e del mondo futuro
era rimasta solo la bellezza, e tu,
povera sorellina minore,
quella che corre dietro i fratelli più grandi,
e ride e piange con loro per imitarli,

tu sorellina più piccola,
quella bellezza l’avevi addosso umilmente,
e la tua anima di figlia di piccola gente,
non ha mai saputo di averla,
perché altrimenti non sarebbe stata bellezza.

Il mondo te l’ha insegnata,
così la tua bellezza divenne sua.

Del pauroso mondo antico e del pauroso mondo futuro
era rimasta sola la bellezza, e tu
te la sei portata dietro come un sorriso obbediente.
L’obbedienza richiede troppe lacrime inghiottite,
il darsi agli altri troppi allegri sguardi
che chiedono la loro pietà! Così
ti sei portata via la tua bellezza.
Sparì come un pulviscolo d’oro.

Dello stupido mondo antico e del feroce mondo futuro
era rimasta una bellezza che non si vergognava
di alludere ai piccoli seni di sorellina,
al piccolo ventre così facilmente nudo.

E per questo era bellezza,
la stessa che hanno le dolci ragazze del tuo mondo…
le figlie dei commercianti
vincitrici ai concorsi a Miami o a Londra.
Sparì come una colombella d’oro.

Il mondo te l’ha insegnata,
e così la tua bellezza non fu più bellezza.

Ma tu continuavi a essere bambina,
sciocca come l’antichità, crudele come il futuro,
e fra te e la tua bellezza posseduta dal Potere
si mise tutta la stupidità e la crudeltà del presente.
La portavi sempre dietro come un sorriso tra le lacrime,
impudica per passività, indecente per obbedienza.
Sparì come una bianca colomba d’oro.

La tua bellezza sopravvissuta dal mondo antico,
richiesta dal mondo futuro,
posseduta dal mondo presente,
divenne un male mortale.

Ora i fratelli maggiori, finalmente, si voltano,
smettono per un momento i loro maledetti giochi,
escono dalla loro inesorabile distrazione,
e si chiedono: “È possibile che Marilyn,
la piccola Marilyn, ci abbia indicato la strada?”

Ora sei tu, quella che non conta nulla, poverina, col suo sorriso,
sei tu la prima oltre le porte del mondo
abbandonato al suo destino di morte.

Tuesday, 10 October 2023

Tuesday's Serial: "Ubirajara: lenda tupy" by José de Alencar (in Portuguese) - the end

 

Capítulo IX — A união dos arcos

Os tapuias voltaram, com elles vinha Agniná á frente de sua nação, para vingar a morte de Canicran, seu irmão.

Era grande a multidão dos guerreiros: e maior a tornavam a sanha da vingança e a fama do chefe que a conduzia.

Não eram tantos os tocantins; mas bastaria seu valor para igualal-os, não lhes faltasse a cabeça, que rege o corpo.

A poderosa nação estava como o bando de caitetús que perdeu o pai e desgarra-se pela floresta, correndo sem rumo.

Os mais valentes moacaras, chefes das tribus, esperavam pelo grande chefe da nação, para lhes abrir o caminho da guerra.

Os abarés meditaram. Elles não podiam inventar um guerreiro capaz de succeder a Itaquê; mas não se resignavam a abater a gloria da nação, trocando o arco invencivel do grande Tocantim por outro arco mais leve, que Pojucan manejasse.

Tambem Pojucan annunciára que não podendo brandir o arco de Itaquê, jámais empunharia outro arco chefe, menos glorioso do que o do grande Tocantim.

Abarés, chefes, moacaras, guerreiros, toda a nação se reuniu em torno do heróe cégo.

Daquelle que durante tantas luas defendera a nação com a forca de seu braço e a protegera com o terror de seu nome, esperavam ainda a salvação.

O velho ouviu a voz dos abarés, a voz dos chefes, a voz dos moacaras, a voz dos guerreiros, e disse:

— Itaquê ainda póde combater e morrer por sua nação; mas sem a luz do céo, elle não póde mais abrir a seus filhos o caminho da victoria.

«O braço de Itaquê defendeu sempre a nação tocantim; quer ella ser defendida agora pela palavra daquelle, que não tem mais para dar-lhe sinão a experiência de sua velhice?

«Pensem os abarés, os chefes, os moacaras e os guerreiros».

Guaribú respondeu:

— A nação pensou. Falla e todos obedecerão á tua palavra, como obedeciam ao braço de Itaquê.

— A voz do coração diz ao neto de Tocantim que a gloria da nação que elle gerou não se póde extinguir. O sangue de Itaquê, passando pelo seio de Aracy, se unirá a outro sangue generoso para brotar maior e mais illustre.

«Assim a terra onde nasceu uma floresta, de acajás, recebe o limo do rio e gera nova floresta mais frondosa que a outra.

«Jacamim, chama Aracy, a filha de nossa velhice. E vós abarés, chefes, moacaras e guerreiros, segui-me.»

O velho heróe atravessou a taba guiado por Aracy.

A nação o seguia em silencio.

Quando o guerreiro cégo passava com a mão no hombro da virgem formosa que dirigia o seu passo incerto, os guerreiros lembravam-se do tronco já morto que a rama do maracajú ainda sustenta de pé junto ao penedo.

Os cantores iam adiante; e entoavam um canto de paz.

 

Um mensageiro de Itaquê o precedera no campo dos araguayas.

Ubirajara, cercado de seus abatés, chefes, moacaras e guerreiros, veiu ao encontro do morubixaba dos tocantins.

A alma do grande chefe araguaya encheu-se de alegria de vêr Aracy; mas elle retirou os olhos da esposa, para que o amor não perturbasse a serenidade do varão.

— Ubirajara está em face de Itaquê; para combatel-o si trouxe a guerra; para abraçal-o si trouxe a paz.

— Nunca Itaquê pediu a paz ao inimigo que trouxe-lhe a guerra, antes de o vencer; nem teria vivido tanto para commetter essa fraqueza. Elle vem trazer-te a victoria para que tu a repartas com seu povo.

O velho heróe avançou o passo:

— Chefe dos araguayas, tu levaste a guerra á taba dos tocantins para conquistar Aracy, a filha de minha velhice.

«Por teu heroismo, e ainda mais pela nobreza com que restituiste a liberdade a Pojucan, tu merecias uma esposa do sangue de Tocantim.

«Mas desde que tu ameaçaste tomal-a pela força de teu braço, Itaquê não podia mais conceder-te a filha de sua velhice, sinão depois que abatesse teu orgulho.

«Elle prepara va-se para te combater, e á tua nação; mas fugiu-lhe dos olhos a luz que dirige a setta da guerra; e não ha entre seus guerreiros um que possa brandir o arco do grande Tocantim.»

Quando pronunciou estas palavras, a voz do velho guerreiro sossobrou-lhe no peito:

— O arco de Itaquê é como o gavião que perdeu as azas e não póde mais levar a morte ao inimigo. As andorinhas zombam de suas garras.

«Empunha o arco de Itaquê, chefe dos araguayas e tu conquistarás por teu heroismo uma esposa e uma nação.

«Á esposa farás mãi de cem guerreiros como Itaquê; e á nação conservarás a gloria que ella conquistou quando o filho de Javary a conduzia á guerra.

«Tupan dará a teu braço esta força para que o sangue de Itaquê brote mais vigoroso e os netos de Tocantim dominem as florestas.»

Ubirajara sorriu:

— Chefe dos tocantins, teus olhos não podem ver o grande arco da nação araguaya: mas pergunta á tua mão si o arco que Camacan brandia invencivel e agora empunha Ubirajara cede ao arco de Itaquê.

O velho heróe palpou o arco chefe dos araguayas e vergou-lhe a ponta ao hombro, como si a haste fosse de taquary.

Ubirajara travou do arco de Itaquê e desdenhando fincal-o no chão, elevou-o acima da fronte; flecha ornada de pennas de tocano partiu.

O semblante de Itaquê remoçou, ouvindo o zunido que lhe recordava o tempo de seu vigor. Era assim que elle brandia o arco outr'ora, quando as luas cresciam augmentando a forca de seu braço.

O velho inclinou a fronte para escutar o sibillo de sua flecha que talhava o azul do céo. Os cantores não tinham para elle mais doce harmonia do que essa.

Ubirajara largou o arco de Itaquê para tomar o arco de Camacan. A flecha araguaya também partiu e foi atravessar nos ares a outra que tornava a terra.

As duas settas desceram traspassadas uma pela outra como os braços do guerreiro quando se cruzam ao peito para exprimir a amizade.

Ubirajara apanhou-as no ar:

— Este é o emblema da união. Ubirajara fará a nação tocantim tão poderosa como a nação araguaya. Ambas serão irmãs na gloria e formarão uma só, que ha de ser a grande nação de Ubirajara, senhora dos rios, montes e florestas.

O chefe dos chefes ordenou que três guerreiros araguayas e três guerreiros tocantins ligassem com o fio do crautá as hastes dos dois arcos.

Quando o arco de Camacan e o arco de Itaquê não fizeram mais que um, Ubirajara o empunhou na mão possante e mostrou-o ás nações:

— Abarés, chefes, moacaras e guerreiros de minhas nações, aqui está o arco de Ubirajara, o chefe dos grandes chefes. Suas flechas são gemeas, como as duas nações, e voam juntas.

Ambas as cordas brandiram a um tempo.

A setta araguaya e a setta tocantim partiram de novo como duas aguias que par a par remontam as nuvens.

Quando calou-se a pocema do triumpho, Ubirajara caminhou para a filha de Itaquê:

— Aracy, estrella do dia, tu pertences a Ubirajara, que te conquistou pela força de seu braço. Agora que é senhor, elle espera tua vontade.

A formosa virgem rompeu a liga vermelha que lhe cingia a perna e atou-a ao pulso de seu guerreiro.

Ubirajara tomou a esposa aos hombros e levou-a á cabana do casamento.

O jasmineiro semeava de flores perfumadas a rêde do amor.

 

O outro sol rompia, quando os tapuias estenderam pela campina a multidão de seus guerreiros.

Na frente assomava Agniná a montanha dos guerreiros, ainda mais feroz do que o irmão, o terrivel Canicran.

De um lado e do outro seguiam-se os chefes, cada um á frente de seus guerreiros.

Ubirajara escolheu mil guerreiros araguayas e mil guerreiros tocantins, com que saiu ao encontro dos tapuias.

Depois que desdobrou sua batalha pela campina o chefe dos chefes caminhou só para o inimigo.

Quando chegava a meio do campo, os tapuias levantaram a pocema de guerra, que atroou os ares, como o estrepito da cachoeira.

Um turbilhão de settas crivou o longo escudo do heróe, que ficou semelhante ao grosso tronco da Jussara, irriçado de espinhos.

Ubirajara embraçou o escudo na altura do hombro, e com o pé brandiu sete vezes a corda do grande arco gemeo.

As settas vermelhas e amarellas subiram direitas ao céo e perderam-se nas nuvens.

Quando voltaram, Agniná e os chefes que obedeciam a seu arco tinham cada um fincado na cabeça o desafio do formidável guerreiro.

Enfurecidos mais pelo insulto, do que pela dôr, arremessaram-se contra o inimigo que os esperava coberto com seu vasto escudo. Agniná era o primeiro na corrida, e o primeiro na sanha. Apoz elle vinham os outros, a dois e dois, luctando na rapidez.

Quando o esposo de Aracy viu que elles se estendiam pela campina, como dois ribeiros que se aproximam para confundir suas aguas, o heróe empunhou a lança de duas pontas, e soltou seu grito de guerra, que era como o bramir do jaguar, senhor da floresta.

Seu pé devorou o espaço; e a lança de duas pontas girou em sua mão, como a serpente que se enrosca nos ares silvando.

Caiu Agniná do primeiro bote; apoz elle caíram aos dois os chefes tapuias, como caem os juncos talhados pelo dente afiado da capivara.

Então o heróe soltou seu grito de triumpho, que era como o rugido do vento no deserto:

— Eu sou Ubirajara, o senhor da lança, o guerreiro invencível que tem por arma uma serpente.

«Eu sou Ubirajara, o senhor das nações, o chefe dos chefes, que varre a terra, como o vento do deserto.»

O heróe estendeu a vista pela campina, e não descobriu mais o inimigo, que se sumia na poeira.

Ubirajara lençou-lhe seus guerreiros, que tinham fome de vingança; porém o terror de de sua lança dava azas aos fugitivos.

Desde esse dia nunca mais um tapuia pisou as margens do grande rio.

Ubirajara voltou á cabana, onde o esperava Aracy.

A esposa despiu as armas de seu guerreiro, enxugou-lhe o corpo com o macio cotao da monguba, e cobriu-o do balsamo fragrante da embaiba.

Depois encheu de generoso cauim a taça vermelha feita do coco da sapucaia; e aplacou a sede do combate.

Emquanto nas grandes tabas se preparava a festa do triumpho, e o heróe repousava na rêde, Aracy foi ao terreiro e voltou conduzindo Jandyra pela mão.

— Aracy, tua esposa, é irmã de Jandyra. Ubirajara é o chefe dos chefes, senhor do arco das duas nações. Elle deve repartir seu amor por ellas, como repartiu a sua força.

A virgem araguaya poz no guerreiro seus olhos de corsa.

— Jandyra é serva de tua esposa; seu amor a obrigou a querer o que tu queres. Ella ficará em tua cabana para ensinar a tuas filhas como uma virgem araguaya ama seu guerreiro.

Ubirajara cingiu ao peito, com um e outro braço, a esposa e a virgem.

— Aracy é a esposa do chefe tocantim; Jandyra será a esposa do chefe araguaya; ambas serão as mãis dos filhos de Ubirajara, o chefe dos chefes e o senhor das florestas.

As duas nações, dos araguayas e dos tocantins, formaram a grande nação dos Ubirajaras, que tomou o nome do heróe.

Foi esta poderosa nação que dominou o deserto.

Mais tarde, quando vieram os caramurús, guerreiros do mar, ella campeava ainda nas margens do grande rio.

Saturday, 7 October 2023

Good Reading: "Guy" by Ralph W. Emerson (in English)

Mortal mixed of middle clay,
Attempered to the night and day,
Interchangeable with things,
Needs no amulets nor rings.
Guy possessed the talisman
That all things from him began;
And as, of old, Polycrates
Chained the sunshine and the breeze,
So did Guy betimes discover
Fortune was his guard and lover;
In strange junctures, felt, with awe,
His own symmetry with law;
That no mixture could withstand
The virtue of his lucky hand.
He gold or jewel could not lose,
Nor not receive his ample dues.
Fearless Guy had never foes,
He did their weapons decompose.
Aimed at him, the blushing blade
Healed as fast the wounds it made.
If on the foeman fell his gaze,
Him it would straightway blind or craze,
In the street, if he turned round,
His eye the eye 't was seeking found.
It seemed his Genius discreet
Worked on the Maker's own receipt,
And made each tide and element
Stewards of stipend and of rent;
So that the common waters fell
As costly wine into his well.
He had so sped his wise affairs
That he caught Nature in his snares.
Early or late, the falling rain
Arrived in time to swell his grain;
Stream could not so perversely wind
But corn of Guy's was there to grind:
The siroc found it on its way,
To speed his sails, to dry his hay;
And the world's sun seemed to rise
To drudge all day for Guy the wise.
In his rich nurseries, timely skill
Strong crab with nobler blood did fill;
The zephyr in his garden rolled
From plum-trees vegetable gold;
And all the hours of the year
With their own harvest honored were.
There was no frost but welcome came,
Nor freshet, nor midsummer flame.
Belonged to wind and world the toil
And venture, and to Guy the oil.

Friday, 6 October 2023

Friday's Sung Word: "Vejo Amanhecer" by Noel Rosa and Francisco Alves (in Portuguese)

Vejo amanhecer
Vejo anoitecer
E não me sais
Do pensamento, ó mulher!
Vou para o trabalho
Passo em tua porta
Me metes o malho
Mas que bem me importa

De esperar a minha amada
A minh'alma não se cansa
Pois até quem não tem nada
Tem ainda a esperança
Esperança nos ilude
Ajudando a suportar
Do destino o golpe rude
Que eu não canso de esperar

Amanhece e anoitece
Sem parar o meu tormento
Por saber que quem me esquece
Não me sai do pensamento
Já não durmo, já não sonho
De pensar fugiu-me a paz
No passado tão risonho
Que não volta nunca mais

 

You can listen "Vejo Amanhecer" sung by Francisco Alves here.