Saturday, 8 July 2017

“The Stolen Mind” by M. L. Staley (in English)

The structure, pivoting downward, plunged Quest to his waist in the osmotic solution.
What would you do, if, like Quest, you were tricked, and your very Mind and Will stolen from your body?
            "What caused you to answer our advertisement?" Owen Quest felt the steel of the quick gray eyes that jabbed like gimlets across the office table.
            "Why does any man apply for a job?" he bristled.
            Keane Clason gave an impatient smile.
 "Come!" he said. "I'm not trying to snare you. But there were unusual features to my ad, and they were put there to attract an unusual type of man. To judge your qualifications, I must know just why this proposition appeals to you."
            "I can tell you that," nodded Quest, "but there's nothing unusual about it. In the first place, I knew that the Clason Research Corporation is the leading concern of its kind in the country. In the second place, this seemed to offer a way to obtain a substantial sum of money quickly."
            "Good," said Clason. "And you feel that you have all the necessary qualifications?"
            "Decidedly. I am 24 years old, athletic, and of an earnest and determined nature. Moreover, I have no family ties, and I'm willing to run any reasonable risk in order to improve the condition of my fellow men."
            Clason smiled his approval.
            "You say you need money. How much immediately?"
            Quest was unprepared for the question.
            "A thousand dollars," he ventured.
            Without hesitation Clason counted out ten one-hundred-dollar notes from his wallet and laid them on the table.
            "There's your advance fee. You're ready to go to work immediately, I hope?"
            "Certainly," stammered Quest.
            Stunned by the swiftness of the transaction, he sat staring at the money that lay untouched before him.
            To accept it would be like signing an unread contract. But he had asked for it; to refuse it was impossible. Even to delay about picking it up might arouse Clason's suspicion. Already the latter had turned away and was opening the door of a steel cabinet. Quest had one second in which to reach a decision.... He crammed the currency into his pocket.
            With delicate care Clason set two objects on the table. One looked to Quest like a miniature broadcasting tower or a mooring mast for lighter than air craft. The other was a circular vat of some black material, probably carbon. Within it a series of concentric tissues were suspended from metal rings, and in a trough outside ranged four stoppered flasks containing liquids of as many different colors.
            "Look at these models carefully," said Clason. "They represent two of the most remarkable discoveries of all time. The one on your left is the most destructive weapon known to man. The other I consider the most constructive discovery in the history of science. It may even lead to an understanding of the nature of life, and of the future of the spirit after death.
            "Both of these were developed by my brother Philip and me together - but we have disagreed about the use to which they shall be put.
            "Philip" - the inventor dropped his voice to a whisper - "wants to sell the secret of the Death Projector - the tower, there - as an instrument of war. If I should permit him to do that, it might lead to the destruction of whole nations!"
            "How?" demanded Quest "I've heard of a device called the Death Ray. Is this it?"
            "No, no," said Clason contemptuously. "Even in a perfected state the Ray would be a child's toy compared to the Projector. This is based on our discovery that invisible light rays of a certain wave-length, if highly concentrated, destroy life - and our additional discovery that if these are synchronized with short radio waves the effect is absolutely devastating.
            "We obtain the desired concentration of invisible light by using a tellurium current-filter under the influence of alternate flashes of red and blue light. The projector can literally blanket vast areas with death, up to a top range of at least five hundred miles.
            "Just picture to yourself what this means! In a space of ten minutes two men can lay down a circle of destruction a thousand miles in diameter; or they can cut a swath five hundred miles long in any desired direction."
            "Have you ever proved it?" demanded Quest skeptically.
            "Yes, young man, we have," snapped Clason. "Right here in the laboratory - but on a minute scale, of course. However, there's no time to demonstrate now. The point is that my brother is determined to sell if he can obtain his price for the invention. He argues that instead of bringing disaster upon the world, this machine will forever discourage war by making it too terrible for any civilized nation to consider. In spite of my opposition he has opened negotiations with an ambitious Balkan power. He may actually close the sale at any moment!
            "However," Clason drew a deep breath "you see this other device? Simple as it appears, it is the key to the whole situation. We can use it - you and I - to overcome Philip's will and prevent this unthinkable transaction. The two of us can do it. Alone I would be virtually helpless."
            "Why not have the Projector confiscated or destroyed by our own Government?" suggested Quest. "That seems to me the only safe and sure way out of the difficulty."
            "You simply do not understand," frowned Clason impatiently. "Philip is selling the plans and descriptions of the machine, not the machine itself. Even if this model and the larger test machine that we have built were destroyed - even if I were willing to have Philip sent to Leavenworth for life - he could still sell the Projector.
            "But this other invention, our Osmotic Liberator, makes it possible for me to gain control of Philip and actually change his mind, through the medium of an agent. I have hired you to act as my Agent, Quest, because I can see that you are a young man of unusual character and vitality. And by way of reward I can promise you both money and a brilliant future."
            The inventor poised in a tense attitude on the edge of his chair as though his body were charged with electricity. His eyes seemed to dart out emanations that set Quest's blood to tingling. Then for a moment the latter lost consciousness of his physical self. It was as though he had opened a door and found himself suddenly on the brink of a new and totally strange world. He dispelled this fancy by a quick effort of the will, for he knew that he had a delicate problem on his hands and that it must be solved within a very few minutes. However he proceeded, he must act without disloyalty to his Government, and at the same time without injustice to Keane Clason.
            "Tell me," he said in a husky voice, "how do you intend to use me? I do not believe in Spiritualism. I would be a poor medium."
            Clason gave a short laugh.
            "You are not to be a medium in that sense at all. Spiritualism as practiced is just a blind sort of groping and hoping. Osmotic Liberation, on the other hand, is an exact and opposite physico-chemical science. Here - I will show you."
            Into the outer cell of the Liberator he emptied the purple vial, and so on to the innermost, which he filled with a golden-green liquid like old Chartreuse.
            "The separating membranes, you understand, are permeable by these complicated solutions. Each liquid has a different osmotic pressure and therefore should, under normal conditions, interchange with the others through the membranes until all pressures are equalized. I prevent such interchange, however, by maintaining an anti-electrolysis which retards ionization and thus builds up what might be called osmotic potential.
            "Now if an Agent - yourself for instance - submerges himself in the central cell, at the same time maintaining a physical contact with his Control at the surface of the liquid, and if then the osmotic potential is suddenly released by throwing the electrolytic switch, the host of ions thus turned loose in the outer compartments make one grand rush for the center solution, which contains the cathode.
            "Under these conditions your body becomes a sort of sixth cell, and your skin another membrane in the series. Properly speaking, however, you are not a part of the electrolytic circuit but are merely present in the action. Your body acts as a catalyser, hastening the chemical action without itself being affected in any way. Physically you undergo no change whatever; but in some strange way which is, like life, beyond analysis, your mind flows out into the solution, while your unaltered body remains at the bottom of the tank in a state of suspended animation.
            "If no Control is present, all that is needed to return your mind into your body is a throw of the electrolytic switch back to negative, whereupon you emerge from the tank exactly as you entered it. But with your Control present and in contact with your submerged body, your mind, instead of remaining suspended in the solution, flows instantly into his body and resides there subject to his will.
            "This can not be done, however, unless the wills of Control and Agent have first been brought into accord. To accomplish that, we clasp hands" - Quest grasped Clason's extended hand -"and look steadily into each other's eyes.
            "Now, it is well known that the vibrations of an individual's will are as distinctive as the sworls of his finger-prints. What is not so well known is that the frequency of vibration in one person can be brought into accord with that in another.
            "You consciously retract your will by concentrating your mind upon the thing which you know I wish to accomplish. Gradually while we continue in this position your vibrations speed up or slow down until they acquire exactly the same frequency as my own. We are then in accord, and when your mind is liberated in the tank it is in a state which admits absorption into my body. And it is subject to my will because you have purposely attuned it to my peculiar frequency. Immediately after the transfer there will be a brief conflict, due to the instinctive desire of your will to obtain the ascendancy. But of course mine will gain the upper hand at once, since both wills will be in my frequency."
            Quest felt, rather than saw, a wall of alarm closing in on him. He tried to avert his eyes, to withdraw his hand from Clason's grasp. With a nostalgic pang in the pit of his stomach he suddenly realized that he could not do so. He had gone too far - farther than any man in his position had a right to go. Having deliberately weakened his will, it seemed now to have deserted him entirely. A prickling sensation coursed up his spine, his extended arm went numb, his hand trembled violently.
            "Splendid!" said Clason, suddenly releasing both eye and hand. "Just as I foresaw, you will be able to attune yourself to my vibration-frequency with hardly an effort. Now please remain seated; I'll be back in a moment."
            For a second after the door closed, Quest remained slumped in his chair. Then he was on his feet, shaking himself like a wet dog to free himself from the spell under which he had fallen. Something about Clason attracted and at the same time repelled him, fraying his nerves like an irritant drug and confusing his mind at the moment when he needed the full alertness of every faculty.
            Invisible light - disembodied minds - will vibrations! Nothing there to get hold of. Were these things real or imaginary? Was Keane Clason a great inventor, or a madman? Would Philip prove to be a real or an imaginary scoundrel? Should he summon help, or go on alone?
            Professional pride said: wait, don't be an alarmist! With his knuckles Quest tapped the table, half expecting it to melt under his fingers. The feeling and sound of the contact gave him a peculiar start. On the farther end of the table stood a letter-box - an invitation. From his pocket Quest snatched a slip of paper, and wrote:

6 stroke 4—9:45A—Hired. If no report in 48 hours, clamp down hard.

To address a stamped envelope and slip it in with the outgoing mail was the work of seconds. But he was none too quick. He had just dropped back into a lounging attitude when the door burst open and Clason flew into the room?
            "We must act instantly," hissed the inventor. "Philip plans to close the transaction within a day."
            In spite of himself, Quest jumped upright in his chair. Clason tapped him on the shoulder reassuringly.
            "It's all right," he smiled, "I'm ready for him. We'll make our move this afternoon and beat him by eighteen hours.
            "Let's see." He paused. "Oh! yes. I was about to explain to you that as soon as the will of the Agent enters the body of his Control, the latter can again transfer it into the body of still another person.
            "Now you understand why I advertised for a man of exceptional character? As my Agent, I want you to enter the body of Philip, and your will must be strong enough to conquer his in the battle for mastery which will begin the instant you intrude into his body. You will still be under my control, but your will must be strong enough on its own merits to overcome his. I can direct you, but your strength must be your own. That's clear, isn't it?"
            "I think so," said Quest slowly. "But what becomes of me after you have frustrated Philip's plot?"
            "That's the easy part of the process," smiled Clason; "but naturally you feel some anxiety about it. I simply withdraw your will from Philip, return it to your own body, and pay you a reward of ten thousand dollars."
            "You're sure you can?"
            "Perfectly. I have merely to touch Philip's hand to recapture your will. Then I immerse myself in the tank with the switch at plus. The osmotic action will extract both wills momentarily from my body. But the presence of two bodies and two wills in the solution together forces a balance, and each will seeks out and enters its own body. Then you and I climb out of the tank exactly as we are this minute."
            "If it weren't for my belief that anything is possible," Quest shook his head, "I'd say that your claims for this invention were ridiculous."
            "And you couldn't be blamed," admitted Clason readily. "This toy of a model is hardly convincing. But come along with me and I'll show you how the Liberator looks in actual operation."
            The office rug concealed a trap door which gave upon a spiral stair. Below, Clason unlocked another door and led the way through a narrow and tremendously long passage lighted at intervals by small electric bulbs. Presently another door yielded to the inventor's deft touch and closed behind them with a portentous chug. Here the darkness was so utter and intense that Quest imagined he could feel the weight of it on his shoulders. From the slope of the passageway and the muffled beat of machinery that had come to his ears on the way along, he guessed that he was below ground in some chamber at the rear of the factory.
            He gave a low exclamation as Clason switched on the toplight. No wonder the darkness had seemed of almost supernatural quality! Even the hard white glare of the daylight arc was grisly. Its rays rebounded from the liquids of the great circular tank in a blinding dazzle of color, while the dull black walls and ceiling were so perfectly absorptive that beyond arm's length they became to all effects invisible. Even the ledge on which he stood -  the shoulder of the vat - gave Quest the feeling that to move would be to step off into a bottomless pit.

But Clason took his attention at once, pointing here and there in his quick, nervous way to indicate how faithfully the Liberator had been reproduced from the model. In all respects the arrangements were the same, with the addition that here a long plank like a spring-board extended out from a wall-mount as far as the central compartment of the tank, and that from its end a narrow ladder hung down to the surface of the Chartreuse liquid. A double-throw switch fixed to the wall above the base of the plank was evidently the source of electrolytic control.
            "When you throw the switch to plus," said Clason, pointing to the chalk-marked sign above, "you produce the violent electrolytic action needed to bring about a liberation. All the rest of the time it should be closed at minus, in order to maintain the anti-action which I explained to you.
            "Now let's rehearse, so that when the time for the real performance arrives we can be sure of running it off without a hitch."
            "All right, sir," nodded Quest, so dazed by the glittering light that he was hardly conscious of what he said.
            "First," said Clason, running lightly up the steps to the plank, "you walk out to the end, like this, and start down the ladder. Then you lower yourself into the tank. The liquid is at body temperature; it's neither strongly acid nor caustic; it will cause you no injury or discomfort whatever.
            "Meanwhile I keep in contact with your hand until the instant that you become submerged. Now your mind is in me, see? - ready for transfer into Philip, where it will act as my Agent. That's how simple it is! Come on up and we'll go through the motions."
            Quest experienced a shiver as he mounted the bridge. Annoyed with himself, he shrugged the feeling off. There was no risk here. Moreover, it was a part of his daily work to take chances; he had done so a hundred times without hesitation. Now he moved all the more quickly, as if to belie the squeamishness that possessed him in spite of himself.
            Swinging past Clason on the plank, he lowered himself without a pause to the bottom rung of the ladder, while the inventor, hanging head down, maintained contact with him.
            "No need to stay here," he said in sudden irritation. "I understand perfectly what I am to do."
            "I'm testing my own acrobatic ability," grunted Clason amiably. "Just a minute now."
            He wriggled as if trying to adjust himself to a better balance, but in reality to mask the motion of his free hand with which he reached up and pressed a button in the side of the plank. Instantly the structure, pivoting downward on its wall-socket, plunged Quest to his waist in the osmotic solution.
            "For God's sake get out of the way!" he shouted, trying to wrench his hand out of Clason's sinewy grip. "Let go, I tell you!"
            But Clason clung like a leech, his teeth gritted under the strain. Again the plank lurched downward, and with a violent splash Quest vanished below the surface.
            Quick as a cat, Clason scrambled up the ladder and back to the base of the plank, where he erased and interchanged the chalk-marked signs with which he had misled Quest. Then with a sinister twist of a smile he threw the switch to minus, and turned to watch as the plank slowly righted itself and the vacant ladder came clear of the liquid.
            For some time he stood staring at the gleaming colored rings of his dissociation-vat like some witch over her cauldron, his lips working, his hands clasping and unclasping like the tentacles of some sub-sea monster. Then, as if the spell had suddenly broken, he turned on his heel and switched off the light. As he hastened down the passageway toward his office, the airlock sucked the door against its jamb with an ominous whistle.
            In a twinkling, as Quest's shackled spirit writhed in its new housing, he knew that he was in bondage to a scoundrel. Formless and voiceless, he still fought madly for the freedom which the instinct of ten thousand generations made necessary to him.
            At the same time he was furious at himself for having been tricked like an innocent schoolboy. The plank socket, the button which had tripped the supporting spring, the fake rehearsal, the tuning of his will to that of Clason - step by step the whole cunning scheme unfolded itself to him now.
            But what could be the purpose behind this villainy? Only one answer seemed possible. Keane must be the one bent on selling the Death Projector, Philip the one who wished to frustrate the fiendish transaction! And Quest of the Secret Service - he was to be the tool to force the sale.
            With the soundless scream of rage Quest's will hurled itself against Keane's. The two met like infuriated bulls, and for an instant too brief to be pictured as a lapse of time they poised immovable. But two wills can not exist on equal terms in a single body, and in this case the vibration of both was that of Clason. Quest had challenged the Master Will. He could do no more. It hurled him back, crushed him like foam, compressed him to the proportions of an atom in the background of his consciousness. So brief and unequal was the conflict that in the next breath Clason had all but forgotten the presence of the stolen will within him. When he was ready to use his Agent, that would be time enough to summon him!
            Despite this suppression, Quest began to see dimly through strange eyes, and to hear vaguely with ears that were not his own. Feelers, tentacles, some intangible kind of conduits carried thought impulses to him from the Master Will. He received these impressions vividly, but those which he gave off in return were so weak, due to the subjection of his will, that Clason was entirely unconscious of any response. Quest was not enough of a scientist to be astonished at the ability of a disembodied mind to experience sense impressions in the body of another. He was only glad that the darkness and silence were growing less. Very, very slowly he was awakening to a new kind of consciousness - the consciousness of another person's Self. He hated and loathed that Self, yet it was better than the awful blankness that had gone before.
            Suddenly, as light grew brighter and sound more clear and definite, a new element entered - the element of hope. At first it was feeble: its only suggestion was that sometime, somehow, he might escape this prison. But it was like water to a parched plant. It caused his will to expand, to extend its feelers, to press up a little more bravely against the crushing pile of the Master Will.
            Now another surprise sprang upon him. He was moving! That is, Clason's body was moving in some kind of a conveyance, which was threading its way through crowded streets. Stores, buildings, buses, people - Quest remembered them all distantly as things he had known thousands of years ago. The driver turned his head, and his profile seemed vaguely familiar.
            Now a rush of foreign thoughts drowned out his own. They were a sort of overflow from the mind of Clason. They thronged along the conduits that bound the two wills together, but only Quest was conscious of the movement.
            Keane's mind was on his brother Philip: that much was particularly clear. And there was something about a telephone call. Yes, Keane had telephoned to the police, disguising his voice, refusing to divulge his name. He had said that a man by the name of Philip Clason was in trouble and had told them where to find him. Then the police had telephoned the factory, and Keane had pretended astonishment and alarm at the news. That's why he was here now - he was on the way to confer with the police. And he was chuckling - chuckling because he had fooled Quest and the police, and because now the hundred million dollars was almost in his grasp.
            Cutting in close, the car turned a corner and drew up before one of a row of loft buildings in a section of the city which Quest failed to recognize. As Clason stepped to the sidewalk, Quest was more painfully aware than ever of his powerlessness to influence by so much as the twitch of a muscle the behavior of this hostile body in which he had permitted himself to be trapped. In his weakness he felt himself shrinking, contracting almost to nothingness under the careless pressure of the Master Will.
            Clason glanced casually at his watch, and three men converged toward him from as many directions. There was nothing to distinguish them from anyone else in the street, but along the conduits it came to Quest that they were detectives and that they were there by appointment with Keane Clason.
            "What floor?" asked the latter, with an excitement which Quest felt instantly was pure pretense. "Are you sure they haven't spirited him away?"
            "Don't worry," replied the leader of the detectives. "The alley and roof are covered. We'll take care of the rest ourselves."
            On tiptoe they climbed three long flights of stairs in the half-light. Clason held back as if in fear. He was a good actor, and Quest felt the shrinking and hesitation of his body as he crouched and slunk along in the wake of the detectives, pretending terror at what was about to happen, though he knew - and Quest knew he knew - that there would be no resistance up there - that Philip would be found alone exactly as he had been left by Keane's hired thugs.
            On the top landing Burke, the leader, paused to count the doors from front to rear.
            "This is it," he whispered to the bull-necked fellow just behind him.
            The other nodded, and crouched back against the opposite wall while his companions placed themselves in position to cross-fire into the room the moment the door gave way.
            Quest longed for the power to kick his hypocrite of a master as he still held back, cowering on the stairs, playing his fake to the limit. Then the door flew in with a splintering shriek under the charge of the human battering ram, and across it hurtled the other two detectives in a cloud of ancient dust.
            "Here he is!" someone shouted.
            "Phil! Phil!" Keane Clason's voice fairly quavered with sham emotion as he ran into the room and threw himself at a man tightly bound to an upholstered chair, which in turn was wedged in among other articles of stored furniture.
            But Philip was too securely gagged to reply, and as Burke slashed the ropes from across his chest he dropped forward in a state of collapse. Stretched on a couch, he soon gave signs of response as a brisk massage began to restore the circulation to his cramped limbs. Suddenly he sat up and thrust his rescuers aside.
            "What time is it?" he demanded with an air of alarm.
            "One o'clock," replied Keane before anyone else could answer, patting his brother affectionately on the shoulder while within him Quest writhed with indignation. "By Jove! Phil, it's wonderful that we got to you in time. Really, how - you're not injured?"
            "No," grunted Philip, "just lamed up. I'll be as fit as ever by to-morrow."
            "If you feel equal to it," suggested Burke, "I wish you'd tell me briefly how you arrived here. Do you know the motive behind this affair? Did you recognize any of the body-snatchers?"
            Philip frowned and shook his head.
            "Yesterday noon," he said slowly, "I took the eight-passenger Airline Express to Cleveland on business. There were three other passengers in the cabin - two men and a woman. Right away I got out a correspondence file and was running over some letters. The next thing I knew I was approaching the ground in the strangest state of mind I ever experienced. My head was splitting, and everything looked unreal to me. Seemed as if I was coming down on some new planet."
            "You mean the ship was gliding down to land?"
            "No, no. I was dangling from a parachute... By the way, where am I now?"
            "In a Munson Avenue loft."
            "In Chicago?"
            Burke nodded.
            "I guessed as much," frowned Philip. "You see, I came down in a field, and then before I could free myself from my trappings I was pounced on - trussed up and blindfolded - by a gang of men. I knew they had taken me a long distance by automobile, but I saw nothing more until they tore the blindfold from my eyes when they left me here."
            "And they were all strangers to you?"
            "Yes - those that I saw."
            "Isn't this enough for just now, Burke?" interrupted Keane, and Quest received an impression of uneasiness that was not apparent in the inventor's tone. "After a good rest he's sure to recall things that escape him now."
            "Just one minute," nodded the detective, turning back to Philip. "Can you think of no plausible reason for this attack? Is there no one who might possibly benefit by putting you temporarily out of the way?"
            Philip gave a frightened start. Then he was on his feet, clutching at his brother's arm.
            "Keane!" he pleaded, "Keane! What's happened? I know, I know! It's the Projector."
            "Water!" roared Keane, and Quest felt the panic that coursed through him as he tried to drown out his brother. "Somebody bring water! He needs it!"
            At the same time he snatched up Philip's hand in a grip of steel. Instantly the latter's wild eyes became calm, the flush passed from his relaxing face, and he slumped down weakly on the couch.
            In that fleeting moment Quest surged into the body of Philip and confronted his will with a fierce and triumphant ardor. For now his will would have command of a body with which to fight his fiend of a Control.
With a sensation of contempt he met Philip's resistance and buffeted him ruthlessly backward, crushed down and compressed his feebly struggling will. And as Philip yielded, Quest felt his own will expanding to normal, taking possession of the borrowed body with hungry greed, and flashing from its faded eyes the spark of youth.
            Burke stared in amazement at the kaleidoscopic rapidity of the changes in the rescued man's expression. Strange lights and shadows continued to flit across Philip's face as Quest's invasion of him proceeded, but with a diminishing frequency which soon assured Keane that his Agent was tightening his command.
            The younger of Burke's aides stood fascinated, his mouth agape. The other spoke guardedly to his superior:
            "Dope, eh!"
            "Nah!" replied Burke, shrugging himself out of his trance. "Shock."
            The actual duration of the conflict in Philip was something less than three seconds. It would have been more brief if Quest had exerted himself to the utmost. But his sensations as he first surged into this new habitat under Keane's propulsion were so weird and unearthly that for the moment he was lost in the wonder of the experience. For that short time, therefore, Philip was able to fight back against the onrush of the invading will.
            In the next second Quest became conscious of the resistance. Urged on by his Control, he must push Philip back and quell him; but his sympathy for his opponent and his hatred of Keane roused him to sudden revolt. He wanted to disobey the Master Will, retreat, leave Philip in command of himself. But he could only go on, unwillingly thrusting back Philip's will despite the indescribable torment and confusion in his own. Then, with the feeling that he was ten times worse than the most inhuman ghoul, he took full possession of his borrowed body.
            "I'll take him home now," said Keane composedly to Burke. "As you see, he needs a little extra sleep. Meanwhile, if you have any occasion to call me, I will be at the factory."
            To the youthful mind of the Agent, used to the lightness of an athletic physique, the body in which it moved down the stairs to the limousine seemed strangely heavy and awkward.
            "I'm badly done up, Keane," he said with Philip's lips as the car got under way.
            "Bah!" snorted Keane, "you've had a scare, that's all. Go to bed when you get home and sleep till nine this evening. At ten a man named Dr. Nukharin will call for you. He will drive you to a garage, leave the car, and transfer to another one a few blocks away.
            "Out near Marbleton you will find an airplane staked in an open field. Nukharin is a capable pilot. He will fly back southeast along the lakeshore to the meeting place. You should arrive about twelve-thirty. The test is set for one o'clock."
            Quest listened in a state of abject rage. Lacking the power to resist his Control, he could only boil away in Philip's body like a wild creature hemmed in by bars of steel.
            "Bring with you," continued Keane venomously, "the set of papers that you took from the safe in my office. Hold the other set in readiness to deliver to Nukharin to-morrow, after he has studied the results of the test and has notified Paris to release a hundred million dollars in cash for delivery at your Loop office at 3 p. m."
            The murderous greed of the man maddened Quest. He tried to revolt, his will squirming like a physical thing, threshing the ether like a wounded shark in the sea. For a moment he felt that he was about to burst the bonds that his demon of a Control had woven around him. So violently did he resist that the immured and sporelike will of Philip forged up fitfully out of the blackness and joined his in the hopeless struggle. But along the attenuated conduits that still chained Quest to the Master Will Keane caught the impulse of the mutiny, and his eyes darted flame as he countered with a will-shock that paralyzed his unruly Agent.
            "Listen! you whimpering dog," he snarled. "Think as I tell you - and nothing more! You are going to apologize to Dr. Nukharin for your previous unwillingness to sell the Projector. You are going to tell him that I am at fault - that I held out - but that you found a way to force my compliance. You understand?"
            Quest could find no words. With Philip's head he nodded meekly. Just then the car stopped and the chauffeur threw open the door.
            Dr. Nukharin flew high despite the masses of cumulus cloud which frequently reduced visibility to zero. He had merely to follow the rim of the lake to his destination, and an occasional glimpse of the water was sufficient to hold him on his course.
            In the back seat hunched Philip, his body crumbling under the weight of Quest's despair. For hours the latter had gone on vaguely, hoping somehow to thwart this horrible transaction that was rushing the world to its doom, thinking he might grow strong enough to wrench himself free and so liberate Philip from the dominance of his conscienceless brother. Even though such a move should leave his own will forever separate from his body, he was ready and anxious to make the sacrifice.
            Suddenly the crash of the motor ceased and Nukharin banked the ship up in a spiral glide. Quest had never been in the air before, and the long whirl down into the darkness on this devil's errand was to him as eery as a ride to perdition in a white-hot projectile.
            His mind seemed to trail out in a great nebular helix behind the descending ship. He felt that he had suddenly crossed some cosmic meridian into a new plane of existence, where he was changed to a gas, yet continued capable of thought. But even here his obsession remained the same. Keane Clason - trickster, traitor, arch-criminal - must be destroyed!
            "I'll get him!" vowed Quest in words that were no less real for being soundless. "I'll trail him to the end of space and bring him to account!"
            Then wheels touched earth and the cold, bare facts of his destiny rushed in on him with redoubled force. He felt the nearness of his Control seconds before he perceived him through the eyes of Philip. With a sensation like a stab he realized that now he must speak, play his part, be any bloodless hypocrite that Keane Clason chose to make him. The silent order surged down the conduits promptly enough; he responded as an automaton obeys the pressure of a button.
            "Well, Doctor," chuckled Philip with a cunning leer, "here's the magic tower, just as I promised you. We'll run it up in a jiffy. This test is going to be so vivid and conclusive that not even a hard-headed skeptic like you can raise a question."
            "You misunderstand me," returned Nukharin in an injured tone. "So far as I am concerned this procedure is only a formality, but it is none the less necessary. Suppose that I should spend a hundred million of my government's money and the purchase prove worthless? You may guess that my folly would cost me dear."
            Keane Clason was waiting on the platform of a giant truck, the motor of which was idling. All the apparatus was in readiness except that the three demountable sections of the tower had yet to be run up into position.
            "One of the beauties of the D. P.," said Philip gleefully to the Doctor, while Keane smiled slyly to himself, "is that this pint-size dynamo provides all the current needed for the test. We pick the power for our radio right out of the air by means of a wave trap and mensurator invented by this bright little brother of mine," and he clapped Keane patronizingly on the back.
            "Yes, ah - Dr. Nukharin," ventured Keane timidly, and at that moment Quest experienced the raging red hatred that causes men to murder. "Philip has promised me that you will employ this device only as a threat to hold the ambitions of the larger powers in check."
            "Of course, of course!" replied the Doctor heartily. "But now let's have the test. Even at night I'm not too fond of these open-air performances."
            The height of the tower as they ran the upper sections into place was forty feet. When all connections had been inspected, first by Keane, then by Philip, the former led Nukharin aloft.
            As the climax of his plot approached, Keane's excitement bordered on a cataleptic state, hints of which came confusedly through the conduits to Quest. With a peculiar satisfaction he felt that Keane was suffering. The inventor's jaws became rigid, as though his blood had changed to liquid air and frozen him, and he had difficulty in controlling the movements of his arms.
            Now he was afraid! Genuinely afraid, this time. Quest caught the impulse too clearly to doubt its meaning. This was no sham! Keane was doubting his own machine, fearing that in the crisis some element in the finely calculated mechanism might fail to operate, thus cheating him of the blood-money on which his heart was set. Then he was speaking, and even Nukharin noticed the tremor in his voice:
            "These nine tubes, which look like a row of gun barrels, are molded from silicon paste. Each shoots a beam of invisible light and a radio dart of precisely the same wave length. The destructive effect depends chiefly upon this exactness of synchronization."
            "A question occurs to me," said the Doctor: "will others be able to manipulate the machine as successfully as you can?"
            "It's fool-proof," chattered Keane, almost losing control of his voice, "absolutely fool-proof. Surely you have scientists in your country who can follow written directions! Nothing more is necessary."
            "Very well," shrugged Nukharin. "I only want to be sure that no unforeseen difficulties may arise in an emergency."
            "See this range-setter?" continued Keane. "The thread on the vertical shaft enables us not only to limit the range by angling the beams into the ground, but it can also be disengaged and the Projector revolved in a flat circle for maximum ranges."
            "And is there no danger of the machine going wrong - of destroying itself and us?" suggested Nukharin.
            "None whatever, Doctor. There is no explosive force and no great electrical voltage involved. As long as we stand back of the muzzles we have nothing to fear.
            "Now look. I have set the micrometer at three hundred yards, which will just about cover the stretch between ourselves and the lake. I will cut a swath for you - and every bush, every blade of grass, every insect in this swath will be withered to ash in the twinkling of an eye. The destruction will be absolute."
            "Please proceed," said Nukharin grimly.
            Keane pulled a lever in its slot, then pressed it down into its lock as his projection battery swung lakeward at the desired angle. Then with one hand poised on another lever, he pressed an electric button.
            At the controls below, a bulb flashed on and off. The signal was superfluous, for already Quest had received his silent command from the Master Will. An icy dread fastened on him. He must obey the unspoken command; he had no will of his own with which to resist. The test would be a success; the Projector would be sold; the world would be turned into a shambles. And he, Owen Quest, would be the destroyer, the murderer, the weak fool who made this horror possible.
            All this flashed through the Agent's mind in the fraction of a second that it took him to extend Philip's hand, close the switch of the dynamo, and snap on the alternating lights in the housing over the tellurium filter.
            For an interminable five seconds he waited, in a ferment of revolt which the paralysis of his will made it impossible to put into action. Then again the command pulsed within him, the signal bulb flashed, and he reversed his motions of the moment before.
            Cold sweat cascaded down Philip's face as Quest felt the ladder vibrating under descending feet. He longed for the power to hurl Keane Clason to the ground and turn the Projector upon him. But with an awful irony the Master Will forced him to his feet, and to speak in a tone that withered the manhood within him.
            "Come," said Philip in a triumphant tone to Nukharin, "and I will show you that Clason inventions perform as well as they sound."
            Flashlight in hand, he started toward the lake with Nukharin and his brother close behind him. Twenty paces, and the long meadow grass suddenly vanished from beneath their feet.
            "See that!" whispered Philip excitedly, waving the light from side to side to show the forty-foot swath that stretched away before them. "Not a trace of life left, not a blade of grass - nothing but dust!"
            The only response was a gurgling sound that issued from Nukharin's throat.
            "Look!" Quest formed the word with Philip's lips under the urge of the Master Will. "Here was a tall bush. What do you see now? Just a teaspoonful of ash. When you examine the remains by daylight, you will find that even the root has disintegrated to a depth of two feet."
            "Enough of this," croaked Nukharin in horror. "The deal is closed."
            His face was convulsed with fear. Without another word he whirled about and fled toward his airplane. Philip gave a start as if to follow.
            "Halt! you slob," growled Keane, whose composure had returned with the successful outcome of the test. "I have use for your company, even though you are as great a coward as our Slavic friend."
            Coward! The epithet stung Quest like a flaming goad. One of the fine, intangible lines that bound him under the will of Keane Clason severed, and his own will exploded into action like a thunderbolt. With startling agility he whirled Philip about, the flashlight clubbed in his hand. But Keane was quicker still. A clip on the wrist sent the weapon flying. Then Philip reeled backward from a kick in the stomach, and his clutching hands beat the air as he sank unconscious in the dust.
            With a violent tug, Quest lifted Philip's body to a sitting posture. The phone was ringing, and by the pull on the will-fibers he knew that Keane was at the other end of the wire. Philip's body was failing under the strain of the part it was forced to play, and the blow of the night before had further weakened it. Now he sat rocking his head painfully between his hands. But Quest lifted him to his feet by sheer will, and he staggered across the room.
            "Hello!", he said in a hoarse voice.
            "Get the hell out here to the factory!" rasped Keane, and the crash of the receiver emphasized the command.
            It was one o'clock as Philip whirled his sedan into Olmstead Avenue. At three, reflected Quest as the car scorched over the pavements, he must be at the downtown office to deliver the papers and receive the money.
            Then he was face to face with Keane, reeling dizzily at the hatred that blazed from the latter's accusing eyes.
            "Double-crossed me, eh!" The voice was a low snarl, and as he spoke Keane thumped the extra outspread on his desk. "But you're not going to get away with it - neither of you!"
            Dismay, hope, dread, wonder robbed Quest of the power to speak. But he whirled around behind the desk with such unexpected violence that Keane staggered back in alarm. Then he was devouring the screaming headlines of the newspaper. Three seconds, like a slow exposure, and every word of the Record's great scoop was etched upon his mind as if with caustic:

    DOOM LAUNCH ADRIFT ON LAKE

    Physician Baffled by Condition of Five Bodies Found in Craft

    Blighted Area on Shore Said to Have Bearing on Tragedy

    THAW HARBOR, IND., June 6.—Five Chicago sportsmen, most of them prominent in business and society, perished in the early hours this morning while returning in the launch of A. Gaston Andrews from a weekend camping party near Hook Spit on the Michigan shore.

    The boat was towed into this port at daybreak by the Interlake Tug Mordecai after being found adrift less than a mile off shore. According to Captain Goff of the Mordecai the death craft carried no lights and he barely avoided running her down. The weather along the Indiana shore was perfect throughout the night and there is nothing to indicate that the launch was in trouble at any time. The bodies are unmarked, and this little community is agog with rumors ranging all the way from murder and suicide to the supernatural.

    Dr. J. M. Addis of Thaw Harbor, the first physician to examine the bodies, says that they appear to have suffered some violent electro-chemical action the nature of which cannot be determined at the moment. This statement is considered significant in view of the reported discovery ashore of a large blighted area almost directly opposite the point where the launch was found. Joseph Sleichert, a farmer who lives in that vicinity, reports that this patch of ground extending back from the lakeshore was completely stripped of vegetation overnight. He ascribes the damage to some unknown insect pest. Others say that the condition of the ground indicates that it has been burned at incinerator temperatures. Nothing is left of the soil but a blue powder.


Philip faced his brother with eyes that were dull with agony.
            "You have made me a murderer!" Quest forced out the words in painful gasps.
            But Keane snapped back at him like a rabid dog.
            "You did it - you did it yourself! You tampered with the Projector. You tried to spoil the test. You changed the range. You tried to kill me, and instead you killed these others. And you're going to pay - both of you. You hear me? - you're going to pay!"
            His voice mounted the scale to a scream. It was a wail of unreasoning terror, of the dread of exposure, of the fear that he would fail to collect the fortune now so nearly in his grasp. The accident that had jarred his well-laid plans had unnerved him.
            Frantically Quest strove to answer him, to explain his utter subjection, as Agent, to say that if he had possessed the will to oppose or trick him he would have turned him over to the police, or might even have killed him, at the very outset. But in his frenzy, Keane had so tightened his control that Quest was speechless. Now he tried to substitute gesture for words, but Philip was rooted to the spot like a statue; even his hands were immovable.
            He might have remained in this state indefinitely had not Keane's fears withdrawn his mind from his immediate surroundings. Momentarily he forgot Quest, Philip - everything but himself and his predicament. And in the instant that his vigilance relaxed, Quest's enslaved will experienced a sudden lease of strength and hope. Independently of his Control, he found that he could move Philip's hand, could take a faltering step.
            But now, what to do? How might he fan this feeble spark of volition to sufficient strength for decisive resistance? The idea came to him: if only he could place distance between himself and Keane, perhaps with one titanic effort he might launch himself against the Master Will, take him by surprise, crush him down, and reverse him to the status of Agent instead of Control.
            With infinite effort Quest forced Philip's body step by step across the room. He must reach that window, get a signal of distress to someone in the street.
            But Keane began to sense a mutiny. He followed. He crossed the floor with slinking, tigerish steps and snaking body. His wet lips writhed back over his teeth, and his contorted features wove the leer of the abyss. Now as his Control drew physically near, Quest felt his mite of strength ebbing fast. Slowly Keane reached up with his clawed fingers and grasped his Agent by the arm.
            "Remember!" he hissed, "if these deaths are traced to us, you break down - you confess - you take the blame - you paint me lily white - you describe the cowardly means by which you moulded me to your will - you plead only for a quick trial and the full penalty of the law. You understand?"
            Quest made no reply, but he understood all too well the hideous intention of his betrayer. What a fool he had been to imagine that Keane Clason would ever restore him to his body! Philip to the chair, Quest a homeless spirit wandering in space, and for the body at the bottom of the tank, the brief regrets of the Department!
            A sudden rushing sound filled the air with a sense of action and alarm.
            Two – three - four speeding automobiles swung in recklessly to the curb and shrieked to a standstill under smoking brakes. Men leaped out and deployed on the run to surround the factory. Keane darted to the door and twisted the key.
            "Come on!" he spat at Philip as he snatched back the rug and threw open the trap door.
            The command galvanized Quest to action. In two bounds he had Philip on the stairs. A heavy impact rattled the office door just as he dropped the trap into place over his head. Then, infected with Keane's panic, he was running down the passageway like mad.
            Inside the tank chamber the brilliantly colored rings of liquid flashed back the rays of the arclight. Half crazed with anxiety, Keane danced on the black ledge like a monkey on a griddle. His face was ashen, drool ran from his twisted mouth, his eyes were two black pools of terror.
            Again Quest experienced the peculiar sensation which came with the slackening of control. New hope sprang up in his agonized being as heavy blows boomed against the air-locked door. Great waves of fear poured along the conduits, betraying to the Agent the state of mind of his Control. Now what would Keane do? What could he do? Why, of all places, had he fled down into this blind burrow?
            Thud, thud! Then came a series of sharp reports. Outside, they were trying to shoot away the deep-sunk disk hinges.
            Still the door stood fast, but the fury of the assault on it whipped the faltering Keane to action. In a bound he was on the platform. With a lightning hand he threw the switch to plus, starting electrolytic action in the tank. Then he pressed a button concealed under the edge of the switch-mount and a panel slid silently aside in the wall, revealing a narrow outlet.
            To Quest everything went a flaming red. He might have known that this fox would have something in reserve - a way of escape when danger threatened!
            But his Control gave him no time for independent thought. He forced Quest to turn Philip's eyes up to his own. Without disconnecting that grip of his glittering eyes, Keane leaped back to the ledge. Quest felt the silent order:
            "Get up on that plank! Dive into the tank! Get back into your own body, let Philip have his! Then come up - the two of you - and face the music. For I'll be gone, and your story will sound like the ravings of a maniac."
            Quest took an obedient step toward the platform. But at the same instant a tremendous crash shivered the door. It seemed to unnerve Keane Clason. With a gasp he sank down upon the steps, his body doubled in pain, his hand clutching at his heart. Another crash followed, and he shuddered and cried out.
            Instantly Quest felt an expansion of the will. Keane's sudden physical weakness had loosened his control. Philip's lips worked painfully as Quest forced him to pause, to disobey the command of the Master Will. In a spasm of will he fought to wrench himself free from the countless clinging tentacles of his Control. In great surges, Quest's reviving volition pounded against the walls of his borrowed body. Now he sought to force this sluggish body back to the wall, so that he might release the airlock and spring the door. But Philip seemed to ossify, every cord and muscle of his body frozen to stone by the conflict that raged within him.
            Braced against the wall, Keane was rising slowly to his feet. His seizure was easing, and so he was able to exert a better pressure upon his rebellious Agent.
            "Come!" he gasped, realizing that he lacked the strength to escape alone and must therefore change his plan. "Lift me - quick! Carry me out! Slide the panel back into place. We will escape together!"
            The spoken command turned the balance against Quest. His will yielded to the master. At the same instant Philip's body relaxed like an object relieved of a great excess of electrical potential. Suddenly strong and supple, he lifted the trembling Keane and tossed him across his shoulder.
            For a moment there had been a lull in the assault on the door. Now the battering resumed with a fury that jarred the whole chamber and sent ripples dancing across the varicolored liquids in the osmotic tank.
            "Quick!" gasped Keane. "Move! I say. Carry me out."
            But he was in a fainting condition. Crash after crash rocked the chamber, and with every blow Quest's will felt a stimulation that enabled him to stand off the commands of his Control. Then a wave of nausea swept over him and left him reeling. It seemed that Philip's blood had turned to boiling oil. A dazzling mist swallowed him up, and with a weird sense of inflation he felt full strength returning to his will.
            A booming blow that bulged the door inward acted upon him like a stage player's cue. He leaped to the platform. The gurgling sound of remonstrance rattled from Keane's throat. But Quest paid no heed. Philip was walking the plank - away from the open panel - out over the tank.
            Rapidly he dropped down the ladder to the bottom rung, snatched Keane's wrist in a gorillalike grip, and hurled him down into the vat.
Then Philip was clinging desperately to the ladder, his strength gone, his body shivering as if with ague.
            "Go on up!" came a strange, impatient voice from below him. "For heaven's sake let me out of here!"
            A downward glance, and with a shout of alarm Philip was scrambling up the ladder, for there was a head down there, and a pair of naked shoulders, and the face of a man he had never seen before. Hand over hand Quest followed. Philip had collapsed and lay prone on the plank. Quest lifted him to his feet and shook him anxiously.
            "Philip!" he urged. "Philip! Can you walk?"
            The tattoo on the battered door helped to revive the older man.
            "Quick!" whispered Quest, kneading Philip's arms. "There's barely an hour left. Get to your office. Burn the papers. Refuse the money. Do you hear me?"
            Philip nodded dazedly.
            "Hurry!" puffed Quest, thrusting him through the opening that Keane had reserved for his own escape, and sliding the panel back into place.
            Quest was himself now - young, strong, free. Instantly he threw the electrolytic switch to minus. For Keane had failed to emerge from the tank, and since he was submerged alone, he could not escape until electrolysis was halted.
            Just as Quest leaped from the platform to release the airlock, the door burst in and three men with drawn guns rushed into the chamber.
            The leader stopped with a startled oath and stood blinking his unbelieving eyes. Quest was poised like a statue, his naked body gleaming an unearthly white against the lusterless black of the wall.
            "Quest," came from the three in chorus. Then a rush of questions: "What's the matter? What's happened to you? Where are the Clasons?"
            Quest turned toward the platform, expecting to see Keane.
            "Something's wrong!" he shouted. "Quick! Somebody get Philip. He's gone to his Loop office. Keane Clason's at the bottom of this tank. I'm not sure how this thing works, but Philip can get him out! I'm sure of it!"
            Despite the confident predictions of both Quest and Philip Clason, osmotic association failed to restore Keane to life, and at last the coroner ordered the removal of the body. The autopsy revealed heart disease as the cause of his death.
            For reasons best understood at Washington, the cause of the five launch deaths was withheld from the public. Quest's punishment for his part in the crime consisted of a promotion and a warm personal letter from the President of the United States.

Friday, 7 July 2017

"Na Cancela" by Dorival Caymmi (in Portuguese)

Chorei, ai chorei
Chorei, esperando por ela, chorei
Cansei, ai cansei
Cansei, me escorando à cancela, cansei

Não há lugar melhor pra chorar
Do que cancela, quando não vem trem
Não há lugar melhor pra chorar
Do que o colo de quem se quer bem

"Na Cancela" sung by Toquinho.

Thursday, 6 July 2017

"Apparecchio alla Morte" by St Alfonso Maria de Liguori (in Italian) – XXI


CONSIDERAZIONE XX - PAZZIA DEL PECCATORE
«Sapientia enim huius mundi stultitia est apud Deum» (1. Cor. 3. 19).


PUNTO I
                         Il venerabile Giovanni d'Avila avrebbe voluto dividere il mondo in due carceri, una per coloro che non ci credono e l'altra per coloro che ci credono, e vivono in peccato lontano da Dio; a costoro dicea che toccava il carcere de' pazzi. Ma la maggior miseria e disgrazia di questi miserabili si è ch'essi tengonsi per savi e prudenti, e sono i più sciocchi e stolti del mondo. E 'l peggio si è che il numero di costoro è innumerabile. «Et stultorum infinitus est numerus» (Eccl. 1. 15). Chi impazzisce per gli onori, chi impazzisce per gli piaceri, chi per le carogne di questa terra. E costoro poi ardiscono di chiamar pazzi i santi, che disprezzano questi beni del mondo, per acquistarsi la salute eterna e 'l vero bene ch'è Dio. Chiamano pazzia l'abbracciare i disprezzi e perdonare l'ingiurie, pazzia il privarsi de' piaceri di senso e abbracciare le mortificazioni; pazzia rinunziare gli onori e le ricchezze, l'amare la solitudine, e la vita umile e nascosta. Ma non avvertono che la loro sapienza, è chiamata pazzia dal Signore: «Sapientia enim huius mundi stultitia est apud Deum» (1. Cor. 3. 19).
                         Ah che un giorno ben confesseranno questa loro pazzia, ma quando? quando non vi sarà più rimedio; e diranno disperati: «Nos insensati vitam illorum aestimabamus insaniam, et finem illorum sine honore» (Sap. 5. 4). Ah miseri che siamo stati, noi stimavamo pazzia la vita de' santi, ma ora conosciamo che noi siamo stati i pazzi. «Ecce quomodo inter filios Dei computati sunt, et inter sanctos sors illorum est» (Ibid. 5). Ecco com'essi son già collocati tra 'l numero felice de' figli di Dio, ed han fatta tra' santi la loro fortuna, che sarà fortuna eterna, e li renderà per sempre beati; e noi siam restati nel numero degli schiavi del demonio, condannati ad ardere in questa fossa di tormenti per tutta l'eternità. «Ergo erravimus (così concluderanno il loro pianto) a via veritatis, et iustitiae lumen non luxit nobis» (Ib. 6). Quindi l'abbiamo sgarrata per aver voluto chiudere gli occhi alla divina luce, e quello che più ci renderà infelici è che al nostro errore non vi è, né vi sarà più rimedio, mentre Dio sarà Dio.
                         Qual pazzia dunque per un vile interesse, per un poco di fumo, per un breve diletto perdere la grazia di Dio! Che non fa un vassallo per guadagnarsi la grazia del suo principe! Oh Dio per una misera soddisfazione perdere il sommo bene, ch'è Dio! perdere il paradiso! perdere anche la pace in questa vita, facendo entrar nell'anima il peccato, che co' suoi rimorsi sempre la tormenterà! e condannarsi volontariamente ad una miseria eterna! Ti prenderesti quel gusto illecito, se per quello ti toccasse poi ad esserti bruciata una mano? o pure a star chiuso un anno dentro una sepoltura? Faresti quel peccato, se dopo quello dovessi perdere cento scudi? E poi credi, e sai che peccando perdi il paradiso e Dio, e sei per sempre condannato al fuoco, e pecchi?

Affetti e preghiere
                         O Dio dell'anima mia, che sarebbe di me a quest'ora, se Voi non mi aveste usate tante misericordie? Starei all'inferno, al luogo de' pazzi come sono stato io. Vi ringrazio, Signore, e vi prego a non abbandonarmi nella mia cecità. Io meritava di restare abbandonato dalla vostra luce, ma vedo che la vostra grazia non mi ha abbandonato ancora. Sento che con tenerezza mi chiama, e m'invita a cercarvi perdono, ed a sperare da Voi gran cose, non ostante le grandi offese che vi ho fatte. Sì, mio Salvatore, spero da Voi di esser accettato per figlio. Non son degno d'esser neppure così chiamato, perché vi ho ingiuriato tante volte in faccia. «Pater, non sum dignus vocari filius tuus; peccavi in coelum, et coram te». Ma sento che Voi andate cercando le pecorelle smarrite, e vi consolate in abbracciare i figli perduti. Padre mio caro, mi pento di avervi offeso, mi butto, e mi abbraccio a' piedi vostri, e non mi partirò, se non mi perdonate e mi benedite. «Non dimittam te, nisi benedixeris mihi». Beneditemi, Padre mio, e la vostra benedizione sia il darmi un gran dolore de' miei peccati e un grande amore verso di Voi. V'amo, Padre mio, v'amo con tutto il cuore. Non permettete ch'io mi parta più da Voi. Privatemi di tutto, e non mi private del vostro amore.
                         O Maria, se Dio è il mio Padre, Voi siete la Madre mia. Beneditemi ancora Voi. Non merito d'esser figlio; accettatemi per vostro servo; ma fate ch'io sia un servo, che teneramente v'ami sempre, e sempre confidi nella vostra protezione.

PUNTO II
                         Poveri peccatori! faticano, stentano per acquistare le scienze mondane, o l'arte di guadagnare i beni di questa vita, che tra breve han da finire; trascurano poi i beni di quella vita, che non finisce mai! Perdono talmente il senno, che diventano non solo pazzi ma bruti; poiché vivendo da bruti, non considerano ciò ch'è bene e ciò ch'è male; ma solamente seguitano gl'istinti bestiali del senso, in abbracciare quel che al presente piace alla carne, senza pensare a quel che perdono ed alla ruina eterna che si tirano sopra. Ma questo non è operare da uomo, ma da bestia. Dice S. Gio. Grisostomo: «Hominem illum dicimus, qui imaginem hominis salvam retinet; quae autem est imago hominis? rationalem esse». L'esser uomo è l'esser ragionevole, cioè operare secondo la ragione, non secondo l'appetito del senso. Se Dio desse ad una bestia l'uso di ragione, e quella secondo la ragione operasse, direbbesi che opera da uomo; così all'incontro, quando l'uomo opera secondo il senso contro la ragione, dee dirsi che l'uomo opera da bestia.
                         «Utinam saperent, et intelligerent, et novissima providerent» (Deut. 32. 29). Chi opera da prudente secondo la ragione, prevede il futuro, cioè quello che dee succedergli nel fine della vita, la morte, il giudizio, e dopo questo l'inferno o il paradiso. Oh quanto è più savio un villano che si salva, che un monarca, che si danna! «Melior est puer pauper, et sapiens rege sene et stulto, nesciente praevidere in posterum» (Eccl. 4. 13). Oh Dio non si stimerebbe da tutti pazzo chi per guadagnare al presente un giulio, si mettesse a rischio di perdere tutt'i suoi beni? E chi per una breve soddisfazione perde l'anima, o si mette a rischio di perderla per sempre, non avrà da stimarsi pazzo? Questa è la ruina di tante anime, che si dannano, il badare solamente a' beni e mali presenti, e non badare a' beni e mali eterni.
                         Dio non ci ha posti certamente in questa terra per farci ricchi, acquistarci onori, o per contentare i nostri sensi, ma per guadagnarci la vita eterna. «Finem vero vitam aeternam» (Rom. 6. 22). E 'l conseguir questo fine, solamente a noi dee importare. «Porro unum est necessarium» (Luc. 10. 42). Ma questo fine è quel che più disprezzano i peccatori; pensano solo al presente, camminano alla morte, s'accostano ad entrare nell'eternità, e non sanno dove vanno. Che diresti d'un nocchiero, dice S. Agostino, che dimandato dove va, rispondesse che non lo sa? ognun direbbe che costui porta la nave a perdersi: «Fac hominem perdidisse quo tendit, et dicatur ei: Quo is et dicat, nescio. Nonne iste navem ad naufragium perducet? Talis est (poi conclude il santo) qui currit praeter viam». Tali sono quei savi del mondo che san far guadagni, prendersi gli spassi, conseguire i posti, ma non sanno salvarsi l'anima. Fu savio l'epulone in farsi ricco, ma «mortuus est, et sepultus in inferno». Fu savio Alessandro Magno in acquistar tanti regni, ma tra pochi anni morì e si dannò in eterno. Fu savio Arrigo VIII, in sapersi mantenere nel trono con ribellarsi dalla Chiesa, ma all'ultimo egli stesso vedendo che già perdea l'anima, confessò: «Perdidimus omnia». Quanti miserabili ora piangono, e gridano nell'inferno: «Quid profuit nobis superbia, aut divitiarum iactantia? transierunt omnia illa tanquam umbra» (Sap. 5. 9). Ecco, dicono, che per noi tutti i beni del mondo son passati come un'ombra, ed altro non ci è restato che un pianto ed una pena eterna.
                         «Ante hominem vita, et mors, quod placuerit ei, dabitur illi» (Eccli. 15. 18). Cristiano mio, in questa vita ti è posta avanti la vita e la morte, cioè il privarti de' gusti vietati con guadagnarti la vita eterna, o il prenderli colla morte eterna. Che dici? che scegli? Scegli da uomo, e non da bestia. Scegli da cristiano, che ha fede e dice: «Quid prodest homini, si mundum universum lucretur, animae vero suae detrimentum patiatur?»

Affetti e preghiere
                         Ah mio Dio, Voi mi avete data la ragione, mi avete donata la luce della fede, ed io per lo passato ho operato da bruto, perdendo la grazia vostra per li miseri gusti de' miei sensi, che son passati come un vento; ed altro non me ne ritrovo che rimorsi di coscienza e conti colla vostra divina giustizia. «Non intres in iudicium cum servo tuo». Ah Signore, non vi mettete a giudicarmi secondo i meriti miei, ma trattatemi secondo la vostra misericordia. Datemi luce. Datemi dolore delle offese che vi ho fatte, e perdonatemi. «Erravi sicut ovis quae periit, quaere servum tuum». Io son pecorella perduta; se Voi non mi cercate, resterò perduta. Abbiate pietà di me, per quel sangue che avete sparso per amor mio. Mi pento, o sommo bene, di avervi lasciato, e di aver volontariamente rinunziato alla vostra grazia. Vorrei morirne di dolore; ma Voi datemi più dolore. Fate che io venga in cielo a cantare le vostre misericordie.
                         O Maria madre mia, Voi siete il rifugio mio, pregate Gesù per me; pregatelo che mi perdoni e mi dia la santa perseveranza.

PUNTO III
                         Intendiamo che i veri savi sono coloro, che sanno acquistarsi la divina grazia e 'l paradiso. Preghiamo dunque sempre il Signore che ci doni la scienza de' santi, ch'Egli dà a chi gliela cerca. «Dedit illis scientiam sanctorum» (Sap. 6. 10). Oh che bella scienza è il sapere amare Dio e 'l salvarsi l'anima, che consiste nel sapere prender la via della salute eterna ed i mezzi per conseguirla. Il trattato di salvarsi l'anima è il trattato fra tutti il più necessario. Se sapremo tutto, e non sapremo salvarci, niente ci servirà, e saremo per sempre infelici; ma all'incontro saremo sempre beati, se sapremo amare Dio, ancorché fossimo ignoranti di tutte l'altre cose. «Beatus qui te novit, etsi alia nescit», dicea S. Agostino Un giorno Fra Egidio disse a S. Bonaventura: Beato Voi, P. Bonaventura, che sapete tante cose, ed io povero ignorante non so niente; voi potete farvi più santo di me. Senti, gli rispose allora il santo, se una vecchiarella ignorante sa amar Dio più di me, ella sarà più santa di me. Dal che Fra Egidio si pose poi a gridare: O vecchiarella, vecchiarella, senti, senti; se tu ami Dio, puoi farti più santa del P. Bonaventura.
                         «Surgunt indocti, et rapiunt coelum», dicea S. Agostino. Quanti rozzi che non san leggere, ma sanno amare Dio, si salvano; e quanti dotti del mondo si dannano! ma quelli, non questi sono i veri savi. Oh che gran savi sono stati un S. Pasquale, un S. Felice Cappuccino, un S. Giovanni di Dio, benché ignoranti delle scienze umane! Che gran savi sono stati tanti, che lasciando il mondo sono andati a chiudersi ne' chiostri e a vivere ne' deserti, come un S. Benedetto, un S. Francesco d'Assisi, un S. Luigi di Tolosa, che rinunciò al regno. Che gran savi tanti martiri, tante verginelle, che rinunciarono alle nozze de' grandi per andare a morire per Gesu-Cristo! E questa verità la conoscono anche i mondani, e non lasciano di dire di taluno che si è dato a Dio: Beato lui che l'intende, e si salva l'anima. In somma quei che lasciano i beni del mondo per darsi a Dio, si chiamano uomini disingannati. Dunque quei che lasciano Dio per li beni del mondo, come debbono chiamarsi? Uomini ingannati.
                         Fratello mio, di qual compagnia di costoro volete esser voi? Per bene eleggere vi consiglia S. Gio. Grisostomo a visitare i cimiteri. «Proficiscamur ad sepulchra». Belle scuole sono le sepolture per conoscere la vanità de' beni di questo mondo e per apprendere la scienza de' santi. Dimmi (dice il Grisostomo), sai discernere ivi chi sia stato principe, chi nobile e chi letterato? Io per me, dice il santo: «Nihil video, nisi putredinem, ossa et vermes. Omnia fabula, somnium, umbra». Tutte le cose di questo mondo tra breve finiranno e svaniranno come una commedia, un sogno, un'ombra. Ma, cristiano mio, se vuoi diventar savio, non basta conoscere l'importanza del tuo fine, bisogna prendere i mezzi per conseguirlo. Tutti vorrebbero salvarsi e farsi santi; ma perché poi non pigliano i mezzi, non si fanno santi e si dannano. Bisogna fuggir le occasioni, frequentare i sagramenti, fare orazione, e prima di tutto bisogna stabilire nel nostro cuore le massime del Vangelo: «Quid prodest homini, si mundum universum lucretur? Qui amat animam suam, perdet eam» (Io. 12. 25).
                         Il che viene a dire, bisogna perdere anche la vita per salvare l'anima. «Qui vult venire post me, abneget semetipsum» (Matth. 16. 24). Per seguire Gesu-Cristo, bisogna negare all'amor proprio le soddisfazioni che cerca: «Vita in voluntate eius» (Ps. 39. 6). La nostra salute sta nel fare la divina volontà; queste ed altre simili massime.

Affetti e preghiere
                         O Padre delle misericordie, guardate le mie miserie, ed abbiate pietà di me; datemi luce e fatemi conoscere la mia passata pazzia, acciocché la pianga, e conoscere la vostra bontà infinita, acciocché l'ami. Gesù mio, «ne tradas bestiis animas confitentes tibi». Voi avete sparso il sangue per salvarmi, non permettete ch'io abbia da esser più schiavo de' demoni, come sono stato per lo passato. Mi pento, o sommo bene, di avervi lasciato. Maledico tutti quei momenti, in cui colla mia volontà diedi il consenso al peccato; e mi abbraccio colla vostra santa volontà, che altro non desidera che 'l mio bene. Eterno Padre, per li meriti di Gesu-Cristo datemi la forza di eseguire tutto quello che a voi piace. Fatemi prima morire, che più contraddire a i vostri voleri. Aiutatemi colla vostra grazia a mettere in Voi solo tutto il mio amore, e a distaccarmi da tutti gli affetti, che non tendono a Voi. V'amo, o Dio dell'anima mia, v'amo sopra ogni cosa, e da Voi spero ogni mio bene, il perdono, la perseveranza nell'amor vostro e 'l paradiso per amarvi in eterno.
                         O Maria, cercate Voi per me queste grazie. Il vostro Figlio niente vi nega. Speranza mia, in Voi confido.

Wednesday, 5 July 2017

“A Man with Two Lives” by Ambrise Bierce (in English)



Here is the queer story of David William Duck, related by himself. Duck is an old man living in Aurora, Illinois, where he is universally respected. He is commonly known, however, as "Dead Duck."
            "In the autumn of 1866 I was a private soldier of the Eighteenth Infantry. My company was one of those stationed at Fort Phil Kearney, commanded by Colonel Carrington. The country is more or less familiar with the history of that garrison, particularly with the slaughter by the Sioux of a detachment of eighty-one men and officers - not one escaping - through disobedience of orders by its commander, the brave but reckless Captain Fetterman. When that occurred, I was trying to make my way with important dispatches to Fort C. F. Smith, on the Big Horn. As the country swarmed with hostile Indians, I traveled by night and concealed myself as best I could before daybreak. The better to do so, I went afoot, armed with a Henry rifle and carrying three days' rations in my haversack.
            "For my second place of concealment I chose what seemed in the darkness a narrow canon leading through a range of rocky hills. It contained many large bowlders, detached from the slopes of the hills. Behind one of these, in a clump of sage-brush, I made my bed for the day, and soon fell asleep. It seemed as if I had hardly closed my eyes, though in fact it was near midday, when I was awakened by the report of a rifle, the bullet striking the bowlder just above my body. A band of Indians had trailed me and had me nearly surrounded; the shot had been fired with an execrable aim by a fellow who had caught sight of me from the hillside above. The smoke of his rifle betrayed him, and I was no sooner on my feet than he was off his and rolling down the declivity. Then I ran in a stooping posture, dodging among the clumps of sage-brush in a storm of bullets from invisible enemies. The rascals did not rise and pursue, which I thought rather queer, for they must have known by my trail that they had to deal with only one man. The reason for their inaction was soon made clear. I had not gone a hundred yards before I reached the limit of my run - the head of the gulch which I had mistaken for a canon. It terminated in a concave breast of rock, nearly vertical and destitute of vegetation. In that cul-de-sac I was caught like a bear in a pen. Pursuit was needless; they had only to wait.
            "They waited. For two days and nights, crouching behind a rock topped with a growth of mesquite, and with the cliff at my back, suffering agonies of thirst and absolutely hopeless of deliverance, I fought the fellows at long range, firing occasionally at the smoke of their rifles, as they did at that of mine. Of course, I did not dare to close my eyes at night, and lack of sleep was a keen torture.
            "I remember the morning of the third day, which I knew was to be my last. I remember, rather indistinctly, that in my desperation and delirium I sprang out into the open and began firing my repeating rifle without seeing anybody to fire at. And I remember no more of that fight.
            "The next thing that I recollect was my pulling myself out of a river just at nightfall. I had not a rag of clothing and knew nothing of my whereabouts, but all that night I traveled, cold and footsore, toward the north. At daybreak I found myself at Fort C. F. Smith, my destination, but without my dispatches. The first man that I met was a sergeant named William Briscoe, whom I knew very well. You can fancy his astonishment at seeing me in that condition, and my own at his asking who the devil I was.
            "'Dave Duck,' I answered; 'who should I be?'
            "He stared like an owl.
            "'You do look it,' he said, and I observed that he drew a little away from me. 'What's up?' he added.
            "I told him what had happened to me the day before. He heard me through, still staring; then he said:
            "'My dear fellow, if you are Dave Duck I ought to inform you that I buried you two months ago. I was out with a small scouting party and found your body, full of bullet-holes and newly scalped - somewhat mutilated otherwise, too, I am sorry to say - right where you say you made your fight. Come to my tent and I'll show you your clothing and some letters that I took from your person; the commandant has your dispatches.'
            "He performed that promise. He showed me the clothing, which I resolutely put on; the letters, which I put into my pocket. He made no objection, then took me to the commandant, who heard my story and coldly ordered Briscoe to take me to the guardhouse. On the way I said:
            "'Bill Briscoe, did you really and truly bury the dead body that you found in these togs?'
            "'Sure,' he answered - 'just as I told you. It was Dave Duck, all right; most of us knew him. And now, you damned impostor, you'd better tell me who you are.'
            "'I'd give something to know,' I said.
            "A week later, I escaped from the guardhouse and got out of the country as fast as I could. Twice I have been back, seeking for that fateful spot in the hills, but unable to find it."

Tuesday, 4 July 2017

"The Book of Exodus" - Chapter XXXIV (translated into English)



Chapter 34

1 The LORD said to Moses, "Cut two stone tablets like the former, that I may write on them the commandments which were on the former tablets that you broke. 2 Get ready for tomorrow morning, when you are to go up Mount Sinai and there present yourself to me on the top of the mountain. 3 No one shall come up with you, and no one is even to be seen on any part of the mountain; even the flocks and the herds are not to go grazing toward this mountain." 4 Moses then cut two stone tablets like the former, and early the next morning he went up Mount Sinai as the LORD had commanded him, taking along the two stone tablets. 5 Having come down in a cloud, the LORD stood with him there and proclaimed his name, "LORD."
 6 Thus the LORD passed before him and cried out, "The LORD, the LORD, a merciful and gracious God, slow to anger and rich in kindness and fidelity, 7 continuing his kindness for a thousand generations, and forgiving wickedness and crime and sin; yet not declaring the guilty guiltless, but punishing children and grandchildren to the third and fourth generation for their fathers' wickedness!" 8 Moses at once bowed down to the ground in worship. 9 Then he said, "If I find favor with you, O Lord, do come along in our company. This is indeed a stiff-necked people; yet pardon our wickedness and sins, and receive us as your own."
10 "Here, then," said the LORD, "is the covenant I will make. Before the eyes of all your people I will work such marvels as have never been wrought in any nation anywhere on earth, so that this people among whom you live may see how awe-inspiring are the deeds which I, the LORD, will do at your side. 11 But you, on your part, must keep the commandments I am giving you today. "I will drive out before you the Amorites, Canaanites, Hittites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites. 12 Take care, therefore, not to make a covenant with these inhabitants of the land that you are to enter; else they will become a snare among you. 13 Tear down their altars; smash their sacred pillars, and cut down their sacred poles.
14 You shall not worship any other god, for the LORD is 'the Jealous One'; a jealous God is he. 15 Do not make a covenant with the inhabitants of that land; else, when they render their wanton worship to their gods and sacrifice to them, one of them may invite you and you may partake of his sacrifice. 16 Neither shall you take their daughters as wives for your sons; otherwise, when their daughters render their wanton worship to their gods, they will make your sons do the same.
17 "You shall not make for yourselves molten gods.
18 "You shall keep the feast of Unleavened Bread. For seven days at the prescribed time in the month of Abib you are to eat unleavened bread, as I commanded you; for in the month of Abib you came out of Egypt.
19 "To me belongs every first-born male that opens the womb among all your livestock, whether in the herd or in the flock. 20 The firstling of an ass you shall redeem with one of the flock; if you do not redeem it, you must break its neck. The first-born among your sons you shall redeem. "No one shall appear before me empty-handed.
21 "For six days you may work, but on the seventh day you shall rest; on that day you must rest even during the seasons of plowing and harvesting.
22 "You shall keep the feast of Weeks with the first of the wheat harvest; likewise, the feast at the fruit harvest at the close of the year.
23 Three times a year all your men shall appear before the Lord, the LORD God of Israel.
24 Since I will drive out the nations before you to give you a large territory, there will be no one to covet your land when you go up three times a year to appear before the LORD, your God.
25 "You shall not offer me the blood of sacrifice with leavened bread, nor shall the sacrifice of the Passover feast be kept overnight for the next day.
26 "The choicest first fruits of your soil you shall bring to the house of the LORD, your God. "You shall not boil a kid in its mother's milk." #
27 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Write down these words, for in accordance with them I have made a covenant with you and with Israel."
28 So Moses stayed there with the LORD for forty days and forty nights, without eating any food or drinking any water, and he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the ten commandments.
29 As Moses came down from Mount Sinai with the two tablets of the commandments in his hands, he did not know that the skin of his face had become radiant while he conversed with the LORD. 30 When Aaron, then, and the other Israelites saw Moses and noticed how radiant the skin of his face had become, they were afraid to come near him. 31 Only after Moses called to them did Aaron and all the rulers of the community come back to him. Moses then spoke to them. 32 Later on, all the Israelites came up to him, and he enjoined on them all that the LORD had told him on Mount Sinai. 33 When he finished speaking with them, he put a veil over his face. 34 Whenever Moses entered the presence of the LORD to converse with him, he removed the veil until he came out again. On coming out, he would tell the Israelites all that had been commanded. 35 Then the Israelites would see that the skin of Moses' face was radiant; so he would again put the veil over his face until he went in to converse with the LORD."

Monday, 3 July 2017