Tuesday 14 August 2018

Tuesday's Serial: "BEN-HUR: a tale of the Christ." by Lew Wallace - XXX (in English)


CHAPTER XV
                Ben-Hur tarried across the river with Ilderim; for at midnight, as previously determined, they would take the road which the caravan, then thirty hours out, had pursued.
                The sheik was happy; his offers of gifts had been royal; but Ben-Hur had refused everything, insisting that he was satisfied with the humiliation of his enemy. The generous dispute was long continued.
                "Think," the sheik would say, "what thou hast done for me. In every black tent down to the Akaba and to the ocean, and across to the Euphrates, and beyond to the sea of the Scythians, the renown of my Mira and her children will go; and they who sing of them will magnify me, and forget that I am in the wane of life; and all the spears now masterless will come to me, and my sword-hands multiply past counting. Thou dost not know what it is to have sway of the desert such as will now be mine. I tell thee it will bring tribute incalculable from commerce, and immunity from kings. Ay, by the sword of Solomon! doth my messenger seek favor for me of Caesar, that will he get. Yet nothing - nothing?"
                And Ben-Hur would answer,
                "Nay, sheik, have I not thy hand and heart? Let thy increase of power and influence inure to the King who comes. Who shall say it was not allowed thee for him? In the work I am going to, I may have great need. Saying no now will leave me to ask of thee with better grace hereafter."
                In the midst of a controversy of the kind, two messengers arrived - Malluch and one unknown. The former was admitted first.
                The good fellow did not attempt to hide his joy over the event of the day.
                "But, coming to that with which I am charged," he said, "the master Simonides sends me to say that, upon the adjournment of the games, some of the Roman faction made haste to protest against payment of the money prize."
                Ilderim started up, crying, in his shrillest tones,
                "By the splendor of God! the East shall decide whether the race was fairly won."
                "Nay, good sheik," said Malluch, "the editor has paid the money."
                "'Tis well."
                "When they said Ben-Hur struck Messala's wheel, the editor laughed, and reminded them of the blow the Arabs had at the turn of the goal."
                "And what of the Athenian?"
                "He is dead."
                "Dead!" cried Ben-Hur.
                "Dead!" echoed Ilderim. "What fortune these Roman monsters have! Messala escaped?"
                "Escaped - yes, O sheik, with life; but it shall be a burden to him. The physicians say he will live, but never walk again."
                Ben-Hur looked silently up to heaven. He had a vision of Messala, chairbound like Simonides, and, like him, going abroad on the shoulders of servants. The good man had abode well; but what would this one with his pride and ambition?
                "Simonides bade me say, further," Malluch continued, "Sanballat is having trouble. Drusus, and those who signed with him, referred the question of paying the five talents they lost to the Consul Maxentius, and he has referred it to Caesar. Messala also refused his losses, and Sanballat, in imitation of Drusus, went to the consul, where the matter is still in advisement. The better Romans say the protestants shall not be excused; and all the adverse factions join with them. The city rings with the scandal."
                "What says Simonides?" asked Ben-Hur.
                "The master laughs, and is well pleased. If the Roman pays, he is ruined; if he refuses to pay, he is dishonored. The imperial policy will decide the matter. To offend the East would be a bad beginning with the Parthians; to offend Sheik Ilderim would be to antagonize the Desert, over which lie all Maxentius's lines of operation. Wherefore Simonides bade me tell you to have no disquiet; Messala will pay."
                Ilderim was at once restored to his good-humor.
                "Let us be off now," he said, rubbing his hands. "The business will do well with Simonides. The glory is ours. I will order the horses."
                "Stay," said Malluch. "I left a messenger outside. Will you see him?"
                "By the splendor of God! I forgot him."
                Malluch retired, and was succeeded by a lad of gentle manners and delicate appearance, who knelt upon one knee, and said, winningly, "Iras, the daughter of Balthasar, well known to good Sheik Ilderim, hath intrusted me with a message to the sheik, who, she saith, will do her great favor so he receive her congratulations on account of the victory of his four."
                "The daughter of my friend is kind," said Ilderim, with sparkling eyes. "Do thou give her this jewel, in sign of the pleasure I have from her message."
                He took a ring from his finger as he spoke.
                "I will as thou sayest, O sheik," the lad replied, and continued, "The daughter of the Egyptian charged me further. She prays the good Sheik Ilderim to send word to the youth Ben-Hur that her father hath taken residence for a time in the palace of Idernee, where she will receive the youth after the fourth hour to-morrow. And if, with her congratulations, Sheik Ilderim will accept her gratitude for this other favor done, she will be ever so pleased."
                The sheik looked at Ben-Hur, whose face was suffused with pleasure.
                "What will you?" he asked.
                "By your leave, O sheik, I will see the fair Egyptian."
                Ilderim laughed, and said, "Shall not a man enjoy his youth?"
                Then Ben-Hur answered the messenger.
                "Say to her who sent you that I, Ben-Hur, will see her at the palace of Idernee, wherever that may be, to-morrow at noon."
                The lad arose, and, with silent salute, departed.
                At midnight Ilderim took the road, having arranged to leave a horse and a guide for Ben-Hur, who was to follow him.


CHAPTER XVI
                Going next day to fill his appointment with Iras, Ben-Hur turned from the Omphalus, which was in the heart of the city, into the Colonnade of Herod, and came shortly to the palace of Idernee.
                From the street he passed first into a vestibule, on the sides of which were stairways under cover, leading up to a portico. Winged lions sat by the stairs; in the middle there was a gigantic ibis spouting water over the floor; the lions, ibis, walls, and floor were reminders of the Egyptians: everything, even the balustrading of the stairs, was of massive gray stone.
                Above the vestibule, and covering the landing of the steps, arose the portico, a pillared grace, so light, so exquisitely proportioned, it was at that period hardly possible of conception except by a Greek. Of marble snowy white, its effect was that of a lily dropped carelessly upon a great bare rock.
                Ben-Hur paused in the shade of the portico to admire its tracery and finish, and the purity of its marble; then he passed on into the palace. Ample folding-doors stood open to receive him. The passage into which he first entered was high, but somewhat narrow; red tiling formed the floor, and the walls were tinted to correspond. Yet this plainness was a warning of something beautiful to come.
                He moved on slowly, all his faculties in repose. Presently he would be in the presence of Iras; she was waiting for him; waiting with song and story and badinage, sparkling, fanciful, capricious - with smiles which glorified her glance, and glances which lent voluptuous suggestion to her whisper. She had sent for him the evening of the boat-ride on the lake in the Orchard of Palms; she had sent for him now; and he was going to her in the beautiful palace of Idernee. He was happy and dreamful rather than thoughtless.
                The passage brought him to a closed door, in front of which he paused; and, as he did so, the broad leaves began to open of themselves, without creak or sound of lock or latch, or touch of foot or finger. The singularity was lost in the view that broke upon him.
                Standing in the shade of the dull passage, and looking through the doorway, he beheld the atrium of a Roman house, roomy and rich to a fabulous degree of magnificence.
                How large the chamber was cannot be stated, because of the deceit there is in exact proportions; its depth was vista-like, something never to be said of an equal interior. When he stopped to make survey, and looked down upon the floor, he was standing upon the breast of a Leda, represented as caressing a swan; and, looking farther, he saw the whole floor was similarly laid in mosaic pictures of mythological subjects. And there were stools and chairs, each a separate design, and a work of art exquisitely composed, and tables much carven, and here and there couches which were invitations of themselves. The articles of furniture, which stood out from the walls, were duplicated on the floor distinctly as if they floated unrippled water; even the panelling of the walls, the figures upon them in painting and bas-relief, and the fresco of the ceiling were reflected on the floor. The ceiling curved up towards the centre, where there was an opening through which the sunlight poured without hindrance, and the sky, ever so blue, seemed in hand-reach; the impluvium under the opening was guarded by bronzed rails; the gilded pillars supporting the roof at the edges of the opening shone like flame where the sun struck them, and their reflections beneath seemed to stretch to infinite depth. And there were candelabra quaint and curious, and statuary and vases; the whole making an interior that would have befitted well the house on the Palatine Hill which Cicero bought of Crassus, or that other, yet more famous for extravagance, the Tusculan villa of Scaurus.
                Still in his dreamful mood, Ben-Hur sauntered about, charmed by all he beheld, and waiting. He did not mind a little delay; when Iras was ready, she would come or send a servant. In every well-regulated Roman house the atrium was the reception chamber for visitors.
                Twice, thrice, he made the round. As often he stood under the opening in the roof, and pondered the sky and its azure depth; then, leaning against a pillar, he studied the distribution of light and shade, and its effects; here a veil diminishing objects, there a brilliance exaggerating others; yet nobody came. Time, or rather the passage of time, began at length to impress itself upon him, and he wondered why Iras stayed so long. Again he traced out the figures upon the floor, but not with the satisfaction the first inspection gave him. He paused often to listen: directly impatience blew a little fevered breath upon his spirit; next time it blew stronger and hotter; and at last he woke to a consciousness of the silence which held the house in thrall, and the thought of it made him uneasy and distrustful. Still he put the feeling off with a smile and a promise. "Oh, she is giving the last touch to her eyelids, or she is arranging a chaplet for me; she will come presently, more beautiful of the delay!" He sat down then to admire a candelabrum - a bronze plinth on rollers, filigree on the sides and edges; the post at one end, and on the end opposite it an altar and a female celebrant; the lamp-rests swinging by delicate chains from the extremities of drooping palm-branches; altogether a wonder in its way. But the silence would obtrude itself: he listened even as he looked at the pretty object - he listened, but there was not a sound; the palace was still as a tomb.
                There might be a mistake. No, the messenger had come from the Egyptian, and this was the palace of Idernee. Then he remembered how mysteriously the door had opened so soundlessly, so of itself. He would see!
                He went to the same door. Though he walked ever so lightly the sound of his stepping was loud and harsh, and he shrank from it. He was getting nervous. The cumbrous Roman lock resisted his first effort to raise it; and the second - the blood chilled in his cheeks - he wrenched with all his might: in vain - the door was not even shaken. A sense of danger seized him, and for a moment he stood irresolute.
                Who in Antioch had the motive to do him harm?
                Messala!
                And this palace of Idernee? He had seen Egypt in the vestibule, Athens in the snowy portico; but here, in the atrium, was Rome; everything about him betrayed Roman ownership. True, the site was on the great thoroughfare of the city, a very public place in which to do him violence; but for that reason it was more accordant with the audacious genius of his enemy. The atrium underwent a change; with all its elegance and beauty, it was no more than a trap. Apprehension always paints in black.
                The idea irritated Ben-Hur.
                There were many doors on the right and left of the atrium, leading, doubtless, to sleeping-chambers; he tried them, but they were all firmly fastened. Knocking might bring response. Ashamed to make outcry, he betook himself to a couch, and, lying down, tried to reflect.
                All too plainly he was a prisoner; but for what purpose? and by whom?
                If the work were Messala's! He sat up, looked about, and smiled defiantly. There were weapons in every table. But birds had been starved in golden cages; not so would he - the couches would serve him as battering-rams; and he was strong, and there was such increase of might in rage and despair!
                Messala himself could not come. He would never walk again; he was a cripple like Simonides; still he could move others. And where were there not others to be moved by him? Ben-Hur arose, and tried the doors again. Once he called out; the room echoed so that he was startled. With such calmness as he could assume, he made up his mind to wait a time before attempting to break a way out.
                In such a situation the mind has its ebb and flow of disquiet, with intervals of peace between. At length - how long, though, he could not have said - he came to the conclusion that the affair was an accident or mistake. The palace certainly belonged to somebody; it must have care and keeping: and the keeper would come; the evening or the night would bring him. Patience!
                So concluding, he waited.
                Half an hour passed - a much longer period to Ben-Hur - when the door which had admitted him opened and closed noiselessly as before, and without attracting his attention.
                The moment of the occurrence he was sitting at the farther end of the room. A footstep startled him.
                "At last she has come!" he thought, with a throb of relief and pleasure, and arose.
                The step was heavy, and accompanied with the gride and clang of coarse sandals. The gilded pillars were between him and the door; he advanced quietly, and leaned against one of them. Presently he heard voices - the voices of men - one of them rough and guttural. What was said he could not understand, as the language was not of the East or South of Europe.
                After a general survey of the room, the strangers crossed to their left, and were brought into Ben-Hur's view - two men, one very stout, both tall, and both in short tunics. They had not the air of masters of the house or domestics. Everything they saw appeared wonderful to them; everything they stopped to examine they touched. They were vulgarians. The atrium seemed profaned by their presence. At the same time, their leisurely manner and the assurance with which they proceeded pointed to some right or business; if business, with whom?
                With much jargon they sauntered this way and that, all the time gradually approaching the pillar by which Ben-Hur was standing. Off a little way, where a slanted gleam of the sun fell with a glare upon the mosaic of the floor, there was a statue which attracted their notice. In examining it, they stopped in the light.
                The mystery surrounding his own presence in the palace tended, as we have seen, to make Ben-Hur nervous; so now, when in the tall stout stranger he recognized the Northman whom he had known in Rome, and seen crowned only the day before in the Circus as the winning pugilist; when he saw the man's face, scarred with the wounds of many battles, and imbruted by ferocious passions; when he surveyed the fellow's naked limbs, very marvels of exercise and training, and his shoulders of Herculean breadth, a thought of personal danger started a chill along every vein. A sure instinct warned him that the opportunity for murder was too perfect to have come by chance; and here now were the myrmidons, and their business was with him. He turned an anxious eye upon the Northman's comrade - young, black-eyed, black-haired, and altogether Jewish in appearance; he observed, also, that both the men were in costume exactly such as professionals of their class were in the habit of wearing in the arena. Putting the several circumstances together, Ben-Hur could not be longer in doubt: he had been lured into the palace with design. Out of reach of aid, in this splendid privacy, he was to die!
                At a loss what to do, he gazed from man to man, while there was enacted within him that miracle of mind by which life is passed before us in awful detail, to be looked at by ourselves as if it were another's; and from the evolvement, from a hidden depth, cast up, as it were, by a hidden hand, he was given to see that he had entered upon a new life, different from the old one in this: whereas, in that, he had been the victim of violences done to him, henceforth he was to be the aggressor. Only yesterday he had found his first victim! To the purely Christian nature the presentation would have brought the weakness of remorse. Not so with Ben-Hur; his spirit had its emotions from the teachings of the first lawgiver, not the last and greatest one. He had dealt punishment, not wrong, to Messala. By permission of the Lord, he had triumphed; and he derived faith from the circumstance - faith the source of all rational strength, especially strength in peril.
                Nor did the influence stop there. The new life was made appear to him a mission just begun, and holy as the King to come was holy, and certain as the coming of the King was certain - a mission in which force was lawful if only because it was unavoidable. Should he, on the very threshold of such an errand, be afraid?
                He undid the sash around his waist, and, baring his head and casting off his white Jewish gown, stood forth in an undertunic not unlike those of the enemy, and was ready, body and mind. Folding his arms, he placed his back against the pillar, and calmly waited.
                The examination of the statue was brief. Directly the Northman turned, and said something in the unknown tongue; then both looked at Ben-Hur. A few more words, and they advanced towards him.
                "Who are you?" he asked, in Latin.
                The Northman fetched a smile which did not relieve his face of its brutalism, and answered,
                "Barbarians."
                "This is the palace of Idernee. Whom seek you? Stand and answer."
                The words were spoken with earnestness. The strangers stopped; and in his turn the Northman asked, "Who are you?"
                "A Roman."
                The giant laid his head back upon his shoulders.
                "Ha, ha, ha! I have heard how a god once came from a cow licking a salted stone; but not even a god can make a Roman of a Jew."
                The laugh over, he spoke to his companion again, and they moved nearer.
                "Hold!" said Ben-Hur, quitting the pillar. "One word."
                They stopped again.
                "A word!" replied the Saxon, folding his immense arms across his breast, and relaxing the menace beginning to blacken his face. "A word! Speak."
                "You are Thord the Northman."
                The giant opened his blue eyes.
                "You were lanista in Rome."
                Thord nodded.
                "I was your scholar."
                "No," said Thord, shaking his head. "By the beard of Irmin, I had never a Jew to make a fighting-man of."
                "But I will prove my saying."
                "How?"
                "You came here to kill me."
                "That is true."
                "Then let this man fight me singly, and I will make the proof on his body."
                A gleam of humor shone in the Northman's face. He spoke to his companion, who made answer; then he replied with the naivete of a diverted child,
                "Wait till I say begin."
                By repeated touches of his foot, he pushed a couch out on the floor, and proceeded leisurely to stretch his burly form upon it; when perfectly at ease, he said, simply, "Now begin."
                Without ado, Ben-Hur walked to his antagonist.
                "Defend thyself," he said.
                The man, nothing loath, put up his hands.
                As the two thus confronted each other in approved position, there was no discernible inequality between them; on the contrary, they were as like as brothers. To the stranger's confident smile, Ben-Hur opposed an earnestness which, had his skill been known, would have been accepted fair warning of danger. Both knew the combat was to be mortal.
                Ben-Hur feinted with his right hand. The stranger warded, slightly advancing his left arm. Ere he could return to guard, Ben-Hur caught him by the wrist in a grip which years at the oar had made terrible as a vise. The surprise was complete, and no time given. To throw himself forward; to push the arm across the man's throat and over his right shoulder, and turn him left side front; to strike surely with the ready left hand; to strike the bare neck under the ear - were but petty divisions of the same act. No need of a second blow. The myrmidon fell heavily, and without a cry, and lay still.
                Ben-Hur turned to Thord.
                "Ha! What! By the beard of Irmin!" the latter cried, in astonishment, rising to a sitting posture. Then he laughed.
                "Ha, ha, ha! I could not have done it better myself."
                He viewed Ben-Hur coolly from head to foot, and, rising, faced him with undisguised admiration.
                "It was my trick - the trick I have practised for ten years in the schools of Rome. You are not a Jew. Who are you?"
                "You knew Arrius the duumvir."
                "Quintus Arrius? Yes, he was my patron."
                "He had a son."
                "Yes," said Thord, his battered features lighting dully, "I knew the boy; he would have made a king gladiator. Caesar offered him his patronage. I taught him the very trick you played on this one here - a trick impossible except to a hand and arm like mine. It has won me many a crown."
                "I am that son of Arrius."
                Thord drew nearer, and viewed him carefully; then his eyes brightened with genuine pleasure, and, laughing, he held out his hand.
                "Ha, ha, ha! He told me I would find a Jew here - a Jew - a dog of a Jew - killing whom was serving the gods."
                "Who told you so?" asked Ben-Hur, taking the hand.
                "He - Messala - ha, ha, ha!"
                "When, Thord?"
                "Last night."
                "I thought he was hurt."
                "He will never walk again. On his bed he told me between groans."
                A very vivid portrayal of hate in a few words; and Ben-Hur saw that the Roman, if he lived, would still be capable and dangerous, and follow him unrelentingly. Revenge remained to sweeten the ruined life; therefore the clinging to fortune lost in the wager with Sanballat. Ben-Hur ran the ground over, with a distinct foresight of the many ways in which it would be possible for his enemy to interfere with him in the work he had undertaken for the King who was coming. Why not he resort to the Roman's methods? The man hired to kill him could be hired to strike back. It was in his power to offer higher wages. The temptation was strong; and, half yielding, he chanced to look down at his late antagonist lying still, with white upturned face, so like himself. A light came to him, and he asked, "Thord, what was Messala to give you for killing me?"
                "A thousand sestertii."
                "You shall have them yet; and so you do now what I tell you, I will add three thousand more to the sum."
                The giant reflected aloud,
                "I won five thousand yesterday; from the Roman one - six. Give me four, good Arrius - four more - and I will stand firm for you, though old Thor, my namesake, strike me with his hammer. Make it four, and I will kill the lying patrician, if you say so. I have only to cover his mouth with my hand - thus."
                He illustrated the process by clapping his hand over his own mouth.
                "I see," said Ben-Hur; "ten thousand sestertii is a fortune. It will enable you to return to Rome, and open a wine-shop near the Great Circus, and live as becomes the first of the lanistae."
                The very scars on the giant's face glowed afresh with the pleasure the picture gave him.
                "I will make it four thousand," Ben-Hur continued; "and in what you shall do for the money there will be no blood on your hands, Thord. Hear me now. Did not your friend here look like me?"
                "I would have said he was an apple from the same tree."
                "Well, if I put on his tunic, and dress him in these clothes of mine, and you and I go away together, leaving him here, can you not get your sestertii from Messala all the same? You have only to make him believe it me that is dead."
                Thord laughed till the tears ran into his mouth.
                "Ha, ha, ha! Ten thousand sestertii were never won so easily. And a wine-shop by the Great Circus! - all for a lie without blood in it! Ha, ha, ha! Give me thy hand, O son of Arrius. Get on now, and - ha, ha, ha! - if ever you come to Rome, fail not to ask for the wine-shop of Thord the Northman. By the beard of Irmin, I will give you the best, though I borrow it from Caesar!"
                They shook hands again; after which the exchange of clothes was effected. It was arranged then that a messenger should go at night to Thord's lodging-place with the four thousand sestertii. When they were done, the giant knocked at the front door; it opened to him; and, passing out of the atrium, he led Ben-Hur into a room adjoining, where the latter completed his attire from the coarse garments of the dead pugilist. They separated directly in the Omphalus.
                "Fail not, O son of Arrius, fail not the wine-shop near the Great Circus! Ha, ha, ha! By the beard of Irmin, there was never fortune gained so cheap. The gods keep you!"
                Upon leaving the atrium, Ben-Hur gave a last look at the myrmidon as he lay in the Jewish vestments, and was satisfied. The likeness was striking. If Thord kept faith, the cheat was a secret to endure forever.
                At night, in the house of Simonides, Ben-Hur told the good man all that had taken place in the palace of Idernee; and it was agreed that, after a few days, public inquiry should be set afloat for the discovery of the whereabouts of the son of Arrius. Eventually the matter was to be carried boldly to Maxentius; then, if the mystery came not out, it was concluded that Messala and Gratus would be at rest and happy, and Ben-Hur free to betake himself to Jerusalem, to make search for his lost people.
                At the leave-taking, Simonides sat in his chair out on the terrace overlooking the river, and gave his farewell and the peace of the Lord with the impressment of a father. Esther went with the young man to the head of the steps.
                "If I find my mother, Esther, thou shalt go to her at Jerusalem, and be a sister to Tirzah."
                And with the words he kissed her.
                Was it only a kiss of peace?
                He crossed the river next to the late quarters of Ilderim, where he found the Arab who was to serve him as guide. The horses were brought out.
                "This one is thine," said the Arab.
                Ben-Hur looked, and, lo! it was Aldebaran, the swiftest and brightest of the sons of Mira, and, next to Sirius, the beloved of the sheik; and he knew the old man's heart came to him along with the gift.
                The corpse in the atrium was taken up and buried by night; and, as part of Messala's plan, a courier was sent off to Gratus to make him at rest by the announcement of Ben-Hur's death - this time past question.
                Ere long a wine-shop was opened near the Circus Maximus, with inscription over the door:
THORD THE NORTHMAN.

Saturday 11 August 2018

Prayer of St. Thomas Aquinas (in Latin and Portuguese)


Concede michi misericors Deus que tibi placita sunt ardenter concupiscere, prudenter inuestigare, ueraciter agnoscere et perfecte implere. Ad laudem et gloriam nominis tui ordina statum meum, et quod a me requiris tribue ut sciam, et da exequi ut oportet et expedit anime mee. Via mea, Domine, ad te tuta sit, recta et consummata, non deficiens inter prospera et aduersa, ut in prosperis tibi gratiam referam et in aduersis seruem patientiam, ut in illis non extollar et in istis non deprimar; de nullo gaudeam nisi quod promoueat me apud te, nec de aliquo doleam nisi quod abducat me a te; nulli placere appetam uel displicere timeam nisi te. Vilescant michi omnia transitoria propter te, et cara sint michi omnia tua et tu Deus super quam omnia. Tedeat me omnis gaudii quod est sine te, nec cupiam aliquid quod est extra te. Delecte me labor qui est pro te, et tediosa sit michi omnis quies que non est in te. Frequenter da me cor meum ad te dirigere, et defectionem meam cum emendationis proposito dolendo pensare. Fac me, Deus meus, humilem sine fictione, ylarem sine dissolutione, tristem sine deiectione, maturum sine grauiture, agilem sine leuitate, ueracem sine duplicitate, te timentem sine desperatione, sperentem sine presumptione, proximum corrigere sine simulatione, ipsum edificare uerbo et exemplo sine elatione, obedientem sine contradictione, patientem sine murmuratione. Da michi, dulcissime Deus, cor peruigil quod nulla abducat a te curiosa cogitatio; da nobile quod nulla deorsum trahat indigna affectio; da inuictum quod nulla fatiget tribulatio; et da liberum quod nulla sibi uendicet uiolenta temptatio; et da rectum quod nulla obliquet sinistra intentio. Largire michi, Domine Deus meus, intellectum te cognoscentem, diligentiam te querentem, sapientiam te inuenientem, conuersationem tibi placentem, perseuerantiam te fideliter expectantem, et fiduciam te finaliter amplectentem; tuis penis configi per penitentiam, tuis beneficiis uti in uia per gratiam, et tuis gaudiis in patria frui per gloriam. Amen.



Concedei-me, ó Deus onipotente e misericordioso, ardentemente desejar, prudentemente descobrir, verazmente conhecer e perfeitamente realizar o que for do vosso agrado. Para louvor e glória do vosso nome, ordenai meu estado de vida e dai-me saber, poder e querer o que me pedis que faça. E dai-me levá-lo a cabo como convém à salvação de minha alma. Que o meu caminho até vós seja reto e seguro. Que eu não sucumba na prosperidade nem na adversidade, a fim de não me ensoberbecer na primeira nem desesperar na segunda. Que na fortuna eu vos renda graças e na dificuldade mantenha a paciência. Que eu de nada me alegre ou entristeça senão do que me leve a vós ou afaste de vós. Que a ninguém deseje agradar nem tema aborrecer senão somente a vós. Dai-me tudo fazer com caridade e o que não diz respeito ao vosso culto, reputá-lo como morto. Dai-me praticar minhas ações, não por costume, mas referindo-as a vós com devoção. Que por vós eu não dê valor às coisas transitórias, e me seja caro tudo o que vos diz respeito. Que me compraza, mais do que tudo, todo trabalho que for para vós e me aborreça todo descanso que não seja em vós. Dai-me, dulcíssimo Senhor, dirigir-vos meu coração frequente e ferventemente e, de alma contrita, emendar com firme propósito a minha fraqueza. Fazei-me, ó Deus, humilde sem fingimento; alegre sem dissipação; grave sem depressão; maduro sem severidade; vivaz sem leviandade; veraz sem duplicidade; temente sem desespero; confiante sem presunção; casto sem corrupção; corrigir ao próximo sem indignação e edificá-lo por exemplo e palavra sem exageração; obediente sem contradição; paciente sem murmuração. Dai-me, dulcíssimo Jesus, um coração desperto, para que nenhuma vã curiosidade o afaste de vós; imóvel, para que não ceda a nenhum afeto indigno; infatigável, para que não sucumba em nenhuma tribulação; livre, para que dele não se apodere nenhum prazer violento; e reto, para que não o faça desviar-se nenhuma má intenção. Concedei-me, dulcíssimo Deus, inteligência para conhecer-vos; diligência para buscar-vos; sabedoria para encontrar-vos; bondade para agradar-vos; perseverança para esperar-vos doce e fielmente; confiança para alcançar-vos felizmente. Fazei-me, pela penitência, suportar vossas penas; utilizar vossos benefícios nesta vida pela graça; e por fim, na pátria eterna, desfrutar de vossos gozos pela glória. Vós, que com o Pai e o Espírito Santo viveis e reinais pelos séculos dos séculos. Amém.



 


Friday 10 August 2018

Friday's Sung Word: "Allô, Allô Carnaval" by Lamartine Babo and Hervé Cordovil (in Portuguese)

Allô, Allô Carnaval
Carmen Miranda

Alô, alô, alô, alô Carnaval
Ouço o teu tambor!
Alô, alô, alô, alô Carnaval
Colombina é o teu amor.

Dizem que Pierrô se apaixonou por mim
P'rá fazer inveja ao meu querido Arlequim.


Dizem que Arlequim é o meu melhor freguês
Eu engano os dois querendo os dois de uma vez.


You can hear "Allô, Allô Carnaval" sung by Carmen and Aurora Miranda here.